Messiahs pointed to the door And no one had the guts to leave the temple!

[JimBoLeaParticipant 1891]

I’M FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I’m free,
And freedom tastes of reality,
I’m free-I’m free,
the last relationship I fumbled my way thru was back in 90, (interesting side note , of all the relationships I have had, it takes my mind about 10 years or so to get over). she was In my eye’s someone perfect and special, meeting her at the AA club , thinking she was the right one for me. Oh, how silly and wrong I was. even just casually dating her , no sex involved, I thought I was safe , but no . I mind f~~~ed myself , thinking she was for me. the hurt came instantaneously , having a colleague of mine , asking If he could date her . no no , I was saying on the inside, outwards was yeah go right ahead. the constant games my mind plays with me,
Is that her??? is that her green car??? every fricken green car that had a short haired brunette driving it was her, I worked more diligently during this time, but my mind still could not let her go. then it was the computer that took over for my brain so to speak, I recently gleaned some information that I should have let well alone. but no I like the cesspool my mind has made for me .
turns out my colleague had the same interest with the girl except he had more $$$ than I did. So they got married, WOW did that slap me in the face, opened up the wound to a fresh and tender status. my mind turning, turning , ok public records. finding marriage certificates and any newly bought property and housing. oh, this computer makes it all too easy. at first, I wanted to see them both rot in hell . but then again no, I looked at it another way, I looked at it as if I had dodged a bullet , that sent a shiver of reality that clears your head like a strong mustard or horseradish . Whoa….. that’s all the bitch was looking for , $$$ , and since I had nothing , she went her merry way on to the next flower she could get nectar from. I praised God for the experience and let everything go that was stored up in my memory about her.
I still think about her , but just a thought , nothing more.
I’M FREE
“I’m Free”

[Tommy:]

I’M FREE- I’m free,
And freedom tastes of reality,
I’m free-I’m free,
AN’ I’m waiting for you to follow me.

If I told you what it takes
to reach the highest high,
You’d laugh and say ‘nothing’s that simple’
But you’ve been told many times before
Messiahs pointed to the door
And no one had the guts to leave the temple!

I’m free-I’m free
And freedom tastes of reality
I’m free-I’m free
And I’m waiting for you to follow me.

LILITH IS THE HEAD SUCCUBUS AND SHE LIVES ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

[Biggvs_DickvsParticipant 3725]

That’s why I wouldn’t consider dating anyone that wouldn’t have a simple hookup with me.

What’s the point? Plus, why would you date ANYONE if f~~~ing isn’t involved? Dating=porking –Tom Leykis

"Data, I would be delighted to offer any advice I can on understanding women. When I have some, I'll let you know." --Captain Picard,

[JimBoLeaParticipant 1891]

I’ve had a sheltered life thus far for my 52 years on this planet. Sheltered maybe for a reason , my weakness of entangled emotions that I could not free myself from . I have found this place to reflect and account, What has happened to me.

LILITH IS THE HEAD SUCCUBUS AND SHE LIVES ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

[Chaff/FlareParticipant 3235]

Your avatar is giving me seizures.

When you find yourself in the majority, it's time to reflect.

[JimBoLeaParticipant 1891]

SORRY IT’S TO SHOW I’M BLIND, I LOST A LOT OF MY EYE SIGHT FROM DIABETIC RETINOPATHY , I COULD HAVE IT FLASH IN RED AND BLUE IF THAT HELPS? 😉

LILITH IS THE HEAD SUCCUBUS AND SHE LIVES ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

[Chaff/FlareParticipant 3235]

JimBoLea wrote:

SORRY IT’S TO SHOW I’M BLIND, I LOST A LOT OF MY EYE SIGHT FROM DIABETIC RETINOPATHY , I COULD HAVE IT FLASH IN RED AND BLUE IF THAT HELPS?

Ok, I’ll start the diazepam drip if it helps you.

When you find yourself in the majority, it's time to reflect.

[Anonymous 42]

[RusskyParticipant 13503]

JimBoLea wrote:

meeting her at the AA club

Oh boy! I’ve been to treatment and AA too – those women there are FUBAR. Like shipwrecks on the bottom of the ocean. There is no patching them up and sailing them – they are done.
You’ve dodged a bullet there no doubt

proud carrier of the 'why?' chromosome

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

Russky wrote:

Oh boy! I’ve been to treatment and AA too – those women there are FUBAR.

My dad met my stepmom at AA. It never took. I still remember her falling down a flight of wooden stairs about once a week. “Bump bump bump on her ass then yelling “I’m okay”. Funniest Damn s~~~. Woman bounced on that huge ass of hers like one of those giant rubber b~~~~ with the handle in them. I don’t think she was ever sober long enough to feel pain.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[JimBoLeaParticipant 1891]

MY STENT AS I CALL IT IN AA WAS A JURNEY OF FIVE YEARS , TO SEEK OUT NEW TEMPTATIONS WITHOUT ANY CIVILIZATION. TO REALIZE ONE THING AND ONE THING ONLY, I HAVE A GOD , AND IT’S NOT ME. HE’S THE DRIVER OF THE BUS, BUT I LIKE TO TAKE THE STEERING WHEEL FROM TIME TO TIME.
YES, IT WAS IN THE EARLY YEARS I REMEMBER MY SPONSOR GIVING ME SHEDS OF WISDOM “NOT TO GET INVOLVED WITH ANY OF THE FEMALE’S YOU FIND HERE” AND I DID PRETTY WELL OF STAYING CLEAR, TILL THAT DAY I SAW HER. LOL STUPID ME. THE MORE MEETINGS I INGESTED THE MORE PATTERNS OF FEMALE ILK I SAW. THE SLUTS , THE CRYERS , THE NEEDERS , THE BEAT THE CRAP OUT OF YOU, THE HIDERS , THE SHEEP , THE DEER, AND THE SKUNKS, THE PIGS , AND I THINK YOU GET THE REST OF HUMANITY IN THERE, ALL SOBER, BUT NOT DRUNK. OR AS IN MY CASE, I HAD TO GO TO AA, SINCE I AM A METH JUNKIE 9/21/97 SOBRIETY DATE BTW, NA WAS OUT OF THE QUESTION , BECAUSE EVERYONE THERE I KNEW EITHER FROM A DEAL OR KNOWN IN THAT CULTURE AND I KNEW I WASNT GOING TO STAY SOBER IN NA.

LILITH IS THE HEAD SUCCUBUS AND SHE LIVES ON THE DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

[Biggvs_DickvsParticipant 3725]

JimBoLea wrote:

I COULD HAVE IT FLASH IN RED AND BLUE IF THAT HELPS?

Yes Please! That’s awesome.

Sorry about your eyesight – definitely NOT awesome.

"Data, I would be delighted to offer any advice I can on understanding women. When I have some, I'll let you know." --Captain Picard,

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