Finally going full red pill

[Anonymous 0]

Greetings gentlemen,

It’s with great pleasure that I come saying that I am now going full red pill, my girlfriend and I have broken it off tonight. While it kills me a s~~~ ton inside, because I loved her unconditionally, looking past her countless faults, I still know it was the right thing to do.

Let’s start from the beginning. When I first met her I was 23 years old, still had never been in a relationship before. I did really want a relationship but not enough to chase women or pretend to be someone I was not. My entire life I was more of a lonner, extremely introverted, socially awkward, never fit into any niche in school. I didn’t even lose my virginity until I was 19 and only then because i joined the Army and made the mistake of admitting I was still a virgin. It really didn’t bother me but huys in my platoon ended up hiring an escort for me, so yeah that’s how I long my virginity, and still honestly, i actually wish I still was a virgin, sex to me just isn’t that important, and lo and behold that is reason number 1 with issues with my girlfriend.

My girlfriend when we first started dating was 19 and had slept with 24 people, 2 of them being female. Me being very naiev and giving people the benefit of the doubt at the time looked past that, maybe she could change i told myself. Also an kmportant fact is I am deeply spiritual and a Bible believer, I am not hoing to delve into that as that is not the topic but it is important as to why she revealed her issues with me over a year after we started dating.

So we met through work, I worked as a server while she was a hostess. She was showing interest in me and I was completely oblivious as i was desperate and chasing after a single mom who was 10 years older, looking back my girlfriend actually saved me in that case. But she ended up facebook messaging me and straight up telling me that she liked me and I got overjoyed that finally someone actually liked me. We started dating, we didn’t sleep together for about 2 weeks but then we took off, i slept at her mom’s apartment almost every night, went on dates, lots and lots of sex. It was great. I did quickly say i loved her before even a month passed, and i really did.

I told her everything i wanted out of life. I wanted to go off the grid, be self sufficient, have lot’s of kids, just like an old school life. And she played along like she wanted that, she said she believed in traditional gender roles and hated feminism and modern liberals, she was anarcho-capitalist, etc. She was perfect! How did I get so lucky.

Well things went on for 6 months, until her mom kicked her out. Now’s where I explain her issues with her mom, she despises her mom. Granted i understand why, lying and manipulative, even stealing my girlfriend’s adderall. But i didn’t notice the red flags at how serious it was, like over time she reveals how suicidal she is and will say she wants to go back to cutting herself and it all stems from hatred for her mom.

And then there’s her daddy issues. She gets along with her dad now but he wasnt always there for her, now she has a thing for men in their 40’s and 50’s who are married and have kids. She also told me at one point i should shave my head and trim my beard to a goatee (same exact style as her dad).

So after her mom kicks her out we rent an apartment together (i was still living with my parents at the time working on getting debt free) and things are ok, we feel like we’re building a life together. But over the coming months she starts complaining about everything, work, school, our sex life. Granted our sex was the same since we started dating but apparenrly it always sucked which meant she faked it and couldnt just be honest about it. We mixed it up a bit, learned she likes to be choked, granted before her i was only with literally a couple women sexually yet she lacks any patience whatsoever to tell me how to improve. She would go months at a time pretending that it was better but then randomly come home crying because she apparently hasn’t orgasmed since we started dating. So i would always tell her “then stop faking it”. But did she stop? Nope? She wanted me to eat her out. I never did that before but i did it because i was a gutless simp that didn’t know better.

And since then i have only done it twice. Her pussy smells like a mixture of tuna and sweaty s~~~. And yet she’s angered that i wouldn’t “want” to eat her out. Im not “masculine” enough.i didn’t realize being a real men meant eating out a pussy. I thought it meant being a conscious human being that made rational decisions, ironic looking back. Also she gained about 100 lbs since i started dating her when she was already 50 lbs overweight. I did gain almost 90lbs too, but i was in the best shape of my life when we first started dating; eating clean, gym 6 times a week.

So going on for almost a years things kept going on like that. She would also complain about me liking to stay up late, i’ve always been a night owl, she hated that and would argue with me all the time about it. It’s the reason apparently that we lost intimacy. Just slowly over this time you could see the feminist views in her creep out, and her emotional outbursts even tho she claimed to be very rational, admittedly she could be rational compared to even some men I will give her that. She also lacked empathy or any sense of being supportive, yet if she was sad I had to drop everything to console her, and yet still she just claimed I did nothing when she was sad, which was all the god damn time because she hates herself. No matter how much advice I gave her to have a better outlook she would ignore that and go back to watching her reality tv or cuddling her cat, the only thing in life she cares about, very fitting that this cat hates everything.

Despite all these faults I still loved her. I took her on a cruise to bermuda and had a blast. Now it was ladt Summer and i began working full time again as it was summer and i wanted to secure a VA homeloan to get a house that my brother-in-law’s mother was selling for the exact amount I got pre-approved for. I was also taking a summer clasd after work so mon-fri i basically wasn’t home. Everything works out with the loan and i get approved, we start packing up the apartment. She ended up getting a new phone and she left her old one in my office one day when she was at work. I went on it to look at old pictures of the cruise (she always looked through my phone so i wasnt sttempting to snoop) but as i went through the gallery i see numerous screenshots from weeks prior about how she met up eith a couple of her former f~~~ buddies and blew them. This p~~~ed me off and hurt me so bad when i found out. It’s like my life force was sucked out. And i find all this out one week before moving into my first f~~~ing hpuse with the woman i loved unconditionally.

I have a way of dealing with things internally so i never mentioned it to her, i cared more about getting this house and she was going to be paying her share so i rationalized it as she is my roommate. Because of the new revelation i agreed to open the relationship up because she wanted that for a while and i saw it as a way to get her off my back and stop her nagging and i could smoke weed or whatever the f~~~ i wanted. But of course the nagging foesn’t stop.. infact it gets progressively worse over the past few months. The little slut has like 6 45 year old men waiting on hand and knee for her (shes only even touched one of them, the rest are in wait). Infact she broke up with 3 others because they wete too nice to her LOL.

She has continued to become more and more of a depraved whore wanting anal and liking when men lick her ass (WHAT THE F~~~!?) So things have drifted between us. We had another huge fight earlier and i didn’t budge, she blamed me for lack of intimacy, not making her orgasm, not eating her out, etc. I rebutted with facts about her cheating on me, she then said she did it before that tkme as well and I should have been honest because she could tell i had different feelings for her but she didn’t know i knew.

So i asked why is matters if you knew i knew, you shouldn’t be cheating PERIOD. then she went on a tangent against me, apparently it’s all my fault. Yeah I’m sorry for loving you unvonditionally and looking past your numerous faults. She was also mad that i didn’t beg and fight for us to stick it oit, apparently that’s what “real men” do..

Anyways that’s my story. I know it’s really long but I had to get it out. I’ve been purple pilled since learning of her cheating on me last August and now im taking this chance to ho all out red pill. Luckily i maintain my “loner” personality as i enjoy my own company the best, and i’ve also grown to see sex as nothing but a distraction that i really wish didn’t exist. Even after all this tho i still love her, but i cant go back, she has to reap what she sowed. Anyway, im glad to be a part of this group! Thanks!

[bladeParticipant]

Welcome to the club bro

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[Anonymous 0]

Thank you! Also to note we were together 2.5 years. December 2015 – today.

[BigDParticipant 3024]

Welcome.

Don't stick your dick into anyone you aren't willing to put up with for eighteen years and nine months.

[Lone Wolf83Participant 825]

Welcome to the fold, be grateful that you learned at a young age and have the rest of your life to enjoy.

If it has tits or tires, you know you're going to have problems.

[AttonParticipant]

You can finally embraced the darkside of the force, the green grass is always better.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[FunInTheSunParticipant 8283]

You kicked her out of the house, right?

"I saw that there comes a point, in the defeat of any man of virtue, when his own consent is needed for evil to win-and that no manner of injury done to him by others can succeed if he chooses to withhold his consent. I saw that I could put an end to your outrages by pronouncing a single word in my mind. I pronounced it. The word was ‘No.’" (Atlas Shrugged)

[iMickey503Participant 12465]

Funny how women are. They always chase us. And then we call ourselves lucky when they want us.

I wish at 23, I had listened to my buddies, and the people around me. I saw signs right away things were not right, but I loved her so much. I thought it would get better.

Little did I know she was banging other people at the time. You know, I thought I found love, but what I found was a family of horrors.

Women are never going to change man. They are all like that. The very small percentage have some kind of genetic abnormality. Or they are at least nice enough to f~~~ around and keep it a secret and never hurt their partner. That’s about the kindest they get.

I keep thinking back to when I worked at the dinner as well. A lesbian actually game me the advice that love was not real. I could not believe her. Strange, I just remembered that.

She was such a nice person. I miss her really. You know, I think as men, we have on fault that is our greatest strength and weakness.

Brother, you found the way. Its not going to be easy. But the days do get better after a few years. Terrence popp if you ever heard of him says that it takes about 7 years to get over it all.

Just remember when you do, not to fall back. There arguments, their need for your soul is a strong one. See, women don’t have one. That’s the sad truth of it. They are aimless vessels yet to comprehend anything but a system wired to react to input.

You old military buddies may be the best people to keep in contact with. But be careful brother. People around you are just as weak. They will latch on to you if they had the chance. Don’t let it happen.

You must grow a cold heart. Its not easy. But it will come in time.

You will always still “Feel”. But someday, you will have to find a way to make that part of you die. If you can do that, you will end up strangely happy. But I can’t tell you for sure. Other men know this happiness. I am yet to find it.

Take care brother, and welcome to MGTOW. Enjoy your freedom. And leave the putrid stench and the pain in the past.

You are all alone. If you have been falsely accused of RAPE, DV, PLEASE let all men know about the people who did this. http://register-her.net/web/guest/home

[AzraelParticipant 502]

Welcome to the resistance Brother.

This is not to belittle your situation, it is a very unpleasant one, but one thing you will notice here is patterns of behavior. So many guys have word-for-word the same stories about women. That’s how you can tell these things are true. They are totally predictable if you are red pilled. For example:

“She also told me at one point i should shave my head and trim my beard to a goatee (same exact style as her dad)”.

My only LTR did the EXACT same thing to me. I swear on my father’s name. Tried to get me to cut my hair like him, wear the same clothes, etc.

Glad you made it out alive.

Quit looking at my signature, queer-mo.

[bstoffParticipant 4865]

Welcome and GOOD GOD, Dude, tell me she’s out of your house!
The content of your message indicates she’s probably still in the house.
Lie, beg, burn the house down if you must, but you HAVE TO get her out of your house before it becomes hers.

Please don’t tell me she is on the title.

DO NOT EVER PUT YOUR DICK INTO THAT AGAIN!
She will suddenly become pregnant and guess who’s gonna be called the father?

Do not come into physical contact with her again.
Don’t allow her to be alone with you anywhere again, unless you want rape, assault charges brought against you.

You are extremely fortunate to be rid of that mess.

Get yourself checked for STDs. No joke.

There are local clinics in the phone book or searchable online for a test series that probably costs around $200 USD if you don’t have it covered on your insurance.

Please stay involved in this site with any follow-up questions or advice.
Anyone here would be happy to keep you from making that horrendous mistake again.

You seem to have dodge a very large bullet, my friend.

[Anonymous 3]

Thank you for posting & Welcome.
Now that you are free, stay free.
Start doing things just for yourself.
It can only get better.
Stick with the winners
Stick with MGTOW

[ArcturisParticipant 2819]

Anonymous wrote:

While it kills me a s~~~ ton inside, because I loved her unconditionally, looking past her countless faults, I still know it was the right thing to do.

I understand this mate, I felt the exact same way BUT deep down I knew it was the right decision.

WELCOME TO F~~~ING FREEDOM.

There will be hard and tough days, but it always gets better. Be thankful you weren’t further down the rabbit hole and really you got out at a great time.

Great intro and judging from your story you’ll SOAR without her.

Welcome home Brother.

Protect Your Sovereignty. Women WILL TRY To Manipulate You. #NOCONTACT #ICETHEMOUT

[Anonymous 43]

enjoy your new found freedom. there are men from 25 countries here, we all have the same story.

sounds like you got out cheap, breaking away from my woman nearly cost me my life, later cost me a house, 2 cars, $300,000, a weekend in jail, and my children.

[Y_Participant 4591]

Welcome. Believe it or not you are lucky.
Things could have been a lot worse.

Being religious is fine but I would only say that religious groups do not like men finding the truth about themselves. So careful with any of your ‘friends’ who may try to bring you back to the dark side.

[SpleeferParticipant 959]

Welcome Brother,

Glad you made it out alive. Way to take action and let this one go. Listen to the Holy Spirit. It’s always right!
Also, Listen to the advice these brothers already said. It’s gonna get rough, this one is a diseased hoe bag. You are a man of Faith, start asking and seeking that direction. Flee from this one ASAP.

Galatians 5:1 (KJV) Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.

Galatians 5:1 (KJV) Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.

[BlakeGuyParticipant 287]

Heh William,

Seriously, you are nowhere near clear of this. You are just starting. As mentioned above your first task is to get entirely away from her in every way. Guessing you are far from that. So you need to talk here buddy. You need to answer the questions above and get some strength. If she is not out of the house, you have to be strategic about it so that you can keep as much of it as possible. She will make a load of mistakes if you just let her.

You have found one of the worst kind. Yes there are many woman like her but this one truly can destroy your life.

Let the good times roll

[Anonymous 0]

Hey everyone, thanks for the welcomes and all the advice and warnings! I appreciate it all very much. She is leaving and moving back in with her dad. It’s initially going to be harder on me not only financially but still emotionally as everything has a memory attached to it. But I know it will be worth it after this initial hard time. Also now I’ll be able to focus again on paying off my own debts once again, outside of the house which has almost $30k in equity already, I only owe $4500 for a used car I have and I’m applying to start an apprenticeship program for carpentry (I can’t tolerate University any longer – separate topic though), also I’m working on taking the first steps towards my goal of becoming self sufficient and hopefully in the future at least going mostly off the grid as I am starting my first vegetable garden and joined a new gym. Time to focus on myself and get myself in order.

[Anonymous 0]

iMickey503 wrote:

You will always still “Feel”. But someday, you will have to find a way to make that part of you die. If you can do that, you will end up strangely happy. But I can’t tell you for sure. Other men know this happiness. I am yet to find it.

Yes! I feel like I do know that feeling. I guess in a way before I got into this relationship I was “mgtow” without knowing it. I never really cared about what other’s thought about me. I have some fringe beliefs in the conspiracy realm ever since I started High School and I was never hesitant to speak my mind as I was always a natural loner, enjoying my own peace. I know when I get into a better job field that I will be my happiest yet. (still currently working in a restaurant which is 75% females and listening to their conversations you can see how parasitic they are, never even picked up on it before I found the Sandman YouTube channel like ten months ago) Then of the 25% that work there that are males, about 95% of them are just as or even more annoying than the women.

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