I’m trying to figure out how and where I should start this, and I think its why I have taken so long to re-introduce myself. Part of the reason why I have been lurking and not saying anything is because I was a member back a few years ago and with good reason, I had Keymaster delete my post and change my handle. With my job title, any time I have to go to court for anything or deal with the police in any major manner…I have to report it to my job.
One of my exes that made me even consider searching for something like MGTOW threatened legal action if I didn’t remove our history from here and you know how the rest of the story went. Her finding out was because of the mess of a woman I dated after her. Confusing I know, but let me explain…back then I considered myself red pill but apparently I took a fake it till I made it attitude towards MGTOW and was more of a purple piller. Still on the dating scene and seeing who I could have sex with with no real attachments. I figured I was mentally strong enough and I could handle it without getting too attached. Man, I was wrong on soooo many levels.
So, dating around I come across this woman who I thought was a total unicorn. Sweet, charming, beautiful but she had a kid. Mistake one! To me, she was too good to be true….she was. Only after a few months of being together, she became the most narcissistic evil thing on two legs. By the end of it all she had become psychopathic and deranged. She even tried mowing me down with her car. I had become a shell of who I was. I managed to escape her grip with nothing but my wallet, the car I owned and the clothes on my back. Even still, she managed to get a smear campaign going…getting in touch with everyone I knew and feeding them lies. It didn’t stop there of course…she got in touch with my mom whom she never met and tried to convince her to get me to come back. This is when she contacted my ex before her and told her what she found here. I don’t have enough time or space to tell you all the messed up things she did while I was with her. I may at some point write the whole thing out.
So I took a year off dating. I guess at that point I was staying off the computer and still very much blue pill when I started searching again and met my current ex. I promised myself this would be the last relationship I would ever have and I would try and keep this relationship going no matter the consequences. I was determined to find my unicorn. I guess I really am a glutton for punishment and I don’t learn anything unless its been beaten into my head to the point of being a bloody pulp.
My ex was my ideal woman and she was the catalyst that caused me to swallow a bunch of red pills. I loved that woman with every thread of my being even though she came with a kid and back problems that she was out on disability for. She was on prescription pills for her back and occasionally smoked weed which I really didn’t have a problem with. I had every intention of starting a family with her and I ended up buying a house with all the trimmings, an in-ground pool, full kitchen and even a wood burning stove. Yes, the house needed work and I was more than happy to get started. Problem was, I was supporting her, her kid and managing paying for a house. THANK GOD I am the only one on the deed. To cut a very long story short…Those pills she was taking were only the cover to a crack cocaine addiction. I offered her help and she refused believing she didn’t have a problem. Over a period of months I found more evidence of her addiction and her cheating. It ended up with her packing some of her stuff and leaving to her parents house. Mind you, most of her stuff is still here. I haven’t talked to her since before Thanksgiving.
I contacted a lawyer recently about getting rid of her stuff from my house. Its a constant reminder of how much of an idiot I was to believe that women are not all the same. I have an appointment with him on Wednesday about drafting up a notification of intent. In my state, common law marriage is not law however if they leave anything and you want it gone…You have to send a letter of intent to get rid of their stuff via certified mail. After the letter has been sent and they have received it…they have 60 days to vacate their stuff. After that 60 days, they legally can’t do anything about damage to their stuff or it being thrown to the curb. Unfortunately, you have to provide them with days that they can come get their stuff and its recommended that there be witnesses there when they collect their things.
My past 3 exes have pushed me to the brink of insanity in their own ways. Its left me cold, bitter and hating the idea of ever having a relationship ever again. I have found peace in the quiet of my home, I have my pangs every now and then but its much easier to remind myself of the bull I have been through and the peace I now enjoy in my solitude. I went through my red pill rage and when I finally settled down from it..I started lurking here again…taking in as much as I could. Hell, I have even deleted my apps to my social media contacts as a way to get away from the crap they serve there daily. I can’t believe I forgot all about my passions and now I embrace them as a man going his own way.
Trust your manstincts...they will NEVER steer you wrong
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