How many are you Christians or Believers? I find myself empty and p~~~ed off.

[UnKnownSurvivingParticipant 173]

Look, I don’t hate God. I don’t hate him. But I feel empty, when it comes to other people. I’m in the middle of checking off my check box, to make myself productive. I have plans to move, big plans. But my family are annoying to f~~~. My mother is worse.

I used to live with her 6 months before I f~~~ing ended at up at a mental hospital. During those months, I was reading and studying the Nine Laws, The Rational Male, and The Rational Male: Prevention. The Nine Laws is a manual which is applicable or can work with the Bible. I used to read the Bible a lot when I was a kid, every day, morning, evening or afternoon. And now, I’m getting back into it, because I felt drawn to it, but I can’t do so, when my family/my mother is in my f~~~ing way. Not only that, the bible has given me a lot of bitter memory from my single mother. We have a lot of anger issues, in the past, and don’t even preach the word of God, and now they’re saying, “that’s not godly” or even man-shame, “Man the f~~~ up”.

It’s real f~~~ing irritating, because I have some small goals, which I call basic investments, and big goals, in which I also call, long-term investments. I fall into depression, and I’m in depression right now. I also want to plate a girl, and perhaps have some experience in short-term relationship, (because I have zero f~~~ing experience), but after arguing with my mother, I feel like I have no control in what I want or say. I certainly don’t want kids, but it make me angry to f~~~, and I just want to kill her.

I have learned that a strong woman is pointless, because she’s alpha over everything. Sure, I was a bit aggressive, but I was on edge. My mother keeps saying I’m rude. I have no role model, and I found one, through my books. I can’t build myself, when my mother keep saying I’m rude. (I was mindf~~~ed, about whole gentlemen thing, when I was growing up, and that s~~~ doesn’t work with girls.)

I can be polite, and I can be respectful, but at same time, I’m on edge. She doesn’t get that her present is putting me on edge, because she wants certain thing DONE HER WAY. This makes me retaliate. I am old-fashioned, somewhat. Because of my single mother, and my experiences, I believe that women should not speak, unless spoken to. I f~~~ing hate single motherhood. I am writing several pieces on cultural changes of men and women. I know I’ll get backlash, and I don’t care. I get so f~~~ing red, with the slightest edge, my mother ask me why I’m so rude. She doesn’t get that her very present put me on edge. She want respect immediately. This disgusts me.

I don’t believe in Alpha women, though I did wrote a piece on it. When I get very angry and violent, my mother gets frightened, cried. I’m this close to beating her to pulp. My mother knows that I can hurt her.

Now I get kicked out. I called several friends to stay with, and they said I can stay for a week.

I’m f~~~ing trying to get my s~~~ together, and my mother just lost her job, and I have just started my job after three months in a hospital. She just sent me a text:

“I can’t believe that even in the midst of me losing my job, all you can think about is yourself.”

She doesn’t get it! I’m trying to fulfill my potential, and she just says this s~~~. I don’t know what the f~~~ to do with her. I feel like plating girls right now, f~~~ the s~~~ out of them, hold them down, deep throat, and f~~~ the asses. Just feel like plating right now.

I like my freedom of whatever I want, to do, to put my mind to. My next step was plating, after I complete my goals, because I just don’t want to get married. It’s s~~~ now. Now, I think I want to pause that, for a bit, and spend $500 on an escort on eroticreview or some s~~~.

Trust me, I want to beat the s~~~ out of my mother, and I can’t do it. I see why assholes are angry and end up in prison.

All this s~~~ is difficult, I was beginning to do NOFAPs 4 month before, I was in progress. Now the hospital f~~~ me up, and I have to start over. My mother threw my personal development books out, during when I was in the hospital. It was working, but my mother irritate the f~~~ out. Right now, I’m looking for a place to live, and I found my roommate.

How do you christians/believers deal with it? I know there are some of you here. I just hate the f~~~ing label now. I want to get into heaven, but I know I can’t save myself. Only with the blood of Jesus. I want to find my brothers I relate to. But they’re nowhere to be found.

Seriously, f~~~ing seriously. I don’t like the s~~~ hole I’m in.

"I come in Peace. I didn't bring Artillery. But I'm pleading with you with tears in my eyes, if you fuck with me, I'll kill you all." - Gen. Marine Mattis Mad DOG

[Anonymous 12]

Strong people tend not to have to walk around telling everyone how strong they are.

Also as you mentioned these strong women just ride roughshod over everything. And if you don’t like it then you’re not strong enough to handle them!

I’m introverted and spiritual. I deal with it just by keeping to myself and avoiding people and their s~~~ as much as possible.

I also stay true to myself. When I think about s~~~ I’ve been in its usually because I have taken someone else’s advice or deviated from my true self in some way.

I hope things get better for you.

[Anonymous 42]

[743 roadmasterParticipant]

Wrong place to ask about faith and being a Christian. The dark side of the force resides around here.

mgtow is its own worst enemy- https://www.campusreform.org/

[BoarParticipant]

I strongly encourage you to read the book F*ck Feelings by Michael Bennett. He does a good job of laying out realistic strategies and expectations for coping with truly f~~~ed up situations.

Untamed wrote: Quit complaining and Go Your Own Way in whatever manner suits you best.

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

God? He left the building long ago.

God doesn’t care.

I don’t get it, what do sex have to do with all your failures?

Your mother, she is a woman, don’t expect anything good from there.

If you live out of your parents house and on your own then you are not a failure at all.

Embrace the 0 f~~~s given.

Your mother? She ain’t your problem 0 f~~~s given.

Do your s~~~, do your job, get your money and don’t give a f~~~.

Do some boxing or something to cool down the rage.

0 f~~~s given, whatever happens is NOT YOUR PROBLEM, don’t wanna get married ? DONT DO IT.

You are creating a lot of problems for yourself.

You need to not give a s~~~ a little more.

Tame your brain, your emotions are not real, just a bunch of chemicals and impulses in your brain, cut them off.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[SH3LLZParticipant 5569]

OK, first of all. Breathe. You definitely need to calm down. Second, if you call yourself a Christian, you need to read the Bible seriously. God, showed respect toward women, mothers, widows… If you were to harm your mother you definitely would not be looked on in favor. 3rd,are you in any sort of counseling? Do you suffer from depression? Are you working and productive? If not, focus on the things you mentioned. You plans. Put yourself 1 year out, 2 years out and so forth.

Focus on YOU and your mental health. While there is a lot of anger within this community due to what’s been done to us, it in no way endorses violence.

You can get through this. Finally, if you believe in God, Pray incessantly! 1 Thessalonians 5:17, 18

Do not let yourself be conquered by the evil, Keep conquering the evil with the good. ROMANS 12:21

I wish you the best!

#ICETHEMOUT!!! #MANOUT!!! #HIDEYOURWEALTH #VAGINAISWORTHLESS

[UnKnownSurvivingParticipant 173]

Yeah. Maybe. But I gotta ask somewhere.

"I come in Peace. I didn't bring Artillery. But I'm pleading with you with tears in my eyes, if you fuck with me, I'll kill you all." - Gen. Marine Mattis Mad DOG

[SH3LLZParticipant 5569]

743 roadmaster wrote:

Wrong place to ask about faith and being a Christian. The dark side of the force resides around here.

Not necessarily true. Rational thought and voices do exist here…

#ICETHEMOUT!!! #MANOUT!!! #HIDEYOURWEALTH #VAGINAISWORTHLESS

[Anonymous 2]

Towers clip and Morlocks post are spot on. Focus on you and simplify it. Take one thing at a time good or bad and make a choice with it. Discard it of is it useful. That includes possessions, people, etc. Some things like family you can’t just poof into nonexistent but you can limit contact. Sounds to me like your mind is everywhere and you should focus on the small things you can control.

A preacher once told me some advice I’ve kept for years. Take it however you wish. God may close a door on you to open a better one in his time. This has been profound in my life. Also that Gods time is not your own. Meaning that you’re timeline for life events you want may not be the best. His is. I’ve followed it the best I can but I’m human and not at all perfect but it puts a focus and perspective in my life.

Hope it helps.

[UnKnownSurvivingParticipant 173]

Well, yeah, I am taking counseling. Once a month. Just that, I was in the middle of anger phase, I was trying to calm down, so I read and studied The NINE LAWs. Damn. it was good. Really good. All the meditations I need to take, to build, and I was in the middle of the growth process, before she f~~~ing decided to throw it away.

I’m getting another one. It was f~~~ing working for me. It calmed me down.

"I come in Peace. I didn't bring Artillery. But I'm pleading with you with tears in my eyes, if you fuck with me, I'll kill you all." - Gen. Marine Mattis Mad DOG

[UnKnownSurvivingParticipant 173]

I am actually working at a major retail store. It’s working out smoothly for me. Just not with my family. My friends are supporting me, though.

"I come in Peace. I didn't bring Artillery. But I'm pleading with you with tears in my eyes, if you fuck with me, I'll kill you all." - Gen. Marine Mattis Mad DOG

[The man in the mountainParticipant 4102]

We all do feel a little empty from time to time, regardless of what religion you consider yourself a “part of”.

Buddhism expanded upon this empty feeling and made a whole line of teachings about it, but i wont talk about it if you are not interested in other points of view, if i were to guess you are someone with a strong self driving ego, you put a lot of emotion into what you do which opens you up to a problem and it’s called disappointment. When you do something great and people don’t even bat an eye to recognize you for doing something good has been today’s biggest problem for society.

We put more attention onto the bad than the good people do, we see this in the media and the thousands of programmed citizens (peasants) that let the TV or radio talk their opinions to them, Basically people don’t have their own perception of reality that is accurate and consistent, they run to the TV to get talking points or opinions on the newest and hottests topics, sad..

Ever since i was born i was raised a Christian, i still love Christ and hes message of peace and compassion, i don’t agree with the dogmatic view that if you don’t believe in him you wont go to heaven, that in my opinion was purposely put there to keep the sheep in line or in what you would call as a worshiping loop.

Things that i do love about him are that he was not afraid to whip the money changers, to stand up to what’s wrong in society also when he told one of hes followers to bring a sword from the market, to teach about self defense, The lord loves and the Lord forgives, as long as you are loyal to God what man could stand between YOU and HIM the almighty, exactly no one.

[UnKnownSurvivingParticipant 173]

I was only angry, and I feel like beating s~~~ out of her to a pulp. It was too much for me, so I broke the door frame. She got under my skin that much.

I’m happier somewhere else, so I can continue studying.

"I come in Peace. I didn't bring Artillery. But I'm pleading with you with tears in my eyes, if you fuck with me, I'll kill you all." - Gen. Marine Mattis Mad DOG

[The man in the mountainParticipant 4102]

UnKnownSurviving wrote:

I was only angry, and I feel like beating s~~~ out of her to a pulp. It was too much for me, so I broke the door frame. She got under my skin that much.

I’m happier somewhere else, so I can continue studying.

“pain is inevitable, suffering is optional”

[experiencedParticipant]

At the first opportunity get out from under your mother’s thumb.
Easier said than done, but if not done, harder in the long run.

"It seems like there's times a body gets struck down so low, there ain't a power on earth that can ever bring him up again. Seems like something inside dies so he don't even want to get up again. But he does."

[Remove me!Participant]

As a devout follower of Christ, I have learned to learn and understand Jesus not in the way I was taught as a kid. I have learned about the true Savior and I couldn’t love it more.

He has pulled me out of a mess more than once. I found a woman will abandon me, but the Lord never has. I’ve abandoned Him many times, but He never has.

Like a bird on the wire, like a drunk midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free.

[Bob1775Participant 164]

To me your mother seems more like a narcissist than alpha female.controlling your every move and preventing any progress towards making yourself better.She wants you to stay just as you are and not get better.get as far as you can and do whatever it takes to get away from her(ghost her).no contact is the only way to deal with her.look into gaslighting and how a narcissist treats and controls people.if you don’t play the part they have made for you they will destroy your life.a good example would be to drive them insane until they get admitted to a mental hospital.dont get violent just give her the finger while you are running away.

[NerdTunnelerParticipant]

LOL…Its not a problem of religion but red pill rage…Get away from your mother…Simple…Plus, watch some Sandman or Big John videos and a host of other MGTOW channels to learn more…Raging is just going to do you more harm…Learn how to self actualize and not seek validation from other people…

As for religion, there are Christians here with differing opinions but we get along just fine…For me, pray….Not the repetitive prayer but learning how to pray…If its something deeper, get counseling….

Good luck…and stop making excuses for you not living your life…Just my 2 cents and hope you get on the path you need to be….

PS…Try to read The Happiness Trap…it might help you…

I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...

[Secret Agent MGTOWParticipant 22546]

Im a believer and mgtow is biblical. Its the way things ought to be.

Women want everything, but want responsibility and accountability for nothing.

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