Hello gentleman,
I just wanted to say how nice it is to be here amongst friends. I have been a long time lurker on many of the MGTOW outlets for the past few years. But, sadly for me, I have made some mistakes along the way. I hope others (lurkers and youngsters) can learn from my failures and past mistakes.
I always considered myself an outcast in my late teens and early adulthood. Outcast in the sense that I felt I saw the world differently then my friends and family. I felt the system was very rigged, and their was a lot of subversive garbage going on throughout American (western) culture. I became a minimalist fairly early on in my life. I focused on saving and investing, as well as my own personal hobbies as much as I could.
As much as I was onto the society’s bulls~~~, and building my own monetary independence, I missed a huge component to a truly free life. That is my dealing with woman have harmed me dearly.
A quick background about my youth. My mother nagged and berated my father day in and day out. He was the sole breadwinner in my family. He worked his ass off to raise 3 kids. My dad (and us kids) also did the majority of the domestic chores as well. My mother basically did nothing but threaten my dad with divorce constantly. It was a very unhealthy dynamic that effected me much more than I realized (until I was older and started failing with woman).
I am not sure how much detail I should go into. I am 35 years old now and (flings and dating aside) I have been in 4 LTR’s including my currant.
My high school romance/ girlfriend lasted 2 years. And I don’t really want to say anything bad about her, but she caused me a great deal of stress. We had a pregnancy scare early in our relationship. After that I didn’t want to have sex with her anymore, but it still happened. Then she would do crazy s~~~ like tell me she had an abortion behind my back. Whenever we’d fight she’d call my house in the middle of the night and hangup. She would call me at times and tell me should popped slipping pills. Of course when I wanted to end the relationship she threatened suicide frequently. I was no saint at that time of my life. I would probably be considered a a Chad then. So, I am sure I caused her a lot of stress and pain and I feel a great deal of guilt if I did. 17 year olds can’t truly handle sexual relationships imho. So my first warning to you lads is don’t bother with women, even at a young age. It is still very dangerous and has long-term repercussions.
My 2nd relationship eventually became my first wife. We dated through graduate school, but eventually broke up because I had relocate for work. Well, fate :/ brought us back together and we wound up marrying and she left me for another man within the first year of marriage. I was devastated, ashamed, embarrassed, whatever other negative emotion you want to throw in there. I kept the secret from my family because of the shame. It started effecting my health and I became very sick through the divorce process.
3rd relationship was in that breakup period with #2. This is the girl who turned me into a beta. She was very gorgeous and I was lonely living in a new city. I fell head-over-heals for this girl. She talked about marriage early on (never been married at this point) and I was all in favor. She was finishing up nursing school and we were going to get married afterwards. I noticed though she was testing to see my reactions to s~~~, like how I would feel about her not working after we got married. All the basic s~~~ tests I got, which I failed (thankfully). So after about a year, I noticed her behavior changing drastically. I started catching her in lies and whaddya know? You guessed it, another dude. One who she perceived his wallet might be larger. I kinda knew this dude too, and he was a total pussy. They got married shortly after. Karma I guess… Well instead of thanking God for helping me dodge that bullet. I got depressed and that’s when I moved back and eventually reconnected with #2. See I was a blue pill simp and I measured my worth by how much validation I got from women, even though I was kicking ass in all other aspects of my life. Learn from me young men. I f~~~ed up, you don’t have to. I almost died during my divorce. How does that sound to you youngsters? You think that can’t happen to you? Forget about it! Friends its not worth it!
There is more to my life and my womenz problems. I don’t have time for #4, but this is my intro for now. I hope somebody is reading this and is learning. Thanks for reading.
MGTOWmonkey aka No More Fucks To Give 3 years, 4 months ago.
