My forced Red Pill enlightenment

[Won'tGetFooledAgainParticipant 3293]

My experience is the typical story of a Blue Pill Beta who has been forced to choke down the Red Pill.  The Red Pill enlightenment is not something that can be taught, it is a gradual realisation bought on by experience and self discovery.  It is the most painful thing I have ever done, but also the most worthwhile and enlightening thing I have ever done. It was an enormous relief to discover the Manosphere and MHTOW as it confirmed all the Red Pill views that I was starting to have.  It also proved to me that I wasn’t just bitter and twisted and I was on the verge of discovering the secret to a world I was not part of.

 

My first mistake I made was I initially thought it was my duty to stop other men making the same mistakes I have made. I have now realised that it is pointless trying to warn men who are looking at getting married as they just dismiss any Red Pill talk as being bitter and twisted.

 

So basically in my early 20’s I was very socailly akward and had zero success with women.  I used to spend all my time doing things for me but there was always this nagging feeling that I was missing out on something.  After all, we are all led to believe that the secret to happiness is to get a good job, get married, buy a house, have children and live happily ever afer.  What I didn’t realise at the time was that I was actually in the best position I could have ever been in and had endless opportunities to do whatever I wanted.

 

I eventually met a girl who I was with for a year, and when we split I quickly met someone else.  She was living in a rented room in a friends house and I eventually suggested she moved in with me.  This was obviously the start of a massive mistake, but I didn’t realise this at the time.  Anyway we eventually bought a house together and all of my group of friends started to get married and have babies.  She started making hints about getting married which was something I was really not that bothered about.  I thought getting married was the right thing to do as everyone else was doing it and my Blue Pill upbringing led me to believe that was what you did.  So we got married, moved house and had two children.  My wife took six years off work and I provided for the family and looked after all the bills, the house, cars etc.

 

When she got to 35 she joined a gym, lost weight, bought new clothes, joined Facebook and started going out with her female friends.  I think I sesnsed something was wrong but my subconscious way of dealing with this was to try and do even more for her.  She started treating her mobile phone like the crown jewels and members of my family warned me that there was a guy on Facebook who she was continually liking and commenting on his posts. Then she started going away for weekends with friends and leaving me to look after the children.  It all came to a head when she claimed she was going away for the weekend to stay with her mother.  Something was not right so I drove down later that night and discovered her car was not there.  I phoned her to ask where she actually was and she told me she was staying with a friend and to just go home.

 

We split the next day and I moved in with my parents.  She denied she had done anything wrong and that she “Loved me but just wasn’t in love with me”.  I had access to her phone records and she was texting one number up to 200 times a day.  I needed to find out who it was but whenever I called there was no answer.  For days I was lying awake in bed feeling sick unable to eat or sleep wondering who this mystery man was.  I had the number in my phone and one day I was using Whatsapp and it matched the number complete with a photo.  Surprise, surprise it was the guy from Facebook who my family had warned me about.

 

When I confronted her she had no reaction and she just stated that he had been through a breakup and he was someone to talk to as he understood her.  This was the point when everything fell into place and I realised just how much she had been lying to me over the years.

 

Although I didn’t realise it I had just started my Red Pill journey even though I didn’t know such a thing existed.  I was destroyed for the first 6 months and didn’t think I could ever be happy again.  I thought she had left me because I was so ugly and boring and that the new man she had found was way better looking and more exciting than me.  Because of my low self esteem I joined POF just to start talking to people eventually.  That was the main thing, I just wanted to talk to someone about what was happening to me.

 

I thought POF would be hard work but to my surprise it was like shooting fish in a barrel.  The first few dates were pretty akward but as time went on and I got more and more confident I discovered that I could sleep with the vast majority of women I went on a date with if I wanted.  This then led me to realise that for all those years I had put women on a pedestal and thought that sex actually ment something.  In reality all women are lying sluts and that the guys who got all the sex in their 20s (the Aphas as I have since learned) knew this secret already.  I then realised that the more women I dated the less I cared about them and the less I cared about them the more they wanted to be with me.  This was not a conscious decision on my part, I truly did not care about them.  I used to be the type of guy who messaged girls straight away and got all clingy.  Now I realise that if you just ignore them and treat them badly they will do anything you want.

 

I then realised that the only reason my ex wanted to marry me in the first place was because of the Beta Bucks.  She had obviously enjoyed the C~~~ Carousel, but she thought it was time to secure the house, kids and a meal ticked.  Once that was in place she got bored and wanted back on the Carousel before it was too late.  I then discovered the Manosphere, this site and read everything I could about Red Pill/Blue Pill Alpha/Beta behaviour.  I suddenly had an Epiphany and realised that I suddenly just got it.  I understood everything that I had done in my former Blue Pill life had led me to this point.

 

So fast forward to today and I am a total Red Pill convert.  I realise that my former Blue Pill life did not make me happy and I now understand that I do not need a woman to make me happy.  I also understand that woman are there just for sex and there is no point putting up with any of their s~~~ to get it.

 

As for my ex, I think she experimented with the C~~~ Carousel for a bit but realised that things had moved on since she was in her 20s.  Rather than exciting Alpha’s being after her all she experienced was being pumped and dumped.  Predictably enough she has now settled for another Blue Pill Beta with two children and is now worse off that she was before.

 

A friend of hers split with her husband for two years and then they eventually got back together as “he was so in love with her”.  I think my wife thought she could slut it up for a year or two and if it didn’t all work out I would go running back to her.  She has been making hints recently that she made a massive mistake and that she misses what we had.  She misses me making her life easy and looking after her and I am not going to be her plan B,C or D.

 

I on the other hand am happier than I have ever been, bought a convertable, loads of new clothes, look after myself and realised that I am actually not bad.  My next step is to get a vasectomy so I can be truly free and no woman can ever trap me.  I am happy to use them for entertainment and sex but I would never believe a word they say anymore.

 

 

 

For women, everything eventually boils down to Alpha Fucks, Beta Bucks.

[DoinMyOwnThing40Participant 1000]

Bravo! A great ending to your story. Welcome to Mgtow!

Women are parasites. Each and every last one of them.

[ExsliventxsParticipant 1067]

Well, you can text and flirt with people all you want. I don’t care, I’m not possessive.

You perform any sexual act with them, sexting, BJs whatever, you’re dead to me. The End.

No running back to me later.  Bravo, I agree completely.

[Bright guyParticipant 156]

Holy crap!!!! Your story is identical to mine….I did the marriage thing, have some great kids, and the sex dried up!!! I was told everyday how much I suck. Its starts to make you wonder if it  really is her or me.. Mine did the same thing with going on Facebook and spending hours on end doing God knows what.. I got laid off from my job 3 years ( worked several part time jobs to bring in money)  She decided her money was hers and my money was  our money. I became the stay at home dad. This was the start of my red pill experience. A beautiful journey that is leading me to the road to freedom from a controlling, ball and chain that has slowly crushed my spirit.

Fast forward to last summer– she gets a small inheritance, gets new hair , clothes and makeup and starts to disappear. This is followed by the “I want a divorce” speech. Phone records show she was texted between her and her boyfriend 6800 times in 38 days. Kids want to stay with her and she is looking on child support based on my earning from 4 years ago.— Sorry dear — child support is based on the last 2 years of income ( stay at home dad make next to nothing) which also means no alimony..

Her parents were the ones who took the largest financial hit—$320k for another house plus $20k for divorce and a lifetime of making sure she has money to support the house. Boy they must be very freakn proud of her… lol.

The current house will be sold. I have found another full time job. Child Support has been settled. I will have joint custody of my kids. I will be able to start saving money again for me and my kids because I want to- not because I have to!!!

I got the ” this would not have happened if you just had a job” speech from her the other day. Bulls~~~!!! If I had been making money all along, her attitude would be the Fu@Kn same.  The end result would have been the same except I would be paying a hell of a lot more money including alimony.

I am have a big ass smile on my face as she complains about how her life will change. She now has a fulltime job which she will be out for 55 hours a weeks. She still has not experienced the full effects which will include all the shopping and kid drop off and pick ups. She has complained with every box she hauls out of the house. I remind her ” this is what you wanted”.. Yes it will be tough on me for the adjustment of not seeing my kids everyday but life is always in a constant change. We all will adapt– some will survive. I have decide to thrive!!! New beginnings and new experiences are what I need. I am assuming her new boyfriend will grow tired of being an instant daddy and will bolt with a years time. He never had kids, doesn’t even own a car. I wish him the best and would love to shake his hand. He set me on my road to freedom.

I sign the divorce papers on Friday. I have no hesitation I am moving in the right direction. The cost of the divorce is the price of my freedom to do what I want, where I want and how I want with who ever I want.

[finallyfreeParticipant 341]

Bright guy you are correct if you had a job she would just move on to another excuse.

I got the ” this would not have happened if you just had a job” – total bulls~~~.  Women do this crap all the time. They pick something you don’t have and then try to say that it’s the reason their is a problem in the relations~~~. I was making six figures when I was dating this whore and its funny how none of our arguments were related to finances?? But if I was making 25 k a year, I think every argument would have been related to money- oh wait, I just realized she wouldn’t have dated me at all if I made that much- you just can’t win with the modern day slut.

“I wish him the best and would love to shake his hand”- absolutely hilarious. I feel the same way with my ex and her new victim. I even told her a few times when we were breaking up that ” I feel sorry for the next guy”. She always texts me after long periods of silence.  Last week she made the mistake of giving her new victim/ boyfriend my cell number. I told him to run and never look back and that she is a manipulative female dog.  He got defensive ( he was white knighting for a whore that evening).

I feel like we as men need to start looking out for each other a little bit. I was so glad she gave him my number so I could tell him how she really is but the “pussy spell” she has him under is powerful i guess? I even told him that I would literally have paid to have that info when I first met her.

 

 

 

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