Its been awhile

[22DeeboiParticipant 259]

Hey fellow gents. Its been a long time since I’ve logged on, been going through a lot. Life has been cruel and its been hard to keep a positive attitude about many things. Last time I wrote to you all was my birthday on July 28th. I was vibrant, positive, happy and ready to take on everything the world can throw. My father had died in June. Wasn’t a great man by any means but I thoroughly missed him throughout my early childhood, teenage years and now my young adult life. I feel very alone and I cry here and now just thinking instead of working my ass off to have seen him on his death bed. I held a bit of resentment, but not I regret it. The relations~~~ I was in ended 2 weeks before my birthday. I wasn’t tore up about it, because frankly I had enough with her trying to control every aspect of my life. My supervisor has been trying to cut my hours and my manager for a long time didn’t give me my anniversary check that was due in July. I didnt get it till 2 weeks ago. All during the time I almost got involved with another bitch. I tried to be honest for the first time with a girl but it ended up back firing on me. Never again. I was in constant confusion and chasing her was a complete waste of time. Thankfully I didnt spend a lot of money on her. Work has been crazy. The school I work at looks like is about to shutdown. I’ve been desperately trying to find another job with no success at all. Not even a interview. My goal of trying to work in law enforcement has been fruitless. I failed another test and I’m beginning to think, what if I’m not good enough. On top of that the new co-workers I have, have made working with them a living hell. Last month as well, my uncle died. His loss really shook me because for 12 years he had heart complications. He died at the age of 37. For so long I wanted to see our family down in San Diego but never had the chance too. Great family man. In those 12 years I only saw him say 4 times. I don’t know who to turn too. I try to meditate, try seeing family but I can never talk about my pain. I feel depressed. The bitch I almost got involved with had seriously done a number on me. She robbed me of my love I tried to show. But at the end I was just s~~~. I lurk on here reading everyone stories and such and I feel this is the only place I can actually get help. I’m not giving up. I guess I’m just venting or wanting to hear someone just say I’m her for you or I got you

Thanks for your time

[Sky-OParticipant 18948]

‘It’s Been Awhile’

The title of a song by the band Staind that during my blue pill (living hell) days, I listened to about 138 times after I found out a super slut I was with and thought was monogamous was cheating on me.

I can still remember listening to it at my house, alone, crying and wanting her back.

I was so pathetic back then.

Never again

[Anonymous 18]

Life tests us all from time to time brother. Strength isn’t something to inherit, its a character trait that is refined under pressure, disappointments, faint optimism, and dedication to improve our health/careers/circumstances, what have you. One key thing to realize is improving one’s love life isn’t any more endearing than wilfully ruining one’s peace of mind.

Stay strong. Be patient. Meaning is what comes after shuffling A-grade s~~~ with bare hands.

[Anonymous 42]

Cheer up man, at least you didn’t go through w/ringer with her! The real joy is found in the “without” not the “with”. At times we all need to loose a little to gain allot, less is more!
I’ve stopped opening my heart to women, I did so based on all the human interactions I’ve encountered and witnessed.
You played with a grenade, be glad it was a dud and didn’t blow up in your face!
Life will get better only if you’re willing to sacrifice to make it better! The one who doubles his efforts, and doubles his time invested, will gain four times faster, and likely to succeed!
Depression + effort = advancement…
When you’re feeling down, GET TO WORK ON ANYTHING!

[OldscoundrellParticipant 412]

Life is a bitch. I can attest to that. And it gets really grim when we are pushing as hard as possible foward, but still seeing ourselves slipping backwards, despite all the effort.

All you can do, is all you can do.

To expect more than that from yourself will just drive you mad. But how much you can do, is totally up to you.

There is no shame in taking a day every once in a while to just say fk it, and cut yourself a little slack. So that the next, you can push twice as hard towards your goal.

[RoyDalParticipant]

Welcome back!

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[22DeeboiParticipant 259]

Thanks guys. All of you. It really made my day reading your responses. I’m gonna take this step by step

[MGTOWmonkey aka No More Fucks To GiveParticipant 6635]

22Deeboi wrote:

Thanks guys. All of you. It really made my day reading your responses. I’m gonna take this step by step

Sounds good! Remember we are all here for you,these guys have changed my life. I have better perspective now,but at some point we were all we’re you are now,you will get out of it because you’re a man……..

Never lose sight of what brought you here.

[qeeqoParticipant 1168]

Hang in there. I lost my dad to cancer a year ago, had a heart stent 3 months ago and then 7 days in the hospital on IV antibiotics because of cellulitis and strep. I’m just getting back on my feet and was contacted by a much younger beautiful woman who after about the 3rd sentence brought up sex. It stirred memories of turmoil. Daddy don’t do turmoil anymore, and In my experience all roads with weemons lead to turmoil. Keep getting up and put one foot in front of the other and don’t stop until things start coming together again.

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