My back story….

[Gen.OivanParticipant 88]

This may get long winded, I don’t have many friends to talk to which is fine, I am more of a reserved quiet person I observe more than speak and it intimidates many people.
Firsts things first I have been married for 6 years and we do NOT have any children.

I used to consider myself one of the “good guys” who was unlike the other ALPHA’s and typical assholes out there in the world; in a nut shell I had become what I have termed myself as a GinaKnight. I am a good listener, emotional and caring all the qualities that women consider “good husband material” I can fix anything from rebuilding engines in cars to painting walls in the house.

My past relations~~~s are few, my first was a couple years younger than myself, man was she ever a controlling manipulative freak but great in bed, however every time we f~~~ed should would become mega bitch and start a fight for no apparent reason, she always told me that she was going to be driving a CTS and “I” was going to provide it for her after about 6 months of that crap I had enough and tossed her to the curb. </span></p>

After her I had a couple of romps one was an H & D we went out a few times and fooled around nothing ever came of it.

A few months later I met a girl I was working with at a national chain super store, she was fun, nympho, submissive and went along with everything I wanted to do, however after 6-8 months she started showing the signs of a psycho, I picked up on them really quick and dropped her off at the cleaners, she tried calling a few weeks later stating she was pregnant but she was miscarrying and she wanted me to drive her to the hospital because they have a shot that can stop the miscarriage (not sure if that is true or not) needless to say I did not drive her and never heard from her again, although my dad says he sees her all the time at one of the big box hardware stores working the cash register( she really moved up in life).
After the short string of relations~~~s I stayed to myself for a couple of years, I starting playing video games, hanging out with my friend, drinking and have a good time. I choose to be celibate went on a few dates but never anything more.

In January of 2006 I met my current wife, she was fun, great to be around, life of the party we would go out to the bar, karaoke, I was playing in a band, we played a bunch of local bars and we were having a great time, after 6 months of dating we decided to get an apartment together, from that day on it has been a massive fight once a week for years. It went from her being unhappy working her part time job as a medical assistant, she was miserable with her boss and her co-workers never do anything and she is always picking up the slack for everyone. Being the nice GinaKnight that I am I said go ahead and quit we can make it on one income while you look for something else. ( the worst part is she had a job lined up at another office but she lost that opportunity because she gave her friends phone numbers as her employers numbers and the manager at the place that was going to hire her found out by google).RED FLAG  #1 , that I did not know at the time but looking back….  So here we are living in an apartment with bills and one income where I am only making 10$ an hour 40hours a week.

That cycle has and still continues to this day.
As for me I was trying to find my place and I tried quite a few jobs including welding, auto mechanic, and I finally decided on going to truck driving school for my cdl. It took me 4 weeks of schooling and then I was off on the road, first with a trainer for 6 weeks and then I got my own rig at one of the big trucking companies. During this time my wife moved back in with her mom and I would just stay there because I was only home for a week at a time every couple months. While I was over the road my wife would go out with her friends to the bar all the time, I found she was on a dating site that she said she was doing it out mutual friend… (AND SOMEHOW I BELIEVED HER). I have no proof of that she ever cheated but how the f~~~ would I know; I was never home, I was across the country driving 10 hours a day 7 days a week for 6-8 weeks at a time. I finally had enough when I came home one week and that entire week I had to clean the room we were staying in because she would not, I even had to clean the cat litter every time I came home because in her words “It was disgusting and I don’t like doing it” worst part is that it was her cat from before we even met. I finally had enough and instead of dumping her I decided to quit the truck driving because it was the “job” that was straining our relationship. I was out of work for 2 years after I quit the truck driving job. At the end of my not working she finally got a full time job and was making decent money with sales plus salary things were starting to look good, I got hired in at a shop that had great opportunity to learn how to become a tool maker. I started working part time sweeping the floor and work my way up from there, now comes the part that when I started working she somehow got fired from her job because she called in sick too often even though the last time she did she got a doctor’s note for an ear infection. (She did wind up getting unemployment for 2 years.)

For some reason after her unemployment ran out was when she decided to go to school full time ( I always found that it was convenient that she waited until her unemployment was out). So me being the “supportive” husband that I am said sure go ahead I like the direction my career is going so yeah go to school and get educated and earn a degree so we can both just get on with our lives and earn some money together.

(Before I forget as a disclaimer I was not perfect there was a moment that I was talking with a woman that I knew from high school, never physical just emotional this was a quite a few years into the relationship with my wife after the truck driving and finding her on the dating sites. I know it is no excuse but there is nothing I can say about it except that I f~~~ed up.)

Anyways getting back on track lets fast forward a few years, she is now done with her associates degree and by this time we are planning our move to the deep deep south. I mean near Orlando south, at this time we remodeled our house and sold it, living with her grandma and mom. Finally comes the moving date and we drive down took us a week with stopping at her friend’s house for a few days and finally making down to Florida. We are again staying with her mom and grandma who snowbird. So it is a stress full time, trying to find a house to rent, a job and living with 3 grown hens. It took me a week to find a good job, (because my skills are in high demand I can pretty much walk in and they are throwing offers at me.) I have been working at the same place since we have been here.

My wife found a part time job as a medical assistant working a few days a week, after a month of her working there she was yelling and screaming that she hated it her boss was s~~~ty and she quit and a few days later did have a better job, however she hated that job also but she worked there for 6 months in that time she befriended our neighbor and was going directly over to her house every night as soon as she got home. I would cook dinner and she would come in the house to eat and then go directly next door she would say hi to me and that was it. There would be some days that she would just go directly next door and not come in to eat or she would take dinner over next door and hang with the neighbor. (Who is a 3 times divorced single woman and was in the process of another divorce.) this went on for months I finally said f~~~ it do whatever I started hiking and bowling but eventually that stopped cause I would get nagged for spending money bowling and my time and gas driving to parks to hike. So I started to just play world of Warcraft again. Eventually yet again she was complaining so much about her job sucking and she did all the work and all her co-workers were lazy bitches who didn’t do anything at all…..So again what did I say “well just quit we can survive on my income” and by god she too me up on that offer. she was out of work for a month and we were living very short pay check to paycheck, going to second hand stores for food, I could by any clothes cause the budget couldn’t afford the, however she did keep the house clean and did cook, but she still had that problem of being addicted to the neighbor and as soon as I got home and was eating she ran off next door all night long until it was time for the woman next door to go to bed. After about a month of her not working I told her it was time to get a job, and was the start of the first BIG fight (we had many which always ended with her threatening to divorce or take some time off from the relationship.) at the end of the BIG fight I finally told her if she did not want to work there was the front door, your grandma and mom are 2 miles away don’t break my f~~~ing front door as you exit. Her eyes got big as the cat bowl and her attitude changed drastically. She started crying and s~~~ said I can’t believe you want to end it after all this time and don’t you think what we have is worth working on. (This was before I ever started looking into why she was acting like this, after every argument I was always under the impression that everything was my fault, like I said GinaKnight).

So I relented and let her stay and we were working out everything. Then another month later she comes to me screaming that I am not changing and everything is the same and she was tired of trying if I did not care to try and change I was of course like WTF I just put up with a year of crap and now that you f~~~ed s~~~ up I have to just forget overnight, her response was …..”well yeah”. I walked out of the room and went into my “man cave” (I know I read the thread about man caves and I can’t believe I have ever allowed myself to stoop to that level of having to designate a room in the back corner of the house as my own and since we only have 2 bedrooms I only get 50% of that room at that.) she followed me into the room grabbed my face and said “I don’t like you, I never have liked you and I am leaving” my response to her was o.k. this time don’t come back I told you the last time if you ever say that s~~~ again there is no more chances. And yet somehow here my ass is she is still here because of her promise to change.

She has changed quite drastically she has drastically changed religious views going from barely believing to full force preaching and demanding that I start believing or I am going to hell and getting mad at me for drinking red-bull and eating pizza with the guys at work because she is now all organic and non-GMO. So now it is a different fight, all she does now is watch illuminati documentaries on YouTube about them taking over the world and forcing us to a one world government eradicating half of our population. (If you believe that I am sorry to offend, I just believe differently.)

This brings me now to the present where I have in my research of finding out why my wife acts the way that she does, from her being narcissistic and bi-polar depressive, and me finding my own way. I have started taking red pills in bulk,  we are still together but I now am starting to do the things that make me happy, I still compromise a little bit but even there I am starting to say no, like going to the in-laws ever night for dinner, wife doesn’t  like me cooking at home because I make a mess and in her words “I don’t clean as good as she does”  I built my first ar-15 from scratch with the machines at work, on my time after hours (kinda nice the owner loves guns and I am the boss when he is not here.) I go fishing every night after work; I go hiking on the weekends.

Which is now the cause of new fights because I am doing what I want to do and spending all my attention on her and her “stomach aches”, “back aches”, her “toe pains” and every other ailment that she can come up with, I just tuck her in bed and give her a kiss and go on my way to walking or playing CS, WoW or GTA (can’t stand it when I play GTA).

This is my story for now, it took me a while to write it there are some things on here not even my best friend knows, I am probably going to send him a copy of this I am sorry for it being long winded and I know I don’t have it half as hard as the men who have proof of their spouses cheating, or the men with kids with cheating spouses to those men I salute and support.

[Anonymous 42]

@genoivan, Your wife being obsessed with conspiracy theory can become self destructive, she’ll worry more about the things she cannot change than the things she can change. Your predicament is not all that bad, you have no kids, you’re swallowing red pills by the dozen, pay extreme attention to your instincts, don’t follow your heart, it can’t be trusted, follow your head, if your head says yes, then your heart will naturally follow. Keep logic and intellect in control of your emotions, it’s a win win when a man has his thinking in good order. Welcome to MGTOW, don’t worry about a long post, it’s better than a short incomplete post, thanks for sharing, enjoy the forum!

P.S. An AR 15 without numbers could get you in trouble, or it could save your life! I’m pro gun myself.

[Gen.OivanParticipant 88]

thank you MG-TOWER, I know I have it much better than most, that I am thankful for, I have a really good friend at work who’s wife has gone off the deep end had 5 affairs in 1 week, left him and his 3 kids to fend for themselves and she her self was picked up and baker acted by the police. It just amazes me when I hear the NAWALT and of all the guys working here 3/4 have been or are divorced or going through a divorce and I just wonder when my time is up.

 

P.S. AR-15, yeah i researched all the laws down here and the atf website, I keep up to date and when and if they require I will follow all laws that have been set forth. I value my freedom above all else. as a side note I am in the process of becoming a class 7 manufacturer with SOT class 3.

[Anonymous 42]

It’s good that you know the treachery that awaits you after investing anything with the modern narcissistic and sometimes psychotic intent of a woman.

As long as you know, and take measures necessary to protect you solidarity and sanity as a plain and natural man. We’re simple, women are complicated, to allow a woman advantage over a man, will eventually destroy the man.

[mgtow_85Participant 752]

Money can really change a person.

Isn’t it amazing how when a woman is single, she seems to do pretty good at her job(certain jobs, anyway), but when she is married, she’s constantly whining about work, looks for reasons to quit her job, and has a hard time finding work after doing so?

Of course, it’s really hard for a woman to try to find a job when someone else is already financing their bulls~~~ with another means of income. Their reasons for finding a job are completely drained away unless no one is paying for their wants and needs.

A woman who is single is capable of finding jobs in a minute. Even if it’s $400 an hour sucking dicks or as a pole dancer. But if she’s married…well, just like the OP’s story. Drawing unemployment for 2 years and THEN the idea of wanting to start college right after those checks stop coming, instead of doing it when the checks could have financed it.

Men are truly seen as a walking ATM machine.

[OasidParticipant 116]

Thanks for the post Genoivan and Welcome!

May the Force Be With You

[Gen.OivanParticipant 88]

Thank you for the kind words and encouragement fella’s it is much appreciated

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