I must admit that I had no idea that there was a movement like MGTOW, even though I have been living this kind of life for the last 8 years.
In late 2006 (near Christmas) I found the woman I had been with for the last 3 years screwing another man, I actually caught them in the act. I didn’t lose my cool, I didn’t beat the s~~~ out of the guy; because no matter how much physical abuse I heaped on him & no matter how much verbal abuse I heaped on her would change what I had just seen. He fled the house, I never saw him again. I just shook my head at her & left to collect my thoughts, in that time away I went through several different emotions: shock, anger, rage, resignation, & when acceptance finally hit so did the realization that my life would be a million times better without her in it. I returned home, when I walked in the door she immediately started with the tears and mumbled apologies, I told her to save it. I let her know that there was no coming back from betrayal (something my father always told me) & that she had 24 hours to pack up her crap and get out, that we were done. She went through the usual limited repertoire of sorrowful expressions & actions that women don when they realize that they have gone too far, I wasn’t interested in any of it. My dog can do a better act after she has crapped on the floor, at least her sorrowful expressions are genuine.
From that point on I took many digital photographs of everything she packed & I recorded everything she said to me, and I let her know that I was doing this. When she realized that the game was up, I saw the true colors that I had never seen before (or that I had never allowed myself to see?). She threw insults at me, members of my family, & my friends. Threatened to attack me. Threatened to vandalize my vehicle and my home, she even threatened to kill my dog when I wasn’t home. I again reminded her that everything she had said was being recorded & she shut up. She was packed up and gone in les than 6 hours.
Over the next few week she sent me numerous emails & phoned several times, all of her apologies were rebuffed. I did tell her once that I had seriously considered forgetting the whole thing & taking her back, but the amount of venom and violent threats she threw at me made me change my mind instantly. This in fact was not the case, I never considered taking her back. I was just launching my own poisoned barb, making her regret her actions. Petty, I know. But damn it felt good!
So, all she had to do was remain faithful & she couldn’t even do that. The consequences for her was having to begin paying her own way through life. When I last saw her, she gave a genuine (sounding) apology & said that she truly regretted her actions years past. I thanked her for showing me the true side of most women & that I couldn’t give two s~~~s about her apology.
Now the only female in my life is sleeping on the floor beside me (my Irish Setter; Sadie). She enjoys hunting, camping, fishing & all the things that the ex did her best to keep me from.
Sorry for the long post, but I thought that I would share everything about the event that opened my eyes & made me take the next exit to my own road through life.
whatdoesntkillyoumakesyoustronger 5 years, 1 month ago.
