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Anonymous01. With all the black friday nonsense going on, I decided that it was a good time to get my brother his xmas present. I was able to get a really good deal online and didn’t have to get trampled or anything. In my looking around, I did a bit of shopping for myself too. I never buy anything without doing plenty of research first. So, off to amazon I went. And holy s~~~ false advertising everywhere. I was looking for some good headphones at a reasonable price, and there they were. Normal price was $299 and amazon had them on sale for $100. I thought this was it, but I did my research like normal. I was told of a website where you can look up historical prices, so I used that, and I check the manufacturer’s website. That $299 was hyper inflated compared to the normal price any other time during the year. Normal price? $100. So where amazon said I would be saving 66%+, it was all lies. And the more I looked, the more I found that same crap all over the place. I do not trust amazon as a retailer anymore.
2. With the holidays coming up, everyone starts to feel a little sentimental, even someone like me who hates holidays, especially xmas. So I am sitting here, alone, in the dark, thinking over how little I have to truly live for. I regret everything, even the stuff that makes me temporarily happy. I have never been in a relationship. I hate my family and I have no friends since I dislike most people and cannot maintain connections with people. Also, xmas is the most hypocritical holiday I have ever seen. People clamoring to dig themselves into debt for what? You give me s~~~ I don’t need and I give you s~~~ you don’t need? Because “tis the season” or whatever.
3. On the relationships thing, no, I am not a virgin. I have had a few one night stands. For the past long while, it was somehow, roughly every 4 years, I would run into a girl, emotions would fly, we would sleep together, and a couple weeks later we would stop talking. This has happened more than once. The most recent time it was going to happen, I broke the chain and walked away. She was toxic and I wasn’t about to put myself through all those emotions again. I blame so many things for being this way. I blame my mother for raising me like a damage being of garbage. I blame my father for never being there. I blame myself for all these mental issues I was gifted with from my wonderful parents. I blame myself for being lazy, over weight, and having a small penis. I really hate that last one. Worst thing to ever happen to a man is to have a small dick. Seriously. It is a lifetime of suffering. Also, being short, only 5’5″, is another “blessing from the heavens” that my parents gave me. Do you have any idea how many women don’t even view you as a human being is you are under 6′? Getting any kind of respect from anywhere is next to impossible. It doesn’t matter who I am or what I have done, at the end of it all, I’m just a little guy. And if I have a problem with it, it must be short man syndrome.
4. I have grown from my own frustrations with my mother and with the women around me to hate all women. Pretty much any woman I interact with I feel a seething hatred for. I have known some many people, men, who have been cheated on. And my own mother, when my step father got sick of her s~~~, she went and became an escort. I assume that every woman is a lying cheating whore who cares only for what I, or anyone else, can do for them. I have been taken advantage of so many times, by women, simply for being nice or for trying to date them. I could retire 5 years earlier if I hadn’t wasted all that time and effort on women who only wanted to use me. Hate me if you must, but I am fed up with the rat race of blowing thousands of dollars trying to impress a woman simply to be cheated on because he has a nicer car or house or has a bigger dick.
5. I feel my life is going nowhere. I have no more dreams or aspirations left. They have all been killed and buried. I have a dog whom I love more than life itself. Literally, if I didn’t have this dog I would kill myself right now. However, he is huge, which makes moving back to japan, where I was stationed and felt most at peace with myself, next to impossible. He needs a yard to play in, which isn’t all that easy to find in japan. Also, once I finish my degree, I could get a job teaching in japan, but I have this dog. I cannot bear to part with him, but I also hate living in the US anymore. I could give him away and get to move back to japan, but I don’t think I could live without him. Or I could keep him and get some s~~~ job here in the US, get a house with a yard, and work until he dies and then I can off myself. There is no happy ending.
Replys are welcome and I will respond to anyone and everyone. If you don’t have anything to say, but read my post anyways, thanks and have a great day.
Try to remove yourself from all negative influences. After which, try to stop thinking about such people and problems. And finally, try to enjoy life. A hobby is a good way to start enjoying life.
Brother, you are most welcome here.
Thank you for sharing, we have all been there.
My cat saved my life. Thank your dog before you go to bed. He loves you.
Dude, unless you have an incurable disease, it ain’t that bad. I know it feels like it is but it isnt.
You have been s~~~ on, I get it. You will overcome this. The men here will help you.
Pet the pup, tell him you love him, he loves you.
We’ll talk.
I am glad you are here.
Jan
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Anonymous0I am stuck living in my mother’s home as I am in college, seems like a waste to not use my GI Bill. I seriously hate her so much. She has done nothing but made my life worse and she has used her vagina to get anywhere in life. Now that she is old and used up, no one wants her and no “she has too much anxiety and depression to work” so she sits at home leeching off of social security, all the while trying to find some dude who will take care of her from different dating sites. Oh yeah, and recently she tried to convince my ex-step-father, whom she kicked out and rapes for child support every month, to f~~~ her and get her pregnant because she is lonely. She is 53 years old.
Once I am done with college, I am gone.
It is hard to stop thinking about such people when they are always there. I seriously have no privacy at all. I am living in the living room addition on the first floor of the house. My mother sits in the next room over from sun up to sun down. All I have is a paper thin door that cannot lock that I can close. And if I do close it, she plays the guilt trip bulls~~~ the next time she sees me. She tries to play the guilt game every time I see her. It doesn’t work anymore.
All of my old hobbies feel shallow and pointless. I used to love really good deep RPG games. They don[t make those anymore. Now it is all FPS bulls~~~ games. I have been playing some grim dawn, but that gets boring after an hour. I am constantly broke because I have bills and I am on a fixed income, so its not like I can go out. I don’t have any friends to go out with anyways. I have never been very good with keeping connections with people.
I find myself reading way too much doujin most days. If you don’t know what that is, they are black and white japanese comics, that are also porn. Think cartoon porn with a story in black and white. Now it seems like even that isn’t doing s~~~ for me anymore. I cannot use it as an escape. All I see is the dudes with crazy huge dicks, which I know are completely unrealistic, but it doesn’t make me feel any better about packing a pea shooter. And the actually romantic ones just remind of how finding a woman who is loyal and loving is completely impossible. 32 years and not a single girlfriend ever. Yeah, I am that f~~~ed in the head that even the “don’t stick your dick in crazy” girls leave me alone.
i’m glad you got that off your chest.
it’s okay to rant, iv’e done quite a bit of it..
my point is that you are not alone.
you have the good men of MGTOW at your service.
an army of 18,000 + men who hear you.
no judgement, no shame.
you belong to the elite group of men ,
who have seen the truth, unplugged from the matrix.
it is very difficult at first, but it gets much MUCH better !
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all we have to offer is the truth, nothing more…
in fact there IS more.
camaraderie and a sense of belonging.
YOU belong brother!
i will now lift a glass and toast you .
here’s to you my friend,
every man counts!!!Brother, you and you alone are responsible for your happiness.
Your mother made her choices. They are not your choices.
If you want to be unhappy, that is your choice. If you are unhappy moving to Japan will not make you happy. You will be unhappy in Japan.
You deal with what you have. Does your college have a mental health section? The VA?
Take the pup for a long walk every day. He loves you and it will get you out of the house.
He needs you.
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Feal for you my friend.I use my phone when on here and call it brothers in my pocket.Get it out and have a good rant i think everyone does.It is very hard when you have to bottle it up in life because there is no one to talk to or that wants to.Good guys here.
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Well where to begin. First you are not alone or friendless–you are part of the brotherhood now. Believe it or not many of us have been EXACTLY where you are–and it is a dark and desperate place. There is a way out. But you must come to terms with reality. A lot of your difficulties are not of your own making but you are taking them on and internalizing them. You are accepting the judgments, negativity and toxicity of others and taking ownership of it. They are destroying you from the inside out.
Example your height. So what? Why should your height make you feel inferior in some way? Only because others have convinced you there is something inferior about it. Napoleon was 5’3′, Bruce Lee 5’7, Jet Li is 5’6′ and I could go on. Advice: Don’t accept the negativity of others. Most other people (not MGTOW of course) are morons and useless parasites trying to poison your mind and soul. Don’t let them. Take away their power over you. The fact you are in college proves you recognize your own value and you are improving yourself. Reject the opinions of idiots and go your own way.
On a personal note: I know what you mean about RPGs, I love the old games but most like TSR hit a wall a long time ago. I’m in the process of writing an old style table top RPG which is designed for older gamers who have given up on that sort of thing. When it finally gets published (and it will even if I have to self publish) I think you will rediscover the joy of table top RPGs again. The big difference between TSR and my game? Mine has a philosophy behind it.
So don’t give up and keep plugging away—we made it through and so can you. If you need help just ask, thats one of the reasons we’re all here.
NavyNick—-So glad I ran into this post brother…Wow…You and I could be f~~~ing related sir…I wish you had some time to read through my posts…My mother, the f~~~ing stabbing me in the sides and back, over and over and over, yet, without her, I would be homeless, so I cannot get rid of her…The pain, the misery, the f~~~ing agony of life s~~~ting on you time after time after time…I GET IT!!! Only, and I know this doesn’t help you a bit, imagine for a moment on top of all the f~~~ing misery you have, imagine for a moment you were in the most HEINOUS obstinate pain you can possibly imagine….And it was coming from an incurable disease…And you had been living with it since you were 7 years old…But the doctors kept telling you it was in your head, or some bulls~~~ until…DOH…ooops, so sorry, IF we had only known earlier, maybe we could have helped you, BUT, OH my, oops…too late, gosh…Guess we slipped and missed it…Golly gee wiz, no biggie, just f~~~ing horrific f~~~ pain the rest of my life…No biggie…So yeah….I get it…BTW…I have two german shepherds…Male/female….brother and sister…And they save my life every damned day…In the last year on more than one occasion I have held my .45 up and looked long and hard into the pistol, wondering…But my mind always wanders back to, who will take care of my babies??? My f~~~ing mother??? My x??? F~~~ NO….They do not deserve that…No one will ever love them or care for them as I do, NO ONE….S~~~ my little lady also has an auto immune disease, and I have to clean her butt three or four times a day…Her 35 pound bag of dog food costs me $120, then I am still on the hook for his at $45 a 40 lb bag…Mind you I live on a $545 a month f~~~ me disability check…Well that is after they f~~~ me for $500 for child support…So yeah Nick…I get it…I understand….S~~~ my father routinely beat the living s~~~ out of me until I left at sixteen…I just got done with a recent post where I was asking WHY ME??? WHY THE F~~~ DOES MY LUCK SUCK DONKEY B~~~~???? Every time I turn around there it is a S~~~ F~~~ sandwich slapped into my face….And since it all started before I could even f~~~ anyone in the whole world over, I cannot for the life of me figure out what the f~~~ I did to deserve such a s~~~ life, and I do mean S~~~ LIFE…But I listened to others stories, listened to them talk…We are not alone, no, no, no, no….The list of men getting the s~~~ end of the stick is f~~~ing miles long full of men just like us, didn’t do anything to deserve the never ending pot of s~~~ we have been/will be given…I am not sure what awaits us on the other side…I have no idea, is this some kind of test, do I have a purpose other than being everyone else’s toilet??? I don’t know sir, I cannot answer that….As a matter of fact, I cannot answer much…What I do have is this…..
Hope…
Hope that tomorrow dawns a new day….And with that day, maybe an ending to the s~~~…Not death, but a new beginning…A new me….A new start….Brother, you have come to the right place…You are among your new family now….A family that gets how hard it has been for you, and truly empathizes…We feel your pain…I FEEL YOUR PAIN!!!! Keep coming back here…keep posting your thoughts and feelings…I don’t know how, but it helps…It also helps to have these men here for you any time of day or night…Men like Jan, Tower, Key, M52, DYD…..I could go on and on….We are here for you…
That dog of yours…..Your baby….Never let that go…Never let an hour go by without stopping and just holding him…Showing him how much he means….
Take him for a walk…Go outside and play frisbee, or stick….Have you ever heard of Bullysticks??? They are bull dicks all dried up, jizz still inside and all…My dogs go ape s~~~ bananas over them…They love them….But these sorry c~~~~~~~~~s figured it out and now they are so over priced I can only get a few a month, f~~~ing douche c~~~s….Anyways, get some….He will love them….HOLD HIM TIGHT when it gets real bad…It really helps me…I cannot stress that enough…Look into his eyes, he needs you…You need him…Never let go of that, NEVER…..
Keep coming back, yell, scream, SWEAR at the tops of your f~~~ing lungs…That is what this is for…It is a special place, built by men, for men, helping men everyday….Keep your mind open to new things…You never know what is waiting for you tomorrow…You just cannot know, but you can hope….And if you lose that even for a second, get your navy ass back in here, and we will do what we can…Peace brother…Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....
Anonymous0@jan.Sobieski I do play with my dog every day. He has so much energy it should be bottled and sold. I have 50% disability through the VA for my mental health issues, but all they do is either put you on meds, which I tried and they made me a sleepy eating machine, or stick you in a room with some psychologist and expect you to tell her, and they are always women, what is wrong with you. I cannot open up to a woman. They are part of the problem. My college doesn’t have s~~~, unless you are a woman, they have all the support program you could think of.
@blade it is crazy how society has told us time and again that “to be a man, you cannot cry. you have to be tough. you have to hold up the weight of the world on your shoulders, and be thankful for the task.” Last time I opened up to my mom was when I was in my schooling for the military, I was having a rough time. She told me to quit being a bitch, get over it, tighten up my boots and just do it. Imagine giving that advice to any woman for any reason?
@pistolpete As a more math inclined person, I like working with statistics. I do not know the exact numbers, but I do believe that somewhere in the range of over 60% of major company CEO’s are over 6′ tall. Napoleon was average height for his time and demographic. Many studies have shown that being taller leads to more success and happiness. While I cannot say that being short is why I am unhappy, I can say that if I were taller, the likeliness that I would be more happy would be higher. Does that make sense? Its like since I am fat, I am unhappy about being fat, but the state of being fat does not make me unhappy, but you could surely say that if I were in shape, the probably I would be more happy would be higher. Its just one less thing to worry or think about. Tall people do not worry about being tall, that is just who they are, and society embraces the state of being tall. A short person would not think of being short as being negative, until the people around them told them it was bad. It is social conditioning. And while I am aware of it, and try to ignore it, I cannot change the fact that I am treated more poorly compared to the 6’+ out there.
The game that comes to mind that catalyze me into a gamer was probably FF7 and Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. Now a days, everything is half-assed early access cash grabs, FPS instant gratification 12 year old “I f~~~ed you mom last night”, or JRPG’s. Oh yeah, I cannot leave out the microtransaction cancer that is creeping into more and more games. They are even making MMO’s with pay to win bulls~~~. I miss the way I felt playing wrath of the lichking, but those days are dead.
Anonymous0@jeremiah Johnson I read your post, and looked through a few of the posts you have put up. You sir, without having ever met you or know anything besides what is typed on my screen, can assume, without any doubt, that you have that 1000 yard stare. You have looked into the abyss and it has looked back. You know the demon I carry as well and I know it. The demon which needs no explanation, it just is, and it never lets you rest.
I sincerely hope that you have found a cure for what your issues as a child were, and the only thought after reading that was “if he was a little girl, they would have taken him seriously and gotten him help.” And you know that’s the truth. If you can’t make babies, you should work until you die to support the procreaters.
My dog was getting on my nerve earlier when i was trying to type, and you know how it is, when you get those emotions going, you get focused, and you don’t want to be bothered. Well Frost could tell I was upset, so he tried to get my attention the only way he knows how, whining and pawing. so I got upset and raised my voice at him. He laid down and let me finish. I felt terrible after, so I laid down and pet him for a while, and got him some cheese. I swear to god and kingdom, the day he dies, I die. So yes, he is my everything like your shepherds. This is probably a dumb question, but have you contacted your local vets and animal agencies to see about getting some help with the special food and medication for them?
I am not one for religion, but I had to take a college class on some international studies, and I chose “introduction to religions of the far east” as it sounded interesting. I cannot remember if it was buddhism or taoism, but in one of those religions they have thing thing. For every action you take, and for every action that is taken against you, it colors your soul. So if you live a life of doing bad things, your soul is dirty, and the only way to reach enlightenment is for your soul to be cleaned. So you must live a life of suffering to cleanse your soul of the bad things you did in your past life. this is a continuous cycle. So after a life of suffering, if you still do good things, your next life will be a reward. then you must continue to do good in your rewarded life to get closer to being pure. So, yes, you can think of it as you were born into suffering and your life is s~~~ and none of it is your fault, but it is simply your soul being purged and cleaned of the bad that was done by it in a past life. It is totally unfair, but nothing in life is fair.
My personal theory is that the universe needs a balance. Unfortunately, some people are just born into a perfect life where every day is nothing but smiles. So to balance things out, there has to be people who spend most of their time suffering. But I am a crazy person, so I don’t expect anyone to understand my logic.
If you live in eastern PA, I would invite you to the local dog park.
Anonymous0@Sausage Fingers I have been working on my diet, just mostly struggling with the motivation. It is like, I don’t have any drive to succeed or survive, so why bother spending time on being more healthy or fit since I am going to die soon. Still slowly working on the diet at least. Trying to do keto, but I love pizza and pancakes.
Also, I have deleted all of my online dating profiles and unless it is business related, I will not talk to women. They have nothing to contribute to my life. I have never enjoyed sex, never gotten a blowjob, and the average female’s personality is so caustic that it isn’t worth it.
I take that thing about sex back. There was one girl, I met her over world of warcraft. She was my first. And she was the only girl I ever enjoyed sleeping with. It’s just too bad that she had the brain of a woman, but that’s another story.
Anonymous0My dog is not well trained enough to be set loose in the woods. He is kind of derpy. He got out of the yard a while ago, and he hit a car. No, the car didn’t hit him, he ran into the road and smacked the backside of a moving car. Probably one of the scariest days of my life. We do have a really nice fully fenced in dog park, but it is about 20-30 minutes away through the worse traffic in the area. I do need to take him there more often, even with all the traffic and yuppies. Also, I am not the camping type, but I do sincerely appreciate the advice.
I should be graduating come the end of spring semester, so long as I can manage to pass all of my classes. Then it is just a matter of finding a job. I would have no problems moving. I have packed the dog and I into the car and driven cross country before, and I would do it again. I would trade a few organs to work for google out in the midwest. Cheap land, great pay, low cost of living, and lower population density. Google is super picky and my degree will be mechanical engineering, so I don’t know of any jobs they might have for me.
My dog was getting on my nerve earlier when i was trying to type, and you know how it is, when you get those emotions going, you get focused, and you don’t want to be bothered. Well Frost could tell I was upset, so he tried to get my attention the only way he knows how, whining and pawing. so I got upset and raised my voice at him. He laid down and let me finish. I felt terrible after, so I laid down and pet him for a while,
Oh my god, yes…You know what mine do, when they cannot get my attention??? They come over as I am typing, or trying to play a game, and they take their head and come up underneath my arm or hand, what ever they can reach, and push up, leaving my hand off said mouse or keyboard…Freaking annoys the s~~~ out of me at first, and then in the end I always look down and realize they just want my attention…I take them into the bedroom and lay down and give all of my attention to them….belly rubs…
This is probably a dumb question, but have you contacted your local vets and animal agencies to see about getting some help with the special food and medication for them?
Yes, and nope, not a gosh damned help in any of them, in fact they were charging me over $200 for each round of antibiotics I had to give my baby girl…ugh…
“introduction to religions of the far east” as it sounded interesting.
Hell yeah they do, I would take a class like that in a heart beat, sounds great brother…
If you live in eastern PA, I would invite you to the local dog park.
I live in the Black Hills of Wyoming….PA, I met a group of guys when I was engaged from PA…Still in contact with them…While I was with the last woman I ever will be, We were in Speedway, IN, and not sure if you are aware, but there is this little race there every year called the Indy 500…Well this group of guys has been friends for life, and every year they make it a point to come to the Indy 500 and party like rock stars for an entire week…These guys have something I have sought my entire life…None the less…After meeting this group, (very long, awesome story btw) we were instantly connected…They were a lot younger than I…They taught me s~~~ like beer pong or some s~~~, they had their own board and everything…Anyway…They are all from PA and MI…Some of the greatest men I have ever met in my life…Know what sucks??? They do not hang out much anymore, don’t go to Indy anymore, (broke a 10 year tradition) all because one of them was married, and his wife said he had to put down the childish bulls~~~ and grow the f~~~ up or she would leave him…ugh
Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....
The problem is regret and part of your past are coming to hunt you but I feel the circumstance you’re in is also gloomy, for now. However, you simply can’t be in such a state it’s detrimental to your mental and physical health. The scenario you’re in is what a lot of us went through and overcame, and I know you’re going through a lot and it hurts but to move forward in life you have to sacrifice and that means moving on with your life and throwing all the harmful trauma out the window. The state you’re in right now makes you very vulnerable and it won’t be long before people catch on or take advantage of.
I too had a bitch of a mother who divorced my father early in my childhood and I never had a chance to see him since then. I don’t even know if he’s alive tbh. My no good of a c~~~ mother never had our interest in mind, cared very little about us and pretty much treated us like s~~~. If anything I learned a valuable lesson that in this cruel dog-eat-dog world you can’t rely on anyone but yourself and the anguish was a lot to bear but over time you start to adapt and rebuild everything step by step. The first thing for me was not to think too much but to focus on the goals that truly mattered which was my education and work. As a result I had to sacrifice both my relationship with c~~~s and friends.
Another thing, quit being so self conscious about your physical self. It sounds to me like you’re projecting based on what you would wish c~~~s would perceive you as or how the media thinks we should portray ourselves. You need to get out of that bubble and start taking care of your body for your own benefit and when you do start losing weight and put on some muscle you’ll notice how much better and different you’ll look. The complexion of your skin would improve too.
But the key word here is benefit. You need to start seeing things based on how you’ll gain and what has to be done to achieve it. Like I said to move forward requires sacrifice and it’s either that or be swallowed whole by your past, society or those around you.
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Anonymous0@jeremiah Johnson That class on religions from all over asia really made me think. It was a memorize and repeat class, so not much discussion or anything, but a few people actually had the mental faculties to have some really great conversations about it. Kinda makes you wonder, did god create people or did people create god?
$200 for some antibiotics does sound really expensive. Having lived on a fixed income for a couple of years now, I can see why little stuff, just like needing a new set of tires or having your dog get sick, can you set you back months on bills and expenses. I wish the MGTOW community had like a listing of guys who were good with different things. There has to be some tax loophole or organization out there that can help you.
My boy Frost likes to put his cold wet nose right on the little spot above my elbow. It sends a shiver down my spine. Or he will shove his head between the chair arm and the desk so that I can’t reach the keyboard. Aren’t dogs the best?
Marriage is seriously the dumbest thing ever invented. Unless you lived back like several hundred years ago where you pretty much bought a wife, and she had zero rights. People seem to forget that back in those days, women led seriously fulfilling lives. They have done studies, and compared to 50 years ago, the “new age woman” is seriously miserable. The age of the loyal and obedient wife is dead. It’s a shame that a bitch could destroy something that took years to build, because she views it as childish. She was probably just butthurt that she wasn’t being included in on the fun and games. There is something in female nature that drives them to invade and destroy all male spaces, but that is a topic on it’s own.
Anonymous0@joey Alfio it sounds like our mothers could be sisters. As a child, I was an after thought and a burden. As an adult, I am a handy bag of free resources that can be milked for what they are worth. It seems like all women have this nature about them of “nothing matters but me” attitude.
Being told over and over again that you are not good enough, that you are bad, that the way you feel and the way you think is wrong. From my parents to my old religion, gotta love that old roman catholic schooling, told me that me entire existence was a sin and all I could do was repent and self sacrifice.
I totally get where you are coming from with working out and building muscle. I was down to about 14-15% bodyfat and weighed in around 145lbs or so. I was feeling so much better about myself, but depression never goes away. I had a depressive episode and the c~~~s in my life, my mother and the friend-f~~~er, both told me to go see a doctor, and I did just that. they loaded me up with this drug and that drug, till I was a lazy hungry zombie. Now I am over 220lbs. All that extra weight kills any desire to work out. 220lbs might not be heavy, but on a person who is 5’5″, it is a lot.
I am sure that once I can move out, which should be soon as I will be finished with college by next may, I can start all over again putting my life back together. I have already told my brother that once I move out I am going to disappear from this family. It is going to be so easy too. New phone number, delete facebook, and poof, they cannot find me.
Yeah, totally agree brother…My x fiance and I rescued these two while we were still together, so she likes to come out here and see them a couple times a month…I allow it, since it is not the babies fault she is an unemphatic, unloving, s~~~ stain….Anyway — allowing her to come out has also allowed me to ask her for help from time to time…And to be honest, if not for her help, I don’t know what I would have done…Just been too much this year in expenses….
Awww dog’s….what would we do without our babies??? I am almost certain that I would not be here without mine….I have given it some serious thought, and you may too, I may have to get a puppy before anything happens top my babies, just to stave off the dark day….I don’t know…we will see I guess…I think it was Jan or Tower that has a cat….
Are they as close of a companion??? Do you feel about your kitty, like Nick and I about our dog’s??? Just curious….Men are at a time when panning for gold in a urinal has a higher probability of success than finding a faithful and loving woman, it is time to go your own way.....
Anonymous18Nick – do not compare yourself to others. I get suckered in this bad habit time to time and it is in our nature to compare and contrast. But it’s always a s~~~ty feeling comparing others to yourself. NOTHING good comes out of it.
The reality you see as real changes with your perception. For most people that change is passive – it comes with a new job, a new place, a baby, new relationship, new car, etc. But human conscious is such that we can inner engineer to change our perception.
The college degree is your goal- you have something to work towards.
A few more points I’d like to make – you are a person today based on your past decisions, circumstances beyond your control, and haphazard events we call life.
Now today is your future. Think of now as future – each day you are living is contributing to your future. And how you will feel and be as a person down the road depends on what you do and think today. The seeds you sow now you reap later.
A quick example: It is far worse to sit in an exam having unprepared than to confront the unpleasantness of forcing oneself to study each day. And once you do force yourself to do something unpleasant it ceases to become so bad and you can start to enjoy it.
The biggest secret in life – ALL things that appear unpleasant on the surface have tons of happiness hidden inside. As humans we avoid the small unpleasantness and pursue the temporary thrill of whatever seems pleasant on the surface. The end result is we remain forever miserable because that pleasant had beauty only at surface. The true happiness is at the unpleasant aspects of life that hide the gems.
Glad to have you among us brother. Feel free to vent/share/discuss whatever bothers you. We are all in it together.
Cheers 🙂
Anonymous0@jeremiah Johnson of the cat people that I have met, they typically don’t have the same connection as dog people. Cats just aren’t the same, typically. I have met a couple of cats that you would swear were dogs reincarnate. They would come when called and everything.
@iLearn I totally get where you are coming from with the hidden happiness behind things that are unpleasant. It is like the high you get from going to the gym or getting a tattoo. I used to love going to the gym and lifting till I felt like I could be poured into a jello mold. I also loved getting tattooed, but that’s expensive and I am already upside down on my credit card. I said it before, and it started to work. I got a gym buddy and started to build the habit again, but my gym buddy was a woman, and like all women, she became increasingly annoying with each passive week.
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