Mental Health

[HermitParticipant]

SpiderHerder wrote:

Sounds awesome, Hermit. All of it.
The one thing that would make it perfect though, is if I could erase all the bad memories the cu.nts (male and female) have put in my head.
Gotta do some mindfulness exercises, maybe I can blank them Stoic-style.

I actually enjoy thinking back to the miserable times of my marriage. Makes the freedom I have now that much sweeter.

One of my most favorite memories is one Christmas, I came home one night and her mom and her kunt sister were there and her sister was sitting in my chair. I silently went through the fukking roof. This was towards the very end of our marriage so I had already purchased the land where I was going to put my house. (Oh man, I get a good feeling every time I think back to this memory.) I just couldn’t stay there with her family being there. I grabbed some beer and headed off to where my new home was going to be. I stood there in the yard and pictured the house being already there. It was as though I was looking in the windows watching myself living there already even though it was just an empty lot at that time. As I said, it was Christmas so it was kinda’ cold, but I imagined myself inside and warm and maybe cooking something or watching TV, being free and happy. I don’t know how long I was there, but I stayed for quite a while drinking beer and day dreaming about what was going to be one day soon.

Now, over 7 years later, sometimes at night, I stand outside my house in that exact same spot and remember the anger and misery I felt that night, but comforting myself by thinking into the future. I stand there and look at my house, looking into the windows and it’s just as I had imagined way back then. It’s wonderful. It’s happiness. It’s freedom. ……….and it’s all mine. No woman lives there to bother me. No kunty sister-in-law will be sitting in my chair when I come home. I do as I please when I please.

I like remembering those bad times, because they’re in the past and I don’t have to live that way anymore. I’m living in the good times now and remembering the bad stuff makes the good times even better.

The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

[SpiderHerderParticipant 3791]

Wow. Great post, man. Thank you.

I’m happy for you too. That’s a really healthy way to look at it.

I guess I have a tendency to wallow in the negative parts of my past. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad I live far (well, not THAT far) from my entire family and I may never see any of them again and I’m also glad that I finally bought a house and am enjoying the little things that come with home ownership, but I sometimes tend to forget my actual contentment and start thinking about the sh.it they used to pull on me. Uugh…

Anyway, I am much better than a year ago, so I guess I only need more time.

Thanks again, Hermit.

[HermitParticipant]

SpiderHerder wrote:

Wow. Great post, man. Thank you.
I’m happy for you too. That’s a really healthy way to look at it.
I guess I have a tendency to wallow in the negative parts of my past. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad I live far (well, not THAT far) from my entire family and I may never see any of them again and I’m also glad that I finally bought a house and am enjoying the little things that come with home ownership, but I sometimes tend to forget my actual contentment and start thinking about the sh.it they used to pull on me. Uugh…
Anyway, I am much better than a year ago, so I guess I only need more time.
Thanks again, Hermit.

Hey man, I hope I did help. I was thinking about you and this conversation last night. I didn’t go out and stand in that spot as I sometimes do. I was too busy making some pickled cucumbers and having a good time. I was thinking about it though and hopefully tonight after work, I’ll go stand in the “time warp spot”.

I love going back in time in my mind like that. I’ll sometimes drive far out into the country where I used to live and I’ll park on an old road, maybe by the river and I’ll just stand there and remember way back when I was a kid standing on that same spot. Maybe I’ll remember having fun with old friends, or maybe having sex with a young pretty girl……………… I tell ya’, sometimes it really seems like I can almost travel through time in my mind.

So, that’s why I like remembering back to when life was miserable, not to wallow in it, but to stand there in that same spot when I was in misery, knowing that I would soon be happy……..I don’t know if I can explain it right……. When I was unhappy, I went into the future in my mind when I would be happy. Now that I am happy, I go back in time in my mind to when I was unhappy and looking into the future which is now. Strange when you think about it.

I’ve had a pretty good life, but lived in misery quite a bit and I’m tired of living that way, so no matter what I’m going through, I try to always be happy by “living in my mind”. Nothing in this life is permanent, including life itself. If I don’t like where I’m at, I can always “think” myself somewhere else or to some other time. Like when I’m stressed at work, I always think to myself, “No matter what I have to go through today, in a few hours I’ll be home and happy and livin’ the good life.” That usually makes the day go better.

The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

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