Hacking myself out of the matrix, step by step

[Anonymous 3]

Hello everyone, I’m glad to join this forum, let me introduce my story that lead me to MGTOW.

Initially, the real “me” did not exist at all, there was only a human body programmed full with typical blue and other stupid and useless stuff. You know, in almost every fairy-tale that is being told one in the childhood, and almost every song on the radio and in the typical mainstream media, there are happy relationships (“…lived happily ever after” and so on), and that is what gets internalized by a young boy, who does not know anything about the world, because he was just born. Besides that, I was raised as a religious person, and i was polite and kind and could not say “no”, and I learned most of the innecessary bulls~~~ on all classes in hope they get me better at work in future. And to make things worse, my parents were 2 different sort of psychos and were fighting on everything. My father was physically violent to my mother and I, and absolutely ignored and refused me, my mother was an emotional blackmailer but at least raised me up somehow. (Talking in past tense, since finally they divorced some years ago, and do not annoy each other and me anymore, and, also, my mother began to behave in a more calm way. I don’t wish my childhood to my worst enemy…)

Everything went on like this for my highschool years, when a “bad” girl sat next to me at the beginning of a year. It was sort of a butterfly effect from chaos theory, a little event, that changed everything. She made me start to question everything while we were drinking some beers in our top secret hideout place under a bridge, and having fun.(I looked older, and no one cared here for drinking age of 18 years here, back then.) No it was not love, just a friendship, at the start, but it helped me to keep me alive while the situation at home was as I described above. I began to question my religion, cheat at every exam that was not chemistry,biology, physics or mathematics. I even won some student competitions in some of these. And began to realize, that I should only believe in experimental evidence instead of pray, which later made me a scientist. I realized, that I will only need those subjects, and be very good at them. Then on a parent-teacher association my mother got told that this girl has a “bad effect” on me, and I got scolded very much. Since I enjoyed the friendship, we continued it in even more secret. So I really became even more disobedient toward parental will. This totally secret friendship then got some little benefits (but no actual f*cking, i thought that sex needs a more serios relationship thing, stupid me…), and it lasted for some years, and then the girl began to be emotionally unstable and annoyed the s~~~ out of me, so I broke up.

In my university years, I did not succeed to get any useful relationship with gilrs, since I am an introvert and I do not like to party, when I went to party, I just got bored and sat in the corner with my beer, the whole thing is not my style. So I joined a laboratory for student work, and I started to learn new and finally really useful stuff and I enjoyed every moment.

Due to not getting any female touches for a long time, despite the smart and hot wannabe scientist girls in class, I began to feel really lonely at the last year. And I felt bad, because I could not fulfill my fantasy of getting a scientist girl and making some big invention together.(Actually there were some girls with a little better grades than me, I was only able to respect them from the distance, but was not able to at least get some cuddles or friendship or anything more.) Remembering what I unofficially learned in highschool, I knew, that I have to question things again. This time, the things I thought on picking up a girlfriend, and still thinking, that somehow that will finally make me happy. So I googled it up, and found some PUA stuff. Most of it just did not make sense to me, but I went to some parties again to try something. Big noise, crowd, room full of cigarette smoke, broken glasses on floor (and all over the bike roads of the city),and being there alone, it was still not my style. (Even if there are not too much feminazis in my city, most of girs just ignore guys like me and do not typially call the police over a failed try of getting to know a girl.)

Then I registered some dating sites, and went up to a public chatroom site. I got a bunch of useless dates, and finally picked up a girl, and the same way, after many years and some girls, in 2011 I picked up my ex girlfriend the same way. (I think my statistics were 100 useless messages per getting a date, and I needed to date at least 10 girls for picking up one. It was damn time-consuming, but at least i got laid some times 🙂

Actually, side effects of PUA stuff were more useful, I became more productive and somewhat better at communication, due to some self-help stuff among those books and articles. Maybe, not being a virgin anymore also helped with my self confidence. (I got rid of virginity by the help of a hooker & condom at the age of 23, because I could’t stand that shame anymore, I’m not proud of it,but it happened so. And I did not enjoy that. Nor did I like the tatooed guy opening the door on another occassion, wtf, did i just dial the local mafia, be happy for the big tear gas pepper spray in my pocket and my self defence training, but that girl was a lot more talented 🙂 (Pay for sex is somewhat legal here, but illegal to advertise.) The actual girlfriends, mentioned above, came just later, after the confidence boost.)

So, after all, I had my ex girl for more than 3 years. Lots of good sex in the first some months. Friends with benefits relationship. We liked it and we became dependent on it. yep, she did too:-) Then, as time passed, sex became less frequent, as after a full hard day at work I just had motivation to cuddle and sleep and do nothing, and I liked more to have sex in the morning, but she always needed to go to work for 8 am. And she did not take the initiative so often. Besides that, we did not have too much common topics to talk about, she was not a scientist, and most of our time spent together was watching some stupid emotional movies, while I prefer sci-fi & action & fun. ( And doing all of these on my big fat dual xeon computer targeted for big physics measurement evaluation, bought part-by-part over a year, for learning and hobby calculations, what a waste of resources for not having much time for that then….)

So, the relations~~~ became less and less happy, more and more boring and stressful, and reached a point, when I appreciated more the nights she didn’t sleep at my place. Relationship just did not feel like it supposed to be, I mean it made a lot more stress than fun. During this relations~~~ I totally lost my freetime, did get less and less sex, just stress, no progress in any of my hobbies, sometimes I was stressed out at work due to my relations~~~. (In the mainstream media, typically people are stressed from work and that ruins relationships, at me it was quite the opposite. I like my work. I only stress when coffee machine or something else very simple but crucial thing doesn’t work.) I mean, I am a scientist and that needs my whole attention and sometimes part of my free time. I cannot deal with a bitch who is jealous and crazy over any inappropriate word or act of mine, like not noticing her dress, hairstyle, whatever. And even worse,as time passed she started asking when will I marry her and what will be the name of our child.

So, in the end of 2014 I needed to broke up, to save my own life from being taken over by things that are not even in my list of life goals (like children and marriage and a useless boring lifestyle with a heart attack at age 40.)

And I realized, that it’s likely to run into the same problems with any girl, because the root causes of those problems are in my personality, because I really don’t want those things, and need free time. Later on, I figured out the “MGTOW” keyword, and learned and laughed a lot. I think I googled something like “reality about relationships” or something like that, because I started to question relationships. and then run into a link “banned books about women” that contained Ester Villar’s Manipulated Man, and some other stuff that had the MGTOW keyword.

Reading topics on the forum, it totally shocked me, how insane the women can be, and how extremist feminism is integrated to the laws of some countries, and how well women use those laws against men.

About my first year of going my way, this far I defended my Phd, built a Downhill bike, and have been hired to a job that pays 2 times as much, but needs whole attention and to get stuff done, not 9-17 job when you go home in time. I can and like to do it, no b*tch waiting for me, or being jealous over my overtime or abroad travels to foreign labs. When the winter has passed, I thing i will even have some more time to do longer rides on bike and get more fit and shoot new photos for computer wallpaper. (downloading wallpaper is too mainstream.)

Thank you for reading, and happy to talk to any of you: Peter.

[RoyDalParticipant]

Welcome, and I’m looking forward to reading your story.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[Anonymous 3]

Hello,I finally managed to add my story. (My internet connection seems to dislike me sometimes… )

[NerevarParticipant 8040]

Welcome, brother!

"One of the best things internet exposed is just how insane women are." - Freeman_K

[Anonymous 3]

Thank you! 🙂
Yes I do use a sort os fleshlight. It is good, but to be honest, but fapping does not give me the emotions i felt back in my blue ages cuddling a girl. I know that they are very dangerous now, and what they did to you and me, and I need to go my way for safety and for life goals. But sometimes i feel emptiness and depression, lack motivation, so feel s~~~ty. I need some emotional push forward, sometimes I imagine the cute girl on porn to be my lover who i can trust. but this is not always enough. And, beer does not help at all, just makes me more sleepy and I wake up early with hangover and sleepy all day.

I wonder if you have solved this thing? How you keep your emotions under control?

[AttonParticipant]

I wonder if you have solved this thing? How you keep your emotions under control?

If you focus on fun little projects like a HHO generator, it does saturate your mind and shift your focus greatly.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[Anonymous 3]

Atton wrote:

If you focus on fun little projects like a HHO generator, it does saturate your mind and shift your focus greatly.

Yes, I have experienced this things, and I do some little projects (or small steps of bigger projects) and it feels good. But sometimes I just want to be even more happy, in a legal way of course 🙂

[Anonymous 3]

For the emotions of – I think – many of us, I hope there are some Mgtows into robotics and sooner or later an open-source robotic life partner gets created.

I mean, mankind has robots, which can assemble cars and other complicated stuff, travel on the surface of Mars with no direct real time human control, and there is machine vision, voice recognition, carbon fiber (for bones of the robot), fleshlight, 3D printers and CNC, and there are teraflops of computing power in a typical gaming computer. It might be possible to create this in the next decades. Did anyone think of this, or I have been tinkering and tweaking too much stuff?

[OracleSummonParticipant 179]

Welcome to MGTOW my good man. Enjoy your stay and remember, life is always a journey.

May good fortune shine upon you during your life.

[GargamelSpectator 29101]

Hello,

welcome,

I can relate to your life story word by word.

Let us be your guiding light from now on.

Anonymous wrote:

For the emotions of – I think – many of us, I hope there are some Mgtows into robotics and sooner or later an open-source robotic life partner gets created.

I mean, mankind has robots, which can assemble cars and other complicated stuff, travel on the surface of Mars with no direct real time human control, and there is machine vision, voice recognition, carbon fiber (for bones of the robot), fleshlight, 3D printers and CNC, and there are teraflops of computing power in a typical gaming computer. It might be possible to create this in the next decades. Did anyone think of this, or I have been tinkering and tweaking too much stuff?

Funny thoght. I know for sure that this is going to be done. And then you can code your own software for these machines. And buy special drivers for the “reproductive module”

I’d like to see women’s faces when they see something like that behind a shop window…

Then they will stand there and say “Oh, take me, I’m cheaper and I won’t cause any trouble…”

Reply: “No, you smell like your cat…”

In July of 2018, this honey pot forum was sold out to an unidentified NPC sock puppet and troll organization. Most independent thinkers and writers migrated to other MGTOW forums as a result of the never-ending infighting and deliberate trouble starting caused by members who were given "carte blanche" by the admin to do whatever they want. Before my departure, I only left a few thousand cat pics here to comfort and ridicule the feminist owners who now run this place. Their background agenda is to make MGTOW look like a club of losers the public eye. And during the course of 2019, they actually managed to destroy almost all other MGTOW venues as well. Here is the truth about "theindependentman.org" aka "TIM" which was created as an extended workbench to further divide the community. When you register, they install a spyware Zombie cookie on your browser that does all kinds of things the user does not know of: http://www.filedropper.com/essay-on-the-removal-of-malware-cookies-used-by-tim

[Anonymous 3]

Gargamel wrote:

Funny thoght. I know for sure that this is going to be done.

Just saw your answer. It has been done here, the robot is almost life-like:
http://www.3ders.org/articles/20160401-man-builds-3d-printed-life-sized-robot-that-looks-just-like-scarlett-johansson.html

Update to my intro:
-I really did longer rides on my downhill bike and made a lot of good photos.
-I have been sent out by my employer company to be a guest worker in Jena (Germany) at a contracting company, it is beautiful to see German Precision a work, and I bought a GoPro Hero 4 Black, and I had borrowed a colleague’s trekking bike there, it was funny to downhill at 10% slopes and go as fast as the cars go, and being lucky to not receive a speeding fine on a bicycle… (but that would have been bad ass in a certain way, not much people have been speeding by bicycle)
and I also made a lot of photos and good bike rides there in the mountains, good landscape. Sometimes rock wall on the right, deep at the left, less than a meter width of the trail, an adrenaline rush.

[GargamelSpectator 29101]

Anonymous wrote:

Just saw your answer. It has been done here, the robot is almost life-like:
http://www.3ders.org/articles/20160401-man-builds-3d-printed-life-sized-robot-that-looks-just-like-scarlett-johansson.html

Great, I want one. But not for f~~~ing. There are more important things to do with it. And things that are much more fun than sex. I know a few people that could use a little fun…

Wait until this thing works like the robots in the 1973 movie “Westworld”…

Then I buy one. I don’t want one that talks…

In July of 2018, this honey pot forum was sold out to an unidentified NPC sock puppet and troll organization. Most independent thinkers and writers migrated to other MGTOW forums as a result of the never-ending infighting and deliberate trouble starting caused by members who were given "carte blanche" by the admin to do whatever they want. Before my departure, I only left a few thousand cat pics here to comfort and ridicule the feminist owners who now run this place. Their background agenda is to make MGTOW look like a club of losers the public eye. And during the course of 2019, they actually managed to destroy almost all other MGTOW venues as well. Here is the truth about "theindependentman.org" aka "TIM" which was created as an extended workbench to further divide the community. When you register, they install a spyware Zombie cookie on your browser that does all kinds of things the user does not know of: http://www.filedropper.com/essay-on-the-removal-of-malware-cookies-used-by-tim

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