Fragments of my life

[DarkFictionParticipant 71]

I like introducing myself to new communities, but this time around I’m feeling less than excited about it, because I should delve straight into uncomfortable topics. So, hi, I’m new around here.

I’m married and everything is fine, as long as I provide her with everything that she wants. And as long as I give her what she wants there’s no drama. At times I feel like a really well-trained house servant with a job of my own. Everything is fine without any great expectations one way or another. It is when I try to have any sort of meaningful life with her that I’m left wanting. And it’s not just because I’m tired of my marriage. I’m starting to be tired of women in general. It’s not just the lack of meaning in my life for a romantic companion, but more so women who have filled my life with negativity and just endless complaining. About problems that I have encountered, resolved and moved on from.

It’s so curious how my mind functions like a highly efficient troubleshooting engine that thrives through adversity. Up to a point I cherish challenges, because they provide me with opportunities to grow and thrive where others see only deadends and problems.

So, this is the sort of person I have grown to be. I have learned a lot of things from all sorts of people and I have tendency to speak directly on a lot of different topics based on knowledge and knowhow that’s quite diverse. The current issues that I’m experiencing is that I’m getting really tired of listening to other people talking about the same old things that I have not only resolved but also provided a solution to. Only to have the same old problems reiterated without any obvious attempt to even try to resolve the issue at hand.

I don’t mind working with women, because there the rules are enforced not only by contracts, but by laws and regulations that (in some instances) have yet to be completely corrupted by female-centric politics. There are still plenty of opportunities to work in IT and administration where the rules haven’t been rewritten to enforce an impossible and unhealthy work environment.

At the same time I’m seriously considering moving abroad. I’m sitting here in Finland and watching Sweden going down in flames. Watching an entire nation tearing itself apart, because too many people are afraid to speak their minds and too many people believe in a fantasy that’s crumbling all around them.

I’m of a mind to just move to another country, get divorced and concentrate on work & hobbies. I’m involved with a couple of associations that keep me busy for as long as I want. The combined knowledge of business administration, law and software programming is highly desirable. I would be perfectly fine on my own, because that’s part of the truth that I’m currently starting to comes to terms with. I would be perfectly fine without a romantic relationship or female friends.

In working with and interacting with a lot of different kinds of women I have come to understand that they are different from me. They need the social structures and bonds of long-term romantic companionship much more so than I do. Not because they live in a different reality, but because they are biologically engineered differently. To seek meaning in different things, or to suffer when trying to do otherwise.

And I’m so very tired of women trying to be men. It doesn’t work more than a little while until everyone around starts to feel ill.

[It’sallbsParticipant]

DarkFiction wrote:

I’m married and everything is fine, as long as I provide her with everything that she wants. And as long as I give her what she wants there’s no drama.

AWALT.

http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

[DarkFictionParticipant 71]

It’sallbs wrote:

AWALT.

I learned something new: AWALT/NAWALT

Well that alone was worth writing all of that.

I think that I’m going to like it here.

[BlacqueJacqueShellacqueParticipant 6890]

DarkFiction wrote:

I’m married and everything is fine, as long as I provide her with everything that she wants.

Nelson “HA HA!”

Just kidding buddy, welcome to the forums.

[VirgilParticipant 970]

Welcome to the forums DarkFiction.

Think you are on the right track till talking about romance in one of the last paragraphs. It has not been my experience that women want romance, they want a wallet. And for them romance or the idea of it, is a means to an end. That end is getting what they want without having to give anything back. The example of this would be, how many times have you heard of a couple going out for a guys birthday, where he has to pay for everything. She uses his day to get something for herself. Know that isn’t the best but is the easiest to explain.

Will agree that women tend to be more group oriented whereas men can thrive on their own. This dependence is a side effect of the hive and their constant drive to be accepted by it.

Broke a quote and had to edit.

Hope that someday I may lead others the path I have learned. As Virgil led Dante through Hell.

[Solo MAN’S WisdomParticipant]

Welcome, Dark Fiction. You’re dead-nuts-on-point about Sweden. Pleasure to have you on board. SW.

When women lead, destruction is the destination. -- Me.

[Anonymous 42]

DarkFiction wrote:

And I’m so very tired of women trying to be men. It doesn’t work more than a little while until everyone around starts to feel ill.

^^^^AWALT. I live in a world without women, they’re lifeless objects to me, that’s how foreign they really are, they’re from some other solar system, they don’t jive with anything in life that has any rhythm, just a constant tripping effect on anything productive.

Trouble finding intellectual challenge?

Welcome to the deep end of the pool.

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

DarkFiction wrote:

So, this is the sort of person I have grown to be. I have learned a lot of things from all sorts of people and I have tendency to speak directly on a lot of different topics based on knowledge and knowhow that’s quite diverse. The current issues that I’m experiencing is that I’m getting really tired of listening to other people talking about the same old things that I have not only resolved but also provided a solution to. Only to have the same old problems reiterated without any obvious attempt to even try to resolve the issue at hand.

Sound like the definition of insanity. Doing the same exact thing expecting a different outcome. Either way, I’m glad you found your way here.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[DarkFictionParticipant 71]

Virgil wrote:

Think you are on the right track till talking about romance in one of the last paragraphs. It has not been my experience that women want romance, they want a wallet. And for them romance or the idea of it, is a means to an end. That end is getting what they want without having to give anything back. The example of this would be, how many times have you heard of a couple going out for a guys birthday, where he has to pay for everything. She uses his day to get something for herself. Know that isn’t the best but is the easiest to explain.

That’s a really strong statement with a supposition of selfish, narcissistic, malicious intent.

I have a hard time believing that there are a lot of people like this in the world. During my nearly fourty years on this earth I have personally experienced one person like this, but she was spectacularly messed up in the head and dysfunctional on top of that. Not being able to hold onto a boyfriend for more than three months at a time and very bad at relationships in general.

Intent matters to me, which is why I’m willing to give the benefit of the doubt to most people. It’s just that I’m starting to see way too many people who are not willing to think for themselves or to work to better themselves. Beyond what they consider their own desires. And I understand that just fine, but playing nice with others is also a basic survival instinct. Purely selfish and manipulative actions are counter-productive. Not to mention that they are easy to identify once you have experienced them personally.

[TaxGuyParticipant]

DarkFiction wrote:

I have a hard time believing that there are a lot of people like this in the world. During my nearly fourty years on this earth I have personally experienced one person like this, but she was spectacularly messed up in the head and dysfunctional on top of that. Not being able to hold onto a boyfriend for more than three months at a time and very bad at relationships in general.

Welcome. Here’s the thing: We’ve ALL experienced at least one if not multiple people like that. So, there are WAY more of them out there than you think. That’s the eye opener of being a member here, you realize that you aren’t alone and you aren’t crazy.

To be fair, there are a lot of crappy guys out there as well. But, as I like to say, I’m not gay so I don’t care. I care about how women act because I’m attracted to women.

DarkFiction wrote:

Intent matters to me, which is why I’m willing to give the benefit of the doubt to most people.

I used to be like that too. I’m not so much any more. That doesn’t mean that I’m not nice to people or treat them with respect, but I don’t TRUST them until I really get to know them.

Anyway, again welcome. I look forward to hearing more from you.

Order the good wine

[Anonymous 1]

Welcome. Are there any children?

I’m gay. But for the longest time I detest the idea of relationship (straight or otherwise) based on what I’ve seen around me: why are people so eager to have it? Any reason they’ve given me never convinced me and I thought I was crazy.

Turned out I’m not crazy and I’m not alone. It’s the world that’s going crazy and our sane mind refuse to give in. Being a man means easier for us to sift through the bulls~~~ and question what matters most.

So, enjoy your stay here. Read through our archives, and be free. It’s gonna be better after this. We’ll become more focused and productive in our own lives.

[VirgilParticipant 970]

What I said may sound cold. But there is truth in it.

Think through your life experiences. May be more based in reality than you want to admit.

May take an objective view of your interactions. But look at it as “what are they getting and what does it cost you?” I doubt it will be a two way street of give and take. You said as much in your intro, when you talked about your marriage. Seems like you gave a lot and she just took. Small sample size but gather those stories from hundreds/thousands of other men and it becomes AWALT. Until sites like this we all though it was isolated incidents, when in reality we were fleeced for so long it was becoming the norm.

This is the downside of seeing the world as it is. You also see people for what they are.

Hope that someday I may lead others the path I have learned. As Virgil led Dante through Hell.

[AttonParticipant]

I’m married and everything is fine, as long as I provide her with everything that she wants.

I’m of a mind to just move to another country, get divorced and concentrate on work & hobbies.

Good way to avoid paying anything afterward as well pretty smart.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

DarkFiction wrote:

I’m married and everything is fine, as long as I provide her with everything that she wants.

Sadly the “wants” never end. Good luck getting out of there with anything you own.

Thanks for the good read.

Welcome Brother.

[Anonymous 12]

This, my friend, THIS

I’m of a mind to just move to another country, get divorced and concentrate on work & hobbies.

This is the only sentence in your entire introduction about what you want for yourself.
This, so far, is the only outlook you provide, the rest reads painfully like you are stuck in the snow.

Today is not the time for this, nor is tomorrow.
But Build this idea: How do you want to live?

You are still married, so cannot really Go your own way because she might threaten to destroy you in a divorce struggle.

But i think that the words
I’m of a mind to

Are like a periscope that peaks through the sea… a chance to look yourself, the first step at redefining who you are, what you want to do in life and how you want to live it.

I invite you to stay, be shocked at the language you find here, and the realization that while some of it seems too ruff… it has a solid foundation of men´s Experience.

Take a seat, strap in and enjoy the ride down the Rabbithole.

[DarkFictionParticipant 71]

Anonymous wrote:

Welcome. Are there any children?

No children. My wife hates children, and I don’t have any strong inclination to have children.

Virgil wrote:

What I said may sound cold. But there is truth in it.

That’s perfectly fine with me. I like alternative viewpoints.

Virgil wrote:

May take an objective view of your interactions. But look at it as “what are they getting and what does it cost you?” I doubt it will be a two way street of give and take. You said as much in your intro, when you talked about your marriage. Seems like you gave a lot and she just took. Small sample size but gather those stories from hundreds/thousands of other men and it becomes AWALT. Until sites like this we all though it was isolated incidents, when in reality we were fleeced for so long it was becoming the norm.

It is in my nature to be supportive and loving. The difference is that I have started shifting from “I love you, therefore I am worth loving and having around” to “I love myself, therefore my self-worth is not defined by others”. It’s an on-going process, and through doing this I’m recognizing that there were a lot of people around me who were there just because I was overly giving. I cut down on people who were either toxic to me or just sucking entertainment/happiness out of me.

I know that if it wasn’t for me, my wife wouldn’t have the job that she has now. I know without me she wouldn’t have the kind of good life that she has now. I know that for many, many years she was depending on me making this whole relationship work. Now that I’m shifting towards disinterest she is reacting negatively. Nightmares about me leaving and other less than pleasant behavior.

I do understand what you mean about listening to other people and finding the plethora of similar stories in this community. As a skilled storyteller I’m always curious about the stories that other people have. And truths that they speak through their stories.

[DarkFictionParticipant 71]

Anonymous wrote:

But Build this idea: How do you want to live?

What do I really want? I want to read occult literature written over the course of thousands of years. I want to write supernatural horror novels with highly detailed or rich historical backgrounds. I want to build new communities and enrich those that I’m already part of. I want to expand my international network of friends and acquintances even more than before.

Most of all I want to live wherever I want and work with whoever I want.

[Anonymous 0]

Welcome home, Dark Fiction
Beer’s in the fridge

[MenckenParticipant 693]

DarkFiction wrote:

g-mow wrote:

But Build this idea: How do you want to live?

Most of all I want to live wherever I want and work with whoever I want.

You may want to check out Doug Casey – International Man.
http://www.internationalman.com/

The world is ever changing and Doug recommends living where its best at the time. According to the econonmic index of freedom, the US is falling consistently as the state grows larger. Live where you can find the most liberty.

Misogynist - A man who hates women as much as women hate one another.

[TicParticipant 4329]

Well, you can come here to USA. Vast amount of natural beauty, and you can still find pockets of society that hold onto the old ways of living.

We also have the 2nd amendment, giving us the right to own guns. That alone is worth it.

God bless peace and freedom.

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