My Former Blue Pill Prison

[Sky-OParticipant 18934]

It was a prison cell constructed by the lies, manipulations, deception of a narcissistic princess, combined with a false belief that when a woman says she is monogamous that it meant other men’s c~~~s would not be entering any of her three orifices as long as we were together.  My attempts to escape the cell were always prevented by her written words (more lies) and empty promises. Now, I can handle the fact the world is not a fair place, but just never knew that another human being could engage in the type of behavior I have experience with women, and then do so without a conscience and with no empathy or compassion.

I finally woke up and got out. Escaped in a sense, but I was never really trapped in that prison, as the door was never locked to begin with. I just had to push on it and walk out. Leaving behind what even at it’s best was just a façade and a charade. I ultimately chose to live with and accept a painful truth rather than continue living within the mirage of a comfortable lie.

Pulled these out of one of my blue pill boxes that I have in the garage. Boxes filled with items that serve only one purpose and that is to remind me that it was all real.

Important to note: In the line where she says “. . . you are the only man that I ever or will ever love.” – It is just her modus operandi during the initial stage of any relationship to put a guy through an idealization phase where she even convinces herself that he is better than all previous guys (c~~~s) and will be the only guy she ever loves. Her own narcissism causes that since she worships herself and by default, only a guy that she builds up and idealizes is worthy of her (and her holes).

In the next line, she decided to go all out with “Every other man that I have known were only poor, temporary replacements for the one man I so desperately wanted” –  If you are a guy that she is banging 3-5 times a day and the sex is on a level equivalent to what is seen in porn, it is possible to actually start believing that nonsense. And while overdosing on blue pills, her pheromones and firing off loads all day, manipulation like that can eventually get into your head and become scripture.

And then at the bottom. . . . “P.S.  I love having sex with you too. . . .” – But there was ultimately a problem with that after about a year. She eventually loved having sex with other guys too. And if she had just told me at the time, I could have walked away with some dignity intact. Her addiction to lying and deception resulted in her hiding the infidelity until I eventually found out and crashed really hard. After all at that point, there was nothing of myself as a man left. I had indirectly assigned my self worth to whether or not I was the idealized and over valued person she spent a year grooming me into thinking I was. But only was, because of her. And once again: for that I take full responsibility. Surrendering my manhood, self worth and autonomy over to a sociopath was my fault.

Sky-O

 

 

 

[MGTOWmonkey aka No More Fucks To GiveParticipant 6635]

That mutherf~~~a!!!! Man was she a damn liar,let this be a lesson man we all have had this and you are not alone. Karma is orbiting back around…..

Never lose sight of what brought you here.

[33wolfmanParticipant 216]

I got s~~~ like that when I was deployed, plus some online vids, looking back I have to wonder who was in the room with her. It’s funny because after awhile they tip there hand about it.

[DeepInThoughtParticipant 2710]

This post was like looking at a snapshot from a previous relationship of mine. Bloody hell!

 

Yep, I remember getting notes like this and I also now remember the Idealize, Devalue and Discard stages to of a sociopath. Disgusting creatures and know this all those special things they said that you thought were only for you? Well she is telling the very same s~~~ to the next guy, it is a very well polished script and so is the ending.

 

Thanks for sharing

 

[DeepInThoughtParticipant 2710]

MGTOWmonkey aka No More Fucks To Give wrote:

Karma is orbiting back around…..

 

I gave up on the Karma theory a long time ago. To me it is total BS, even more with sociopathic women because they always come away unscathed and usually better off.

[finallyfreeParticipant 341]

Boy oh boy, I thought it was just me who got all those sweet cards and little notes telling me I was the best guy in the world. These whores are just plain awful

DeepInThought:  I gave up on the Karma theory a long time ago. To me it is total BS, even more with sociopathic women because they always come away unscathed and usually better off.

Yes I agree. Those types of women never get whats coming to them because they will always dump the guys they date before their trickery becomes too obvious. I used to always think to myself  “she will get whats coming to her” but in the back of my mind I know she will just keep using and abusing men.  One time I texted her ” Do you believe in Karma? I do”  and she sent a hostile response. I suddenly realized that she knew she had bad karma coming to her and hated to be reminded of it.  I just smiled  at that point.

 

[Sky-OParticipant 18934]

Ok,

Round II from the archives:

*Note (at some point when I can figure out how to do it, I’m going to upload a voicemail to Youtube that she left me where she was letting me know she was masturbating and went through the entire process in the voicemail message. . . . Which included her climaxing and yelling “I’m gonna cum!!’ – I’ve played it for a few buddies that literally stand there like WTF and are speechless.

Now, back to Round II from the archives:

Same slut as above.

Early on, she states “I love how you take care of me, I have always felt so safe and protected with you.” – In hindsight, I always laughed about comments she made like that because she occasionally requested what she called ‘rape night’ and wanted me to come home, put on a ski mask and enter the bedroom with duct tape and rope. And what happened next is pretty graphic. So I’m still not sure where she got the feeling of being safe and protected with me. It was all part of her fantasy but at the same time. . . . like WTF as usual.

Continuing on “. . . .for bringing out parts of me that I never shared with another man. I love being bad with you. . . ” Which I assumed meant all of the hardcore porn related stuff that she was into: including but not limited to anal, facials, choking, bondage, using a device she called ‘Buzzer Guy’ to simulate her DP fantasy while I was banging her, total psychological mind-f~~~ing during sex and one of her favorite scenarios which was her getting dressed up in a short skirt outfit with boots and I had to make believe I was a porn producer interviewing her for a scene and then she would start trying out for the role.

Still can’t believe I survived 18 months of that journey straight into the depths of a place that I almost lost my soul. Towards the end, I was physically, emotionally and even spiritually exhausted.

[HitmanParticipant]

thats the female version of a man telling a woman she is the most beautiful,,lies to get laid with..

[ArjunParticipant 11]

“You need to belive me when I tell you….”<—WTF kinda brainwash?!

[Anonymous 42]

Yea, “I love you always and forever”  “one and only” bat s~~~! My answer to that: “not  now, not ever!” The psycho notes of a psychotic princess. Been there, f~~~ that!

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