HI EVERYONE, DIZELIUN HERE. TODAY’S INTRODUCTION, IS BROUGHT TO YOU BY A DONATION; FROM, DIZE. AND HERE’S, WHAT HE HAS TO SAY: (How I picture Sandman’s speech if it was formatted the way he talks)
I have been MGTOW for little over a year now with no real incentive into revealing myself as such. Yet I am compelled to, as I assume most of you who roam these forums are. I guess in a search for like-minded individuals to express our thoughts and connect freely on topics we share the same stance on. I am fairly young in this movement, being 22, yet I’m glad I found this movement. Writing this right now does not feel like a waste of time since I technically have saved years of my life simply by digesting this pill. I shall delve into a little about myself for anybody interested. I personally will never read more than 2-3 of these introductions, yet having everybodies initial experiences and stories written down in archive (Including myself) is more important than the amount of actual readers.
It started young, at the age of two my parents divorced and I was taken custody with my mother, only to see my father once a week. My young brother and I were born on the same day, two years apart. Growing up, my mother was in abusive relationships against her physically, and remember my dad stepping in to fend off the men even though he was now with another woman. I think this was to do with him wanting to protect and make sure we kids were alright in the situations. Seeing this abuse against my mom and being powerless against the men that would throw me and my brother aside and continue to yell, swear, and hit our mom made us grow up fast.
I remember in grade school having “girlfriends” which was no more than a title since you never really interacted with them in any way. During this time as a child I was often hit by my mom for “acting out” which looking back on it was just a boy being a boy. I can’t really put an age on it, but I felt really alone from a early age, going into middle-school I found a group with I felt I could connect with, and this was the hip-hop / rap group. I loved the F~~~ YOU attitude of the music and style, I would sag my pants and wear G-UNIT / ECHO clothing to express myself. I would get into school fights often and really seek blood. Shoplifting, trespassing, smoking / selling weed, vandalism / graffiti took up the majority of my time within middle school. Looking back I feel as though it was a barrier I put up, a masquerade, a front.
I didn’t know if I wanted to be with girls at this time, I was really confused. I had self-esteem issues, not only that but I felt if my own mother abuses me what would these girls do? I started to change as I entered high-school. After being caught by the cops on multiple occasions I was kind of forced to stay inside and I found video-gaming. Resistance: Fall of Man / CoD: MW / World of Warcraft, NUFF SAID. This brought out a side of me I always wanted to express. A competitive drive to be the best at whatever game was in-front of me. Obtaining rank of the best Clans / Guilds through hard work, talent, and skilled play made me feel finally accepted in the communities these games fostered. Yet the more I got immersed into the realms and worlds, the further I became from reality. Wake up, slack in school, get home, COD for 2 hours, WoW Achievement Hunt for 2 hours, then group up and Hardcore Raid for 6 hours, and hit the sack at 1-2AM and restart the next day. This was my life, I didn’t have “Friends”, I had “people I talked to at school”. And if you weren’t a 2.0 K/D in COD MINIMUM?!?!? f~~~ off N00B. This was my mentality for a majority of my high school life.
I didn’t know what path I wanted to take. I foolishly ignored my education for my entire life since I felt it as useless, which it was but that’s another topic. I found myself at the crossroads, do I go to college or find a job. I was unable to attend University due to my lacking grades and I decided to attend College for an Electrical Engineering Diploma. I learned more over these passed four years of College than in my entire life. I have realized every relationship I enter tends to go the same way, I start off by trying to obtain her validation for sex, and once I f~~~ed her I start to lose my attraction toward her and move to the next one. This “GAME” takes up a majority of your time if you are intending to “PLAY” it. I could care less about what a girl thinks of me, I’m didn’t opt out because I couldn’t “get pussy” I opted out because it was a general waste of my f~~~ing time.
I honestly do not remember how I got into watching MGTOW, and I really wish I did remember. Yet I believe it was LuiMarco who first brought on the term MGTOW to me. Every single thing he said in those videos resonated with 100% logic and clarity to me. Even looking at my own father who had three kids from two separate relationships paying child support out his ass for my mom to blow on cigarettes, and his other ex-wife which moved his first born (my half-brother) to Florida from Canada. And all of these years men who were already married (especially while I was working as an co-op apprentice electrician in high school on construction sites) saying to me “Never get married man, NEVER NEVER NEVER GET MARRIED TRUST US” as I laughing it off, since I knew I never really wanted to in the first place. I think they thought I was that type of guy who would say “Yeah I won’t” then turn around and fall for it. These men I saw daily who bent over backwards and praised females, or the mentality of “Act on your best behavior around women”. It felt FAKE, It felt like an ACT, and I saw it from the get-go as such.
I began searching MGTOW and landed upon Sandman… ughhh -.-‘ To be fair I guess Sandman’s video quality did pull me into his ideals, and strengthened my MGTOW beliefs. some of his videos I really like. But lately within the last three months his videos are trash, and I don’t know if that is because I have been searching for the better MGTOW content producers or if he really is just producing worse and worse content, possibly both.
I am happy with where I am at today mentally and physically, albeit financially I am struggling since I am looking to finally attend University in the upcoming fall to complete my B. Eng. and go on to obtain P. Eng. while trying to subsidize school / food / rent on my own. They say you are a different person every 7 years. I tend to agree; 0-7 was my Innocence, 7-14 was my troubled state, 14-21 was learning about myself, 21-present I am now bettering myself with MGTOW playing a large role in my development young man.
I’d like to mention my favourite MGTOW youtubers in no particular order:
Neo Unplugged (Love his Anger and Passion he brings)
Barbarossa (Can talk intellectually for hours)
Niko Choski (Calm, and relaxing)
MGTOW Messenger (Experienced)
Raging Golden Eagle (Having way to much fun… As always)
Turd Flinging Monkey (Great Analogies)
Dark Knight (Cinematic)
Mayor of MGTOW (Outspoken)
RazorBladeKandy (Intelligent Anonymous Style)
These channels above, are the ones I regularly follow among the others in which I roam video to video. I hope everybody that produces MGTOW content continues to do so and spreads the message further. Keep up the great content and would like to join in on MGTOW hangouts if ever possible. They say
ANYWAYS, THAT’S IT FOR TODAY’S INTRODUCTION. THANK YOU DIZE, FOR ENLIGHTENING ME ON YOUR STORY. AS FOR EVERYBODY ELSE, PLEASE FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER, LIKE MY FACEBOOK, AND SUBSCRIBE. SO ENJOY THE REST OF YOUR DAY, ANNNND.. CCCHEEEERSZSZ…
edited: Took out weird “<span style=”line-height: 1.5;”><span style=”line-height: 1.5;”>” formatting errors</span>
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