After 3 years of being married to my wife i have had a great opportunity to witness female nature and her own cultural programming. I have come to realize some startling truths and an interesting contradiction in men and women.
“Love”
Women “love” men for practical reasons, provision protection and status. within a tribal complex this makes perfect sense and actually in today’s world these reasons still apply. People still need to take part in the hunter gather activity but instead of hunting mammoths we go out get a job buy a new car, new house etc.
Men love women for very irrational reasons we need women for a deep seeded emotional insecurity. a blend of a maternal figure, companion and charge. Men tends toward analytical thinking, to rationality but this is the only thing we tend to do which is irrational save maybe the love of our children.
The plasticity of the human mind is incredible however and both women and men are not restricted to their nature. Witness the mangina, he is feminized in touch with a more emotional side of thinking he can in many ways think and act like a woman, imperfectly yes but he can bridge that gap. One of my uncles is more a woman than his wife. bring up any kind of right wing political thinking or social injustice as he sees it and he becomes completely emotional. Despite having a very logical mind in other fields (he is a programmer by trade. not much room for “subjectivity” in code)
I have encountered women who are capable of thinking like and interacting with men quite well. the majority of them being raised by single fathers or widowers in my experience. But the difference between the number of men and women trying to bridge roles is that one has absolutely no incentive to do so. and the other is indoctrinated by society to be so yet at the same time being a “Real man” when being both is mutually exclusive to how the modern female thinks and feels. she is still a beast, held down by Feminism and the Gynocentric mechanics of our society traditionalism serves them no better as female nature is not changed in both One is just a more extreme version of the other. Resources, Security, and Status are still sought after by the woman be it through the state or through a willing man to provide it for her.
The wife and I had a talk after the various issues which led us to where we are. from the once happy couple to getting seperated. I explained to her how I am tired of being her family’s crutch. how her father still owes us (me actually seeing as i paid it off) $6000 for his debts which she inherited. that she wants all of the usual things and yet does half the work to get them. the one time when she did make more than me it was all funneled towards the wedding there was no cooperation. since she got laid off from that job she has not had another one…five months have passed.
and yet her unhappiness is my fault.
I suddenly don’t want a baby anymore…my fault.
I stop making the effort to take care and go the extra mile…my fault.
I lose interest in her…my fault.
she actually told me “You ruined my life.” the most hurtful thing i have ever heard come out of her mouth in all three years.
Now looking at this the selfishness is obvious. Total disregard for my past efforts, the 60 hour work weeks. the dangerous line of work i had to do while she was unable to work due to visa processing as the one unarmed guard for an extension of the welfare office which deals with thier “hard cases” (ex cons, junkies, mentally ill. clients) and manual labour all that was expected. Despite my explanations of these things and how they impacted me she, like many other women i encountered said:
“And i understand that was hard, brutal infact…but…(me me me)”
For those who are married and thinking about the impact leaving a selfish and abusive spouse. will have on their wives and themselves realize this…the love a woman has for you is the love you have for your car. Nothing else. the love you have for her is closer to true love than anything a woman can know for a man. Even when she is manipulating you, when she hates you or abuses you…still you feel you are doing an injustice by going against her wants. Apply your nature as a man to tend towards rationality and analysis turn that high powered scope on this behaviour and break it down, realize it for what it is, minimizing the damage in the process (that comes naturally as knowledge is absorbed don’t worry) the departure will be far easier when you can see her for what she is.
Warrivar 3 years, 8 months ago.
