Hello, fellow XYs. Long time lurker here. Believe it or not, I’ve actually been hanging out on this website since it’s launch some time ago, but have never posted on the forum before until now, as far as I remember. Been meaning to do it for a while. For a somewhat dated introduction: last April I have posted one on another MGTOW forum: http://www.goingyourownway.com/mgtow-intros/greetings-belgium-1143/
Hi. I’m a 21 year old student from Belgium, and I came across MGTOW because I’m interested in the Japanese birth rate decline and was doing some research. Today, I came across 2 threads on the older forum that particularly caught my attention, called Grass Eaters by Kyojiro Kagenuma. That + reading about the new website launching soon indirectly led me to read up some more about MGTOW and I actually found myself being very compatible with the idea.
I’ve always had a fear, yes, a literal fear of falling in love and shun the idea of marriage, because I feel paranoid about parasitic people and I certainly never want to run the risk of ever getting kids. My mom often says that “love will just happen to me, and I can’t control it once it does”. I don’t think she has any idea how doomed and uncomfortable that makes feel.
I’ve always dreamed of a free lifestyle that is not very close to society, and I’d greatly prefer the qualities of that compared to a bit of sex with some woman any day. To be honest, I always just blamed that on my Asperger’s syndrome, and it never really crossed my mind that there may be an entire movement of people with this very idea out there…
I can’t say I’m inexperienced with parasitic women in my daily life (fortunately, as a close observer, not as a victim).
My sister is a PRIME example. She always behaves very hatefully except towards her boyfriends, has no valuable skills whatsoever except for being hot, she’ll parasite on everything comes across, and in the unlikely event that she does not have it her way, she’ll even steal. Absolutely disgusting; I already pity the poor (well… rich) fool who will fall into the trap of marrying her.
A few years ago, a very close friend of mine got juked by some big titted chick who hypnotized him with some sex, and he was left with a nasty debt. I deeply empathized with him, and I personally helped him out of it…
To be frank: my plan for the future is to avoid women like the plague, and get a well-paid job so I can retire as early as I can to enjoy a calm, relatively free life afterwards. I have a feeling that this is the place to be. So hello everyone.
And now for a little update…
Meanwhile, I’ve finished college very nicely with a magna cum laude thesis, which was incredibly liberating. So liberating that I suppose there was this click in my subconscious. For the first time ever, I have ceased to act unconditionally sweet to my mom, and have started giving her my honest opinion about her, sis, and the family in general. I didn’t even try to come off as offensive in any way and tried to be genuinely constructive. But her reaction? Well, I absolutely don’t feel like telling the whole story again, but it boils down to her becoming extremely irrational, defensive and emotionally manipulative. It felt like a war broke out. She started to bully, scare, shame and poison me constantly.
To give y’all a little example as to get a taste of what I went through: at some point she actually told everyone around me that I became a cult member in Scientology, completely without any foundation, and acted like she was only worried about me. Yeah, you heard that right. She wanted to destroy me socially and mentally, and she was f~~~ing serious about it. This was my biggest wake up call as to the true nature of my mother. Unsurprisingly, after this event I pretty much left my home permanently, and for now, I’m taking shelter at my dad for a couple months (oh man, the evenings we’ve spent on the topic of why he divorced from mom…).
It goes without saying that 2014 has truly been a bats~~~ crazy emotional ride for me, and I see 2015 as a new beginning in my life. I found a very well-paid job and I love it too. I feel like I’m spending my days just doing my favourite thing while waiting for the money faucet to fill up my bank account, while having a good chuckle at my coworkers who are starting to get married and make kids right about now, and taking my daily dose of red pills on Sandman’s channel in the evening. And everything I earn is all MY money. My philosophy is that I exist to enjoy life and explore this beautiful world (I just gotta seek out the right spots…) and not giving a s~~~ about anything else. And I swear by the love of my life that I won’t ever sacrifice my plan on a free and happy future to becoming the consumer good of some c~~~ who’s only concerned with vanity and babies.
I’m glad that I could share this short summary of my story here; thank you for reading it, I appreciate it. Perhaps I will post some more from now on, so I’ll see you around.
Gref 4 years, 9 months ago.
