I was FORCED to be Red Pill… I NEVER "wanted" THIS.

[AwakenedParticipant 35200]

My immediate and extended family growing up was as just dysfunctional as many others with lots of long-term grudges, hard feelings, and the usual family fighting/disagreements bullsh)t some of which went back decades before I was ever born.

I didn’t want it this way.

My parents did what they thought was best to raise their kids, but they made their mistakes as I have made mine raising my own kids. Somehow, we all became productive members of society, but none of us have anything to do with one another or any of the extended family.

I didn’t want it this way.

They EACH CAME AT ME, or made THEIR CHOICES to walk long ago. I had one sibling that tried to get in touch with me after about a 20 year absence, but after all that time has passed I really didn’t see the point. I truly believe it was their attempt to relieve their guilty conscious. Either way, it didn’t and doesn’t matter to me.

I didn’t want it this way.

I don’t have to get into details with the “loving” wife as we all know how that worked out for me. Within the past couple years, there was an episode where her siblings CAME AT ME AND MY KID with their Bullsh)t and LIES. Yeah, Like it was a “hard” decision to cut all these mother fu(kers out of my life as well.

I didn’t want it this way.

I NEVER crawled back to any of these Sons of Bit(hes throughout my life, and I NEVER will.

I have INVESTED AND TRUSTED “others” MY WHOLE LIFE, and it has always ended the same way. Maybe, I’m supposed to be more forgiving, but I could never play the doormat, and I’m not going to start now.

I’m almost at the point in MY LIFE where all I will have left is MYSELF, and I’m just too god damned old and tired to want it ANY other way.

All I want is to be left alone in Peace to LIVE MY LIFE, and I’m convinced that this can only be done by living alone.

“They drew first blood not me”….John Rambo……LOL LOL LOL LOL

In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash

[MonkParticipant 16975]

“Hell is other people”. From the play ‘No exit’ by Jean-Paul Sartre.

[SpiderHerderParticipant 3753]

By being here, you’ve seen many of us being perfectly content by ourselves.

Well, you’re next, my good sir.

Soon.

Great post, Awakened.

[Daryll55Participant 2950]

You aren’t on a holiday guilt trip; are ya BRO ??

Hey sounds like you let them all make their own decisions and THEY made them,Not YOU.
Given that we are all free-will human beings; you did the right thing.

A King can rule over a court of 1…. 100… or 1000. The Important part is that YOU RULE.
I have been condescending/forgiving my whole (prior) life all it gave me was either a kick in the teeth/ass or to be ignored.
Live YOUR Life!

Years ago, when I attended church regularly while going through my Divorce; I asked the Pastor a serious question.(I had a great deal of respect for him).
I asked him — “what was one of the hardest things you had to do in your lifetime?” He said one of the hardest things for him was to deliver a sermon to a very small number of people in the church pews. His strength was to test his resolve to give his best with zeal to the 12 or so ppl in the pews. Looking back on the sermon he just gave; I didn’t notice one bit of difference between his oratory for 12 or 200. I found his conviction novel; for he had a deep sense of inner strength.
BTW- we have a lot in common as I share almost everything you stated with you.

Marry again, Hell NO ! ( Even JESUS was hung on a cross just once)

[Daryll55Participant 2950]

BTW….
What has happened to us is what IS HAPPENING to many presently.(I know of at least 1/2 dozen MEN going through this right now). It is one of the main reasons I am here on this website.

Marry again, Hell NO ! ( Even JESUS was hung on a cross just once)

[AwakenedParticipant 35200]

Daryll55 wrote:

You aren’t on a holiday guilt trip; are ya BRO ??

Yeah, I’m FAR FROM PERFECT, but I don’t have anything to feel guilty about when it comes to any of them. I don’t miss any of them, and I don’t desire to have any of them back in MY LIFE especially as TIME goes by and my tolerance level for people and THEIR SH)T diminishes greatly with each passing day.

This all was just kinda running through my mind as I’ve been reading through some of the brothers posts now that we’re into the “holidays”, and I’m hearing about how their “family” members are attempting to sh)t all over them. I’m here to say, TRY YOUR LIFE WITHOUT EM IN IT, AMD SEE HOW YA LIKE IT!!!!

Daryll55 wrote:

BTW…. What has happened to us is what IS HAPPENING to many presently.(I know of at least 1/2 dozen MEN going through this right now). It is one of the main reasons I am here on this website.

I’m THANKFUL that I’m NOT alone on HERE….It would really suck if the lights go out on this place some random day…..

In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash

[iMickey503Participant 12465]

Alone? That’s never going to happen again. Though as it stands right now, MGTOW is simply not known by the masses. And that’s a good thing. But the Red Pills out there are starting to break all the foundational links that kept men from talking to each other.

If push comes to shove? When this place goes down? There are a CRAP ton of 3rd party Open source tools out there that can do the same thing. Really, this site is based on a template with a ton of customization. What would be killer app is to sew together all the forums into one place to display the same threads. Kind of like how some early chat clients like GAIM pulled it all together to have Yahoo, AIM, Google chat, MSN/Hotmail Chat accounts all link into one browser interface.

The pretty trick would be to skin the front of it. And bring all the MGTOW forums all in one place if one wanted.

It would be the best of all worlds. Having the massive Database that others have cataloged and backed up. The nice thing is that if we did in fact do this? If we use what GAB.ai has created? It would be distributed on everyone’s machine. So data and Bandwidth overhead would be small.

So ALONE? We will never be.

But people will come and go. Just like some that have passed away this year.

You are all alone. If you have been falsely accused of RAPE, DV, PLEASE let all men know about the people who did this. http://register-her.net/web/guest/home

[Vajra VarahaParticipant 1283]

Daryll55 wrote:

His strength was to test his resolve to give his best with zeal to the 12 or so ppl in the pews. Looking back on the sermon he just gave; I didn’t notice one bit of difference between his oratory for 12 or 200.

Know why he found it difficult?
He couldn’t shake the thought that only 12 people meant nothing would be donated to pay him!!!!!

[bstoffParticipant 4863]

Daryll55 wrote:

His strength was to test his resolve to give his best with zeal to the 12 or so ppl in the pews. Looking back on the sermon he just gave; I didn’t notice one bit of difference between his oratory for 12 or 200.

Know why he found it difficult?
He couldn’t shake the thought that only 12 people meant nothing would be donated to pay him!!!!!

That’s a pretty wild speculation based upon…..nothing.
It says a lot more about you than what you think you know about him.

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