Sup, been MGTOW for a good 2 years, but actually I feel like I have been much longer. Just did not realize I was a red piller or MGTOW till I ran a search, “BEING SINGLE FOREVEr.” Came across the old forum that Nacho started. Been kinda lurking and reading up. Now I feel like it is time I communicate with others on here and check out this. I have watched many MGTOW videos. Read many posts and articles. I took that test on here and indeed I am a red piller.
I reject a relationship with a woman. However that does not make me gay or immature as some of these other people will have you believe. I have made the choice to go my own way on my own accords. Relationships with women are something I have always struggled with. The constant rejection and abuse when I was accepted was enough. It is like someone lighting yourself on fire too many times and being told to endure it for the greater good. I am not 35 and a little wiser. I am not angry or bitter at women. Some choose to be. I realize that harboring constant bitterness will get me no where. I need to ignore all that and live for myself.
What was the straw that broke the camel’s back for me? I had to endure three bad relationships before I wisened up. Alot of them were through immature women. One I dated drank way too much and I suspect was cheating. I also suspect she was trying to get pregnant through me so she could use me. The fact that she had condoms on her and offered them sent me a red flag that they could have had holes in them. Thankfully I was wise and held off. Eventually the drunkeness and fights got worse and I could not take it anymore so I broke up with her. What followed were many drunk dials for bootie call by her. Course I passed up on those. Even one call where she said she was going to bang some guy so she could have a kid. Glad I was not that sucker. I later found out she got married. Maybe that was for the best. I bet shes cheating.
The next one was even more immature. She lived at home with her parents. She could never do things for herself and had to endure long drives to her place to visit her. Eventually I got tired of all that. It exhausted me and when the question came up if we should live together came up, that is when things fell apart. I did not want to live with her and I knew eventually where that would lead and I was not about that. The big M word which was marriage. I was unsure of some things and I felt we went way too fast. She was pressuring me to do things I was uncomfortable with. Not to mention I could not stand her constant moodiness and bitchy attitude. What also angered me so much was she tried to convince me I was nuts and needed to see a shrink, then through 2 sessions I realized she was the crazy one. Finally I had enough and broke up with her. I broke all contact with her.
I went an entire year and a half of not dating but I tried other women. I spent much money on dating sites which just to me because a complete waste because the selection is made up of mostly single parent mothers and women with bad attitudes and expectations. Went through one more relationship. Another woman still living at home with Mom and Dad and just as emotionally unstable. Full blown liar and just downright bad to be around. She tried all in her power to lose me, but she could not. I said lets take our time and see where it goes. Sure enough we had some arguments and disagreements on some things. She was bitchy and afraid to admit to her own Father that she found me online. I could no longer deal with immature women and ones mostly I find online who just have absolute horrible baggage. She friend zoned me and I just lost all contact with her and said to hell with her and have not heard back ever since.
I found that in all those instances I was made to feel like the bad guy. That I was hurting people. That I was a cop out. But in reality I wasn’t they all were not right for me and I could not have the patience or tolerance. Now that I have gotten older I just feel like I cannot afford to take the chance on another relationship. I am tired of looking. I am tired of wasting my time and money on that when I could be doing better things. I want to live. I want to live my own life now and discover what my life is capable of. I don’t need the pressure from my parents to get married. I don’t need the shaming language to tell me I am a loser or giving up because I know I am capable of living a happy, healthy and productive life free from the pain and stress of being in a relationship. Free from the pitfalls of marriage that to me are just not worth it to me anymore. Marriage is not worth it to me. My career as a photojournalist also make it hard for me to pursue and keep a relationship. This was the other thing I have discovered. I love my career alot. It is what keeps me going but more importantly so does my family and friends. I do have a support network there which is even greater. However at times it does feel lonesome going my own way, but it is great to see a site like this giving guidance so I thank the person for making this and hope to enjoy my time here. Thanks.
VileNord 5 years, 5 months ago.
