I Remember

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I remember when I was younger. As a teenager, I didn’t date much, in fact I was awkward around women then. But I loved to garden, I loved the smell of the air right before a spring storm hit.
I loved watching my “crops” come in. I enjoyed kicking back and watching a good action movie on a Friday night.
I enjoyed my routine, I enjoyed being my own person.

Then college hit, and I became what society wanted me to be. I could talk to women, I could get the numbers. Then I met the One! I was gonna marry her, of course, because I’d be a loser if I didn’t. After about a decade of marriage, she left. Now this is good for me, but with coparenting, my life is not like it was before her. It won’t be for many more years.
The drama, the lack of common sense, the lack of reason.

Right now, I am the man I want to be, except for one thing, this hemorrhoid that I have for years to come. Without her, my life is more fulfilling, I’m a better person. But I still have to deal with her bulls~~~ on an almost daily basis. This ages me. Yet everyday, I push forward to the end goal, being able to never deal with her again. Even though it’s still several years away, I get one day closer every morning.

Like a bird on the wire, like a drunk midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free.

[Anonymous 13]

Good luck man, it feels forever while you’re living it.

Then one day,

She’s just a,

BAD F~~~ING MEMORY.

[Remove me!Participant]

Thanks, bud.

Like a bird on the wire, like a drunk midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free.

[HitmanParticipant]

i also remember.
and now i try to focus on the tasks at hand.
life keeps me very busy.
so i don’t dwell on these things….
i don’t always WANT to remember.
.
the LOSS of wealth,
the PAIN of the separation from my child,
the NEED to tolerate bulls~~~ to keep seeing my kid.
..the ex could stop that on a whim.
and so i say nothing negative to the woman who LIED to me,
the promise of for better or worse meant NOTHING.

..
thank GOD i see her for 5 min. a week.
and no more than that.
.
it is ALL about being a good father ,
being reliable and consistent.
providing a safe and happy environment.
..
many years of freedom are now over.
i had a damn good run.
now it’s a few hours of freedom at a time.
the ONLY good from that damn marriage was a kid.
and i should have just had the kid and NEVER MARRIED.
.
enough of that for now..
peace !!!

[Anonymous 42]

I could live comfortably like this for 10,000 years! Finally a lifestyle I can agree with!

Gentlemen, I have achieved ZERO F~~~ING BULLS~~~!

In fact, I’m unscrewing my bulls~~~ meter and plugging the holes. Less gauges to worry about the better!

[bladeParticipant]

Be patient . Time has no meaning .

Things can change overnight if you dont percieve time .

The people that have caused and or played part in . I never go away . Time means nothing . I or others just keep popping up . Guilty of crimes against humanity .

I HAVE EVEN MASTERD DEATH ( no s~~~ )

Ex still thinks i have money , oh and a good life insurance policy . C~~~ will be paying for my funeral .

Some other c~~~s will have some s~~~ comming there way too when i am dead . Better i live c~~~s will wish that too when i am gone . No barganing no nothing . No reasoning . I just keep comming .

Maybe some c~~~s in this world should realise there are c~~~s like me who dont give a f~~~ and will always roll old school .

I blade will never ever be like these new age f~~~~~s wanting laws and rules . Old rules apply .

F~~~ NEW AGE CORRUPTION F~~~~~S .

BRING BACK OLD CORRUPTION IT WORKS .

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[bladeParticipant]

Meanwhile i will just keep having fun f~~~ing with the people that played there part . Now i am laughing . Fun as

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[NerdTunnelerParticipant]

Dont let her live in your mind rent free…You have 24 hours in a day..Perhaps you spend an hour interacting with her for some stupid s~~~…Why waste the other 23 hours thinking about her?

She is not an excuse for you not living a great life JD…

I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...

[JakeParticipant 908]

sending them back for warranty what a drag

[WallyParticipant]

Hope you get there jd. Are you gardening again? seems like that was your place of peace.

"what a waste of a life, to marry, give up your freedom, just for the hope of not dying alone. Don't get married Son."

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Wally wrote:

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A little bit. But I want to farm when I get into my late 40’s.

Like a bird on the wire, like a drunk midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free.

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