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Well…. I’m BACK!!!
I never thought it would happen to me. I thought I was in impervious “Monk Mode”! But as the saying goes, “Your only one blowjob away.”
It happened. She was a cute little thing, 105 pounds, 12 years younger than me, in her early 20’s. MAN, she did a number on me. She even admitted after we started going out that she had singled me out and was hunting for me.
So here I am, over a year into a relationship with her, and it’s now quickly devolving into a relations~~~ at lightspeed, as only female nature will allow.
The only thing that has kept me from Blue Pill Hell are the lessons that I had learned as a MGTOW.
First rule that has kept me from utter despair:
1. Don’t EVER assume a woman will remain the same way she has in the first year you met. For about six months to a year, most women will be able to keep a mask on, and do anything and everything to lure you into a committed relations~~~. The ultimate goal is to bait and switch, get you to sign on the dotted line on a marriage certificate, and then she promptly owns YOU and all of your worth for life. Once your married, she is in essence RETIRED. Ask any Married or Divorced Man. They are all the same.When I was intoxicated with insanely good sex, blowjobs galore, sexy lingerie and the like, I always kept some hard and fast rules in my back pocket. This number one rule kept me from falling head over heels as she did every sexual desire imaginable, while playing Super Housewife with the cooking and cleaning. “Lookie here guys, I found a NAWALT…. BWAAAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!” All I had to do was wait it out.
The Second Rule:
2. When the Blowjobs Stop, it’s Time to Get Out. This also proved a valuable lesson to me… The life you save may be your own. Simply put, I made this rule up myself nearly two years ago.
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Every topic and forum post we make are like personalized notes to yourselves, that you can always reference back to. I did this very thing this week, after I came to the sudden realization that the blowjobs stopped. And guess when they did? YUP, about a year after we started dating. But the purple pilled me just couldn’t see it until it up and SMACKED me in the face.
So here’s what happened. Slowly, ever so slowly, the cooking and cleaning dried up. I noticed this. She would let it lag for a day or two, then get back to it. Just like blowjobs. But then the gaps started getting larger, and larger… Eventually in the blowjob realm, I’ll just take care of it myself with a good dose of internet porn. I justified it as her having a legitimately bad day/week, but if you let things slide, you’ll wake up months later in a completely different power dynamic.
Early in the relations~~~, she probed me about all of my past relationships; what did they do wrong, and of course sided with me on all accounts. She despised my ex wife, and rolled her eyes at the idiocy of my last ex girlfriend. While telling her this I was obviously giving her little orange flags to place over the landmines, so she would know not to do these things. My naïve, fermenting purple pilled brain started considering that “maybe this time I can train her the right way…..” HINT: NOPE!
So here we are later in the relations~~~, and she begins to tell me all about her exes. In horrible, GRAPHIC detail. S~~~ that is just, ABSOLUTELY TMI (Too Much Information). Of course, just complete whorish behavior. Threesomes, having her ex cum in her mouth so she would spit it in another girls mouth, just goddamned Soddom and Ghammorah s~~~. Pornstar s~~~. S~~~ that the Mother of any Children of mine WOULD NEVER DO. EVER.
She told me all of this in confidence, and how abusive and terrible these guys were, and how they cheated on her constantly, and were horrible guys.Then she gives me this letter, one that she wrote to her Therapist after she got out of a particularly nasty relationship. It was about ten pages, and I knew there was some really bad s~~~ in there. She asked me to read it. I didn’t. She asked again. I still didn’t. She finally made a huge deal about it, that I needed to read it to understand what females go through, so f~~~ it. I read it.
WHOOOOA BOY. So here I was, a little over a year into a relations~~~, and I read this letter. I read how he commanded her when to come over, when to leave, and had any type of sex he wanted with her, at any time. He would continually abuse her both physically and verbally, he was a fat ass, a drug addict, wouldn’t shower for days and lived in complete filth. He would call her over at any time of the day and force her to give him blowjobs until she puked, then he would kick her out. Then call her the next day and do it over again.
WHAT THE EVERLIVING F~~~ING S~~~. This girl is HOT. She’s sexy. She’s cute. From the outside you would assume this is a Mary Sue, take home to mamma girl. And I’m reading this s~~~.
Then it occurs to me… I’d been jacking off to blowjob porn for the last two months… Because she couldn’t be bothered to do so. I had been listening to her CONSTANT BITCHING about her work, her boss, her co-workers, the area we live, EVERYTHING. I took her out to dinner and drinks earlier this week because she had a bad day…. And because I was turning into a beta-bitch.
You know what I was getting in return!? NOTA F~~~ING BLOWJOB, THAT’S FOR SURE! NOTHING!! The Red Pill F~~~ING RAAAGED Inside me. I couldn’t believe it, I was simping to this fat drug addicts used leftovers. GOD F~~~ING DAMNIT.
This motherf~~~er was getting it whenever he wanted. I was suddenly waiting patiently, like a good little boy. WHATTHEF~~~.She came home, and could tell something was wrong. I was seething. My face was contorting with rage. I couldn’t even look at her. Then she just prattles on, bitching about her job, her co-workers, her boss even more. The Red Pill in my exploded in fury. I gripped my chair and nearly ripped the stuffing out.
Finally she asks, “Honey, What is Wrong???”
I said, nearly word for word as best I can remember:
“My favorite thing in the world, more than skydiving, scuba diving, more than riding a roller coaster, is a simple blowjob. I don’t mean sucking my dick for a minute before we have sex, I mean a FULL ON BLOWJOB. It takes no more than ten f~~~ing minutes, yet it releases EVERY pleasure center in my brain. It’s utterly intoxicating.”She smiled at this, like she was going to take care of it. Easy right? But I cut her off.
“But after a year of dating, They GODDAMNED disappeared! And you know what??? THEY ALWAYS DO! After the first year in a relationship the blowjobs stop, and you know what? THEY NEVER COME BACK. I couldn’t even get a blowjob on my GODDAMNED BIRTHDAY when I was Married!!! And you know what? That’s how it ALWAYS IS!!!! Do you think I’m ready to sign up for that S~~~ AGAIN? If I’m a monogamous Man, and my wife won’t give me a blowjob…. THAT MEANS GETTING MARRIED IS SIGNING ON FOR A LIFETIME OF NO MORE BLOWJOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!”Here comes the hammer blow:
“But that FAT, DRUG ADDICT, FILTHY PIECE OF S~~~ gets BLOWJOBS on DEMAND!?!?!?! WHENEVER THE F~~~ HE WANTS????? AND YOU JUST COME OVER THE NEXT DAY AND DO IT AGAIN!?!!?!?!?!?! FOR YEARS!?!?!?!?!
WHAAAT THE FUUUUUCK!?!!?!?!?!?!?!”She was shrinking away now, not making eye contact. She looked horrified.
“GOOD GUYS, guys like me, take care of women. Care for them. Give you all EVERYTHING you want. And in no time, the simplest of pleasures are revoked, and you constantly want more. It happens to ALL OF US. ALL GOOD MEN. I listed the names of three of my now divorced friends which she knows, all cheated on by their wives. All divorce raped. All had dead bedrooms for years before divorce.
BUT These TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE PIECES OF S~~~ Get all the rewards. ANYTHING THEY WANT. AND YOU ALL SERVE IT UP ON A SILVER PLATTER. TO THEIR GODDAMNED BECK AND CALL.” My lip curled in a snarl.
“TMI!!!! TOO MUCH F~~~ING INFORMATION. I COULD HAVE GONE MY WHOLE LIFE WITHOUT KNOWING THAT S~~~.”
Her smiled turned into a look of resentment and horror. Then anger and shame. She stormed out. I sat there and seethed.I went outside where she ran moments before, and smelled smoke. She was burning the letter.
She told me I was the only person she ever let read that letter, other than her Therapist.She was the VICTIM! He made her do it! Can’t I see!? See that she was the innocent one? The victim here!?!?!?!
Goddamn, it makes me nauseous just writing it again.
I asked her why she kept going back over. Why the F~~~ would ANYONE ever put up with that s~~~!? She tried to equate it to my military training. How I put up with Drill Instructors.
I told her that’s not even in the same F~~~ING UNIVERSE. Those were MEN, instructing us on becoming stronger MEN. For OUR BETTERMENT. NOT FAT, DRUG ADDICT PIECES OF S~~~, abusing us for PLEASURE.
“So ALL You got out of that letter is that he got more HEAD than You???”I just stood there. I didn’t know what to say. Clearly, in her mind, I’m just a monster now. She said I was “using it against her”. I didn’t understand. I couldn’t understand how someone would voluntarily put themselves through that s~~~ for almost two years, and continue to do so. She could have simply NEVER GONE BACK.
She cried relentlessly. The gasping, sobbing, big wet tears kind. I stood seething in rage. Apparently I had this pent up for a while now, the Red Pill Rage, and it was pouring out in righteous indignation. But the small blue pill weakling in me felt bad at the tears flowing. I silently held her until she stopped, and that was that.
Haven’t seen her today, she’s back at work. My mind is blown.It was just complete, in my face, GRAPHIC proof: The Good Guys always finish last. Holding the bill, expected to pay after the Bad Boys have had their way.
This guy, and her other exes, all cheaters, all f~~~ing scumbags that treated her like s~~~, got to do ANYTHING they wanted. They just TOOK IT.I was raised with three women, so I just have a f~~~ing hard time acting like that. But in the end, unfortunately, I truly believe that’s what women really, REALLY WANT.
I know any woman reading this would think I was a f~~~ing asshole. A monster. Totally uncaring and only thinking about myself, and my sexual pleasures.
But Holy F~~~, I’ve got to look out for ME. This is patterned behavior. She continually rewards Men for being S~~~, and neglects Men who care for her. This is A VERY, VERY COMMON PATTERN AMONGST WOMEN.
That was a goddamned jagged, rough, red pill to swallow, Gents. Thanks for watching. Until next time.
Nomadic Expat, OUT.
Nomad, Due too the fact I am a big hairy scary bald monster, I can’t get a girlfriend of my own, thus I straddle other men’s partners. I enjoy looking at the bedside photo of their “man” when the vinegar strokes begin….slim, preened, with a quiff haircut and “designer” stubble. I will leave a nice deposit on their hairdryer.
I am the housewives favourite.Very good story. Thank you for sharing. It’s just one more confirmation that all women like to be treated like shi.t by men. Whether they admit or not, or whether they even know it, they all go for the guys who treat them the worst and sh.it on the guys who treat them the best. It’s just the way it is.
I’ve said this before on here, but I think it’s worth repeating. Back when I was younger, we had a very good mechanic in town, best that anyone had ever seen. He was not only wise with engines, but also with women. I brought my car to him one day and he noticed my mirror was smashed. He asked, “Does this have anything to do with a woman?”, and of course I admitted that it did. He said, “Boy, let me tell ya’ somethin’…….when you get you a girl, you wanna’ treat her mean, treat her real mean…….that’s how you handle women.” I’ll never forget the day that old man gave me this advice.
You cannot treat women nice. They will not respect you for it and they will walk all over you. You treat them nice and you are not a man in their eyes. You control them, you rule over them with an iron fist and they’ll respect you and want you even more. They’ll still fuc.k you over eventually, but you gotta’ get rid of ’em before that happens.
The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.
I’ll take a crack at this one.
1 here’s a quote from The Manipulated Man. If you haven’t read it make it your to do list for the weekend.
What a great advantage a man can have over women, if he only knew what cold and calculating thoughts are going through her mind…. while her eyes are brimming with tears.2 she’s still f~~~ing the fat ass drug addict, or his brother. She is.
3 if her s~~~s not sitting outside on the curb when she gets home tonight you lose. Send the b I t c h packing, now.
Just rolling down the road
The blowjobs never stop, they just change dicks!
Best comment on your other post. She is cheating on you now. You know this, that’s why you are p~~~ed at yourself.
Thanks for sharing, I am monk mode and get offers weekly from hot young women. This was a warning to me, because I’m one bj away from all the drama you just described.
Much respect for this post.
Galatians 5:1 (KJV) Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.
Nomad, Due too the fact I am a big hairy scary bald monster, I can’t get a girlfriend of my own, thus I straddle other men’s partners. I enjoy looking at the bedside photo of their “man” when the vinegar strokes begin….slim, preened, with a quiff haircut and “designer” stubble. I will leave a nice deposit on their hairdryer. I am the housewives favourite.
Dude, can’t even be mad at you. Even as the cheated Husband. Why?
BECAUSE SHE CHOSE TO DO IT. That Fat, Drug addict piece of s~~~ wasn’t holding a gun to her head, he just called her. And off she went, as all of female nature does.
The cherry on top was listening to her try and explain how “Don’t You see?? I’m THE VICTIM!! HE MAAAADE ME DO IT!!!!!”
Bitch saw the call, knew it was an abusive f~~~, answered, and came running. again. and agan. and again. Either your a manipulative, psychotic bitch, or absolutely NAIVE and DUMB AS F~~~. Likely BOTH.
I can’t be mad at that guy, or you. Every instance she went over there she voluntarily CHOSE.
F~~~ THESE BITCHES.
Hermit and Bubs, thanks for the advice, no matter how much you know, it still helps to be reminded.
Spleefer, exactly that. Be careful. As soon as I thought I was immune, that’s when she got me.
F~~~ing Bitches. All of Them.
Nomad, Due too the fact I am a big hairy scary bald monster, I can’t get a girlfriend of my own, thus I straddle other men’s partners. I enjoy looking at the bedside photo of their “man” when the vinegar strokes begin….slim, preened, with a quiff haircut and “designer” stubble. I will leave a nice deposit on their hairdryer. I am the housewives favourite.
Dude, can’t even be mad at you. Even as the cheated Husband. Why?
BECAUSE SHE CHOSE TO DO IT. That Fat, Drug addict piece of s~~~ wasn’t holding a gun to her head, he just called her. And off she went, as all of female nature does.
The cherry on top was listening to her try and explain how “Don’t You see?? I’m THE VICTIM!! HE MAAAADE ME DO IT!!!!!”
Bitch saw the call, knew it was an abusive f~~~, answered, and came running. again. and agan. and again. Either your a manipulative, psychotic bitch, or absolutely NAIVE and DUMB AS F~~~. Likely BOTH.
I can’t be mad at that guy, or you. Every instance she went over there she voluntarily CHOSE.
F~~~ THESE BITCHES.
Hermit and Bubs, thanks for the advice, no matter how much you know, it still helps to be reminded.
Spleefer, exactly that. Be careful. As soon as I thought I was immune, that’s when she got me.
F~~~ing Bitches. All of Them.Well, when you look like me the wives/girlfriends/partners just flock to see. Always attracted the wrong un’s. Last “Girlfriend” had ACAB(all cops are bastards) tattooed on her most delicate digits. God, she turned me on, f~~~ed her silly without a John…..on and on.
LOL.
I have had a gf for 2 1/2 years now. She’s given me blowjobs before and anal. I still don’t love her and I never will.
Love is a delusion; I don’t suffer from delusions anymore.
All my life I've had doubts about who I am, where I belonged. Now I'm like the arrow that springs from the bow. No hesitation, no doubts. The path is clear. And what are you? Alive. Everything else is negotiable. Women have rights; men have responsibilities; MGTOW have freedom. Marriage is for chumps. If someone stands in the way of true justice, you simply walk up behind them and stab them in the heart-R'as al Ghul.
Welcome back sir. Great post and all I can say is this; you just acted toward her in a manner similar to that which the scumbag losers were treating her. She still went back to them so if you are in the same category, she’ll make her way back. Not that you want her back but if she doesn’t make her way back, your suspicions are indeed confirmed. The scumbags always get the prime cuts and the nice guys get the left overs.
She was playing you until you signed on the dotted line and you patiently waited until the mask hit the ground. Well done.Feminism isn't about equality with men, it's about leverage over men.
that letter was to tell you this is how you do it silly you .
And, it all started with a “date”…. I bet you thought that you would just go out and have some “fun”……Actually, YOU ARE DAMNED LUCKY that you didn’t finish your tale of woe with the words “she’s pregnant.
Like I have written MANY TIMES; Never underestimate the POWER of the Blue Pill!!!
Hopefully, you will be able to completely detach yourself from this lil cupcake and not reattach yourself to another…..Time Will Tell….Good Luck Brother
Peace Out
In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash
You are right……That’s a helluva story.
I can credit 2 things to my old age-
!- A woman who WANTS to give a man a blowjob is much better than a woman who HAS to give a man a blowjob.
(I will let YOU figure out which cupcake WANTED to and which HAD to)2- Once the mask comes off in a relationship you will realize you were NEVER HER EQUAL. In HER eyes you never were;nor will ever be.
LOVE means entirely 2 different things by a woman and a man.
Marry again, Hell NO ! ( Even JESUS was hung on a cross just once)
I would be inclined to suspect that the events detailed in the letter never happened.
My experience in life is it is an early “relationship” thing only and does disappear over time. I also find it is a younger girl thing. Once they are older it becomes “beneath them” or some other bull.
The best blowjobs I ever received were from women under the age of 20. They all had “teen” in their age. Younger means more willing. The absolute best blowjob I ever received was from a girl I dated who at the time was 19. She is also the girl who performed the absolute worst blowjob I have ever had a few years later in our relationship. How is it possible the same girl is at both ends of that spectrum? Once she knew she “had me” she no longer needed to do anything to please me.
Your analogy is correct: once the blowjobs stop the relations~~~ is over.She even admitted after we started going out that she had singled me out and was hunting for me.
Ain’t that the s~~~!
Women can admit to your face that you are the target, the prize, and the goal.Not the love of their life, the companion, the partner, the father, protector, someone to be admired, or even a real friend.
No role biology and society have assigned us, are we viewed as.
Yet we bear the responsibility yet not the privilege.You are thought of as food. And remember, hunger always comes back!
And our damn biology just laps it up like it’s friggin champagne.
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