Learned Too Late…

[FocusParticipant 123]

You may have seen my thread in the Marriage & Divorce forum, and I put a fair amount of info there, but I never have posted a proper introduction. I don’t know why, but when I think of dropping my story into writing, it just seems like a daunting task and it makes me think “I’ll do that later…”

I type super fast, so you’d think it wouldn’t be a problem, but that’s actually part of the problem. I’m afraid I’ll write a freaking book.

I’ll start with just the most basic bio info and reserve the next half a dozen posts so I can edit them later to add more information and keep my BS in a mostly contiguous block. Not sure if that MO gets used around here much or not, so don’t think it’s odd or a mistake.

I’m 43. Been married twice and am about to file for divorce a second time. With my current wife 11 years, married for 7. I knew I shouldn’t have married my first wife before I ever did, was married to her for four years. She is the closest thing to a NAWALT I’ve seen in my entire life, I still think very highly of her, and I can’t say a single bad thing about her. The only reason I left was that she wasn’t right for me, I knew I was wasting her time, I knew I would never give her the children she wanted… and (wait for it) I met my second, current wife.

Scene change to how I found MGTOW. Paul Proteus. “It’s not as entertaining as it used to be”. At first I was like, “Man, this dude is talkin’ some real s~~t here that makes a ton of sense.” He struck me as interesting and pretty friggin’ funny on top of it, so I checked out a couple more of his videos. I had never heard the term MGTOW before. That was about a year ago. After watching several of his videos, I just kind of continued on with my blue pill life and didn’t think much more about it. But I had become aware of the splinter in my mind.

Scene change to my current situation. MGTOW isn’t why I’m divorcing my wife. I didn’t just get red pilled and pull the plug on a happy marriage. My marriage has slowly been going downhill for the last five years. Over the last six months, the more things deteriorated with my wife, the more time I’ve spent consuming MGTOW content and sucking on those red pills. Compared to a lot of you guys, I’m still really early on and if I’m 100% honest I’m probably as much purple pill as red pill at this point, and haven’t even hit the first hint of red pill rage yet. I’m processing too much trying to deal with the end of my marriage to race down the red pill highway. It’s more like I’ve gotten myself a good pair of boots and a walking stick, and I’m slowly plodding down red pill road, one step at a time. I find myself compelled to listen to at least two to three Sandman videos every day. He’s my focus right now because he dumps a lot into a condensed time space. My mind is completely melted from trying to deal with being in the middle of a divorce and I just don’t have the ability to relax long enough to listen to some of the more ‘entertaining’ content producers like Tommy Leykis.

Anyway, enough for now. Am reserving the next several posts for adding more over time. My hope is that someone comes along after me, sees a bit of themselves or their story in me and mine, and maybe takes some comfort in knowing there’s other dudes out there just like them, feeling the same uncertainty, fear, loneliness, and sadness along with just a little bit of hope and excitement about the future. If it wasn’t for seeing the truth of MGTOW philosphy along with focusing on the blurry vision of how much better life will look like on the other side of all this I don’t think I could do it. Sometimes I come so close to calling my wife and telling her to come home… sometimes I want to text her so bad… I just keep trying to be strong and focus on the fact that this HAS to be the right thing. It just has to… otherwise I’m f~~ked…

43, two marriages, second divorce kicked off 6/22/18. Wife already moved out... I was the best white knight I've ever seen and I still wasn't enough.

[FocusParticipant 123]

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43, two marriages, second divorce kicked off 6/22/18. Wife already moved out... I was the best white knight I've ever seen and I still wasn't enough.

[FocusParticipant 123]

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43, two marriages, second divorce kicked off 6/22/18. Wife already moved out... I was the best white knight I've ever seen and I still wasn't enough.

[FocusParticipant 123]

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43, two marriages, second divorce kicked off 6/22/18. Wife already moved out... I was the best white knight I've ever seen and I still wasn't enough.

[FocusParticipant 123]

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43, two marriages, second divorce kicked off 6/22/18. Wife already moved out... I was the best white knight I've ever seen and I still wasn't enough.

[Anonymous 1]

The whole world thinks of women as stupid gashes. If you need a c~~~ block from contacting the ex, turn on the TV and go to 90 Day Fiance or Love After Lock Up. Dr. Phil too. It’s not that these shows are chockablock full of stupid women, the producers and advertisers know they are fodder for ratings. It’s reality. As long as there are women, there will be drama.

So I had a women SMS me from an extortion case I’ve been working for a few years. She used to be the girlfriend of the s~~~ head I’ve been looking at. Immediately I get a photo in the sms of a very attractive 45 year old with an ample bust. Interesting thats what they use every time and then are offended when it gets your attention.

She literally spent the day SMS me about the troubles this guy has caused her and her family and he is the ruin of her. She has three kids and recent legal troubles have caused a riff between her and the soon to be new sap. I have a spidey sense that tells me when things aren’t right so I start with the Google and first thing that comes up is a news article about her participation in a bank stickup and the legal troubles that followed.

Nothing is her fault blah, blah, blah. I ran a quick background on her and found at least three DUI related arrest convictions, assault and other nonsense. There was also a photo of her in a short dress and 6 inch heels. Yeah she now admits she “used” to be a high end escort.

At 45 she is just a few years away from doing a donkey show and that show is one of us. If we don’t keep our senses when titties are thrust at us, we will be the ass in the donkey show brothers.

[The man in the mountainParticipant 4102]

Hate to break it to you but you were born alone and will die alone…

Solitude can be painful at the start and addicting once you get the hang of it, Most men wish they had learned this soon in their lives.

[MuglintarParticipant 1333]

@learnedtoolate – bro, a whole bunch of the guys here have been Whiteknighting. Myself included.

"Him, who delights in solitude, is either a wild beast or a GOD!" - Aristotle (Aristot. Pol. 1.1253a) 1 Hom. Il. 9.63; the passage goes on: ἐστὶν ἐκεῖνος ι ὃς πολέμου ἔραται.

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

Reserved… what? I’m like a monkey, money see monkey does.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[SpleeferParticipant 959]

I had a hard time following all your processing and feelings. Just about threw your introduction into the bizarro bucket, in which we have been seeing a lot of lately. Then you followed it with reserved in a weird series I don’t understand. But then I read it again.

Bro, take a breath. It’s gonna be fine. Your worth is not defined by the girl on your arm. Take a moment and learn on this website. Start feeding on a proper dose of red-pills. Add in the concept of NFG, and you will start to “feel” better. You will gain confidence in yourself. Freedom awaits you.
Reserve that bro.
Spleefer

Galatians 5:1 (KJV) Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.

[MonkParticipant 16995]

Anonymous wrote:

If we don’t keep our senses when titties are thrust at us, we will be the ass in the donkey show brothers.

A complete self defence program in one line.

[bladeParticipant]

Welcome bro .

Get it all out . Thats what this place is for . Speak ya mind

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[The Manipulated ManParticipant 1856]

Congratulations LTL,

You have found a gold Mine!
So, keep digging.

I understand your situation more than you may realize and I hope that you can find the strength to continue on the MGTOW Road.

With all due respect, most of the words in YOUR Introduction so far is about how you are dealing with your foolishness with the women in your life.

You have already given them too much, don’t waste any more time thinking about them.

Learn to stop pining over women, it’s pitiful and you are better than that.

So far, you have NOT written about your Bonafides which are your actions that define you as a man and separate us from women.

Most newcomers make the same mistake.

In Blue Pill Hell, we are conditioned to believe that we cannot be happy without woman. And our lives have no meaning without THEM.

A Masculine Heterosexual Man’s time in Blue Pill Hell is never his own.

A Blue Pill Slave never gets a break.
He can never slow down long enough to think and/ or examine what is going on around him.

“The slave has neither means of redress, nor any basis for legal action of any sort. The slaves rights are all based upon the good will of its master.”

Here is a link to a post which discusses this process as it occurs in Nature:

/forums/topic/parasitic-jeweled-wasp/

The MGTOW Road starts with admitting that we have chosen to be Blue Pill Slaves.

We take our power back by having discipline with our choices. Then, we can proceed to go our own way separate from our parasites.

MGTOW is about letting go of the influences of women in our lives and then living as Free Men.

It is pathetic when a newcomer is still obsessed with women and has not learned his lessons.

You are being pusillanimous when you fail to write about who you are and what you do in life.

You should write about how you are moving on as a free man and describe your life on the MGTOW Road.

Here is a link to a post intended to help Newcomers:

/forums/topic/list-of-unacceptable-blue-pill-baggage/

That being said, examining your mistakes and telling your women Troubles stories is fine in the Forums.

It can be healing to write about your women Troubles in the Relations~~~s, Marriage, and/ or MGTOW Central section of this website.

Nevertheless, a man’s Introduction to other Free Men is special.

Masculine energy is rare in the Universe.

You can improve your Introduction by writing in the reply box below about what you are doing with your freedom and how you plan to use it. And NO DOXING!

What happens when a man finally comprehends the cold and calculating thoughts that are going through a woman's mind, while her eyes are brimming with tears?

[AttonParticipant]

Editing is time limited.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[Anonymous 3]

Don’t quite understand the reserved thing, but glad you’re here.
This is a good place to learn, be validated & heal.
I am older than you & found that for me, my approach to all women is too just not take them seriously. I call it ” subtle disregard ” It’s like NFG.
Keep posting, keep reading & I am quite sure in the long run you will be on the path you belong on
Wish you the best.
Good luck!!
MGTOW is freedom
I come & go as I please
And I am totally unapologetic about placing my needs first, in my dealings with the Blue Pill gynocentric society I live in.

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