Hello

[truckercapjimParticipant 13]

Hello all.  I haven’t gone to work since I stumbled upon this website Thursday afternoon. It’s now Tuesday night… Luckily I own my own business.  I’ve basically been reading these forums and watching youtube videos for the last 6 days. I’m sort of in shock.  I’m starting to remember how I felt as a young, strong, free (yet naive) man and I’m starting to think that MAYBE, I just might be able to get that back. Hopefully this time without the naivety.  My story is one of young love and mommy issues. I hope the fact that this all happened in my childhood, or the fact that it is relatively minor compared to some stories I’ve heard doesn’t discredit or invalidate the affect it has truly had on me.

Basically, I “fell in love” with the first girl I slept with when I was 17ish. She cheated on me, but claimed “date rape” or some s~~~ because she was drunk, so I forgave her… after all, I LOVED her!  I thought it sounded fishy, but I was new to this whole life thing. It hurt like hell, but I just kept telling myself it wasn’t her fault and she was the victim. I even went and gave the dude (and one of his friends) a couple black eyes.  A few months later, she ended up at a party with that same dude that “raped” her and when I showed up, she was locked in the bedroom with him for nearly 30 minutes. She tried to say she was too drunk or whatever again, but come on… She put herself in that situation knowing what had “happened” before.  

I couldn’t believe what was happening. I… still can’t. I am still having such a hard time believing that people can be so deceitful.  Most of all I can’t believe I cant just get over it. Bitches, man… bitches.

Oh and I found out when I was about 24 that my older sister actually is only my half sister. My mom cheated on my dad when they were dating, got pregnant, then didn’t tell my dad she had cheated until she convinced him not to use a condom one time and was sure he was going to stick around for the baby (which was my sister). Luckily my Dad is also very forgiving, as they then f~~~ed, and had me a couple years later. The way I found out was because my mom got drunk and let it slip, obviously on purpose. I guess she was bored and there wasn’t enough drama in the air at the time and she had to fix that.

I’m still very confused about everything.  All these things I’ve been learning the last few days have angered me and opened my eyes.  I feel like I just walked out of a movie theater in the middle of a bright summer day. It’s emotion and information overload, and my eyes haven’t quite readjusted.  I’m starting to realize that I didn’t just get the short end of the stick, I just shouldn’t have picked up the stick in the first place.  It’s not that there’s something I could have done differently to prevent it. It’s not because of some shortcoming or flaw in myself, it’s just the nature of women. What a liberating idea.

I’m very skeptical by nature, and no offense, but I’m not looking for a new religion in MGTOW. At this point I just want to continue learning and growing. I’m comforted to know that I’m not the only one who has been dicked over by a woman (or girl) and feel like it’s NOT OKAY, and that I don’t deserve that s~~~, and I dont have to take it.  For the first time I feel justified in my anger. I don’t want to live forever in anger and hatred and rage, but for the first time, my anger feels productive rather than restrictive. I feel like my b~~~~ are slowly growing back. I just want to feel free again. I know a lot of you guys have had your financial, material, and paternal freedom taken from you, but what I really need back is my emotional freedom.

Anyway, that’s my story. Thanks again for all the info and stories and support.

P.S. Just another f~~~ed up anecdote to share.  My best friend growing up, when we were about 7, was sodomized with a broom stick by his mother so that she could claim sexual assault on his father. His dad was arrested and spent about a year in jail before they actually reviewed the evidence and realized it was all bulls~~~. His dad was a good man. A pilot in the air force during the gulf war. Poor guy. They even stayed together after that…. ????

[Soldier-MedicParticipant 2566]

Welcome Truckercapjim.

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

Being skeptical is what brings a lot of men here in the first place.  This is the place where logic, rooted in personal observation and experience is appreciated.  I have to empathize with you

truckercapjim wrote:

I am still having such a hard time believing that people can be so deceitful.

This was a hard thing to accept for me, even when it was going on right in front of me.

I will tell you from recent experience the Red Pill Rage can be overwhelming.  But you will come out the other side with clearer eyes.

But I do suggest that you unplug for a few days and get some perspective.

"I asked you a question. I didn't ask you to repeat what the voices in you head are telling you" ~ Me. ........Yes I'm still angry.

[truckercapjimParticipant 13]

Soldier-Medic wrote:

But I do suggest that you unplug for a few days and get some perspective.

Thank you, Soldier. Just to be clear, do you mean quit watching all the videos and reading all the mgtow stuff for a while?

[Soldier-MedicParticipant 2566]

truckercapjim wrote:

Just to be clear, do you mean quit watching all the videos and reading all the mgtow stuff for a while?

The answer is yes.  Deluging you mind with new ideas, concepts, and facts and are intellectually and emotionally relevant, without rest doesn’t give you time to process.

I did what you have done for over a week and found myself alternating between rage and tears.  Yes tears.  I had to unplug from the computer, except for business only for a bout 2 to 3 weeks.  I used this time to focus on work and process what I have learned so far.

The amazing thing about my experience is that I am a lot less angrier that I was before.

This is what is true for me.  Perhaps not for you.

"I asked you a question. I didn't ask you to repeat what the voices in you head are telling you" ~ Me. ........Yes I'm still angry.

[truckercapjimParticipant 13]

Ok. To be honest, I was planning on doing that starting tomorrow. I got a lot of catching up to do.  I do feel better already. I do see things getting better. Like I said, my anger actually feels productive this time. It’s never quite felt like this before. It feels liberating, like it might actually reach it’s natural conclusion this time.  I’m thankful to have stumbled upon the mgtow community. I’ve got a long way to go, but I think I’ve got my fill for now, and after taking that red pill last week, I think I’m ready to go back into the matrix and give it a go. Wish me luck. See y’all later.

[Anonymous 0]

truckercapjim wrote:

I’m very skeptical by nature, and no offense, but I’m not looking for a new religion in MGTOW. At this point I just want to continue learning and growing. I’m comforted to know that I’m not the only one who has been dicked over by a woman (or girl) and feel like it’s NOT OKAY, and that I don’t deserve that s~~~, and I dont have to take it. For the first time I feel justified in my anger. I don’t want to live forever in anger and hatred and rage, but for the first time, my anger feels productive rather than restrictive. I feel like my b~~~~ are slowly growing back. I just want to feel free again. I know a lot of you guys have had your financial, material, and paternal freedom taken from you, but what I really need back is my emotional freedom.

Welcome, truckercapjim. Great intro!

I agree with what you’re saying. When we’re isolated and alone, a women can take advantage of us, and we tend to assume that *we* were at fault. That is, we assume that we were a little slow on the uptake, we made some bad choices, we should have seen it coming, and we need to try again and get it right next time.

But then you come here and see that it’s actually quite common to get ripped off by women. In fact, the system gives women so many advantages that even for well-meaning women it’s tempting to play that game and cash in at the expense of guys.

It’s kind of liberating to see it in that light. You can move from being paranoid and on the defense around women to picking up some tricks to insulate yourself and even find real freedom.

Again, great intro!

[KeymasterKeymaster]

Really terrific intro @truckercapjim and exactly the kind of process we hoped guys would go through on their own. A little overwhelming to find it I admit, I injected my veins with MGTOW for 3 days straight myself. That was years ago. And like you, it was immensely liberating. A punch to the gut in places though, but you’re the kind we created the place for. Just ONE point will ping a guy’s consciousness and awaken a sleeping giant.

Welcome to MGTOW. Soldier Medic gave an excellent recommendation to go easy and don’t overdose on too many red pills at once.

Make sure it’s GOOD for you and brings you only POSITIVE results.

Happy you found your way. Wishing you every success.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[ILiveAgainParticipant]

This is beautiful. EXACTLY what mgtow is about.

Today is a good day 😊

[22DeeboiParticipant 259]

Welcome brother. You are in a place that will give you answers and will always be here

[RoyDalParticipant]

Welcome! Your experiences with the drunk (yes, that what she is) brings back not-so-fond memories of my blue pill days. I was young and foolish, but, even now, I don’t think I could have spotted their alcoholism in advance. They hid it well at first.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[Anonymous 42]

truckercapjim wrote:

I don’t want to live forever in anger and hatred and rage, but for the first time, my anger feels productive rather than restrictive.

Your friend “sodomized with a broom stick by his mother”: another real “GEM MOM”.

Welcome to MGTOW tucker, Before this community existed I learned going my own way “on my own”. .

Like you, I also scoured the sources of information, but in affirmation, I was shocked and amazed at all the conclusions that others made, they reflected all my opinions like a highly polished surface. I wasn’t just waking up like others, I was wide awake already and amazed there were others.

When I found this forum I started reading night and day, but only after shooting my mouth off within the first 5 minutes of entering.

I found a place where I belong; helping others to avoid the grenades and landmines set by 50+ years of militant feminism.

I offer my hand to any man seeking refuge as the battling feminists rage on……

[BufordParticipant 935]

Just remember that if you stay strong you’ll pass through the anger and cold turkey stages, and eventually you’ll just forget the stink of tuna. Welcome.

"This happens every time one of these floozies starts poontangin' around with those show folk fags. - Sheriff Buford T. Justice"

[Anonymous 42]

Buford wrote:

eventually you’ll just forget the stink of tuna.

Come on Buford, don’t tell him that, It’s not true, he’ll gain appreciation for the fresh air and smell the foul odor of tuna from miles away! Forget the smell? NEVER! That’s like forgetting your name!

[BufordParticipant 935]

Anonymous wrote:

Buford wrote:

eventually you’ll just forget the stink of tuna.

Come on Buford, don’t tell him that, It’s not true, he’ll gain appreciation for the fresh air and smell the foul odor of tuna from miles away! Forget the smell? NEVER! That’s like forgetting your name!

Alright, alright, alright.

You’ll eventually reach a point in your development, where the aroma of fish will not override your common sense and knowledge of the ugliness that exists beyond the flaps. The siren call of tuna will no longer pull you unwittingly onto the rocks.

Better?

"This happens every time one of these floozies starts poontangin' around with those show folk fags. - Sheriff Buford T. Justice"

[Anonymous 42]

@Justice,,,,

Spoken like a real seaman!

 

[FullMetalExoParticipant 2383]

truckercapjim wrote:

At this point I just want to continue learning and growing

And this is exactly why I like this website.

This is not a political/religious group (doesn’t mean we as individuals aren’t) and you sharing your story is exactly what this is all about: support.

Philosophical group maybe, I dunno.

 

As I stated many times before, I see this as a crossroad, campfire, where all men from different roads of life share ideas, support and wisdom, and continue on with the life they make for themselves.

 

Welcome to you and thanks for sharing !

Glad you liked the website, It was the same way for me, I was reading in to it days before joining, non stop and listening to Tom Leykis while washing dishes haha

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[OasidParticipant 116]

Welcome man. Find comfort here.

May the Force Be With You

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