Hi guys!
I didn’t find a similar topic, so I ask it here.
I have been MGTOW in the last 2 years. After I broke up my GF I had a lot of free time, and good mood and good productivity, most of the time.
But nowadays, I have bad mood. I am mentally tired at the end of the working time at 6 pm or so. (especially if it was a boring day with minimal productivity and lot of bulls~~~) and after work, I have in theory I have 5 more hours to 11 pm. (Even if I’m mentally tired, I cannot sleep earlier) I could -in theory- do a lot of simple things in that time (household work, repair or tinker my bike, go for a long bike ride, or whatever), but I just somehow do not feel like doing it. This was the same today, and I just wonder where all my time disappeared, all I did and for what I remember is shopping and starting the washing machine and internet browsing. And I keep lagging behind my plans of lot of little things to do in the nights in order to make my bike into the best condition and pack the bag for Saturday when I might have time for a 100 km ride.
Also, even if I wake up at 7 am by myself, I cannot get myself out of bed until something like 8 (at least I live 1 km next to workplace, that one is good for me.) I drink a lot of coffee (4-5) during the day, but it does not help much on the boring days. Even on normal days I’m suspicious that workplace coffee is some weak placebo, the one I cook home at least has three times the effect, on weekends I can go with just 1-2 home-cooked strong coffees.
Before going to bed, sometimes 1-2 beers or cups of red wine and some metal music helps to push my mental state more up, but it is just not enough, and if I drink more than two, I get a hangover and probably wake up 4 am thirsty with headache and after not enough sleep and cannot sleep back. So this also does not work.
I was also working out (well, that was long time ago) and it slightly helped me to sleep, but did not help anything with my s~~~ty body shape (I was 10 kg less, still had steak belly even if I have strong abs underneath. even when I was 16 with 65 kg and 170 cm and one of the strongest guys in class and good at swimming, I had the same ugly belly.) Also, I experienced something, that is called “runners high” , when I was running for 40+ minutes, but that is not a “high” just a neutral feeling instead of boredom, and my head was empty. (most of the time the one treadmill in the gym was occupied…), but there was the same feeling while I was riding bike in the big sunshine on an empty road for hours without meeting anyone and listening to radio. Nowadays I don’t hit the gym, because it takes a lot of free time in one piece to go there, change clothes (30 min) do the workout while waiting for others on the same machine, and do some treadmill or other cardio or fat-burning afterwards when I am finally there (1.5-2 hours) and shower, dry off, cool down(so that I don’t sweat the new clothes again), and change clothes and go home (1 hour) so it is 3 hours in total. I’m waiting any tips to speed this up. In winter, I tend to have more trouble with clothing and time. I also have to find a gym where there are enough machines and stuff so that I don’t need to wait that much. S~~~ I even had to wait a lot to have an available case in the changing room.
I also take multivitamins and magnesium pills daily, and try to eat healthy food. I never eat sweets I don’t even like it. Even if my mother makes a cookie, I tell her to minimize sugar (and she does). My belly more likely may just be due to my too big appetite (and I enjoy any tasty spicy food with some chili and meat).
TL,DR: I feel tired, work has boring days, caffeine helps minimally, alcohol even less, workout needs to be heavily optimized but also does not help much to my mood. I’m also above 30, so my testosterone and metabolism may be less optimal than in my younger ages. What the hell should I do to fix my mood?
Anonymous 3 years, 4 months ago.
