Sup mgtow. I’m not good at introductions, but I will try and give a brief explanation of what finally brought me here. First off, I am 26 years old, live with my grandparents, and spent most of my life as a very blue pill kind of person. Although I have always had success with women, I never really could keep them around for long. I didn’t care so much about this in high school, but after I joined the military (at the RIPE age of 17 lol) my priorities began to change. I really wanted to try and find a girl to settle with for more than a few months, and I was fixated on one broad I met when I got home from basic training.
Long story short, I wasted 2 years of my life and a ton of money pandering to her. I was friend zoned the entire time, and she eventually moved away to Texas to find an Army guy to marry and take care of her (her words). She was successful in her endeavors and now has two beautiful children and is a faithful wife. I really don’t hold any ill will towards her because I was the one that was too naive to see that she wasn’t into me, although she definitely took advantage of me a LOT. I was crushed, but I pushed on and thought “Man, I’ll NEVER let that happen again”. I regretted being so naive and everything was gravy for a few months…I thought I was done being THAT guy.
Holy f~~~ was i wrong.
I repeated this self destructive process with two more girls over another three year period. I ended up living with the last one for a bit (boy was that a f~~~in’ nightmare…story for another day). At the end of it all I was broke (bitch never paid her bills), out of a job (I worked with the chick and we f~~~ed, but she was secretly dating our manager too and he ended up finding a reason to fire me when he found out about us) and moved in with my grandparents.
Enter the purple pill.
During the whole mind f~~~ of the last girl I was involved with EVERYTHING was my fault. She got caught cheating on her secret manager bf? My fault! Bills not paid cuz she spent her money on adderall? MY fault! Once I moved home I began to ponder why this was so. WHY were women so goddamn selfish? Why were women incapable of taking care of themselves on a basic level (bills, hygiene, ect)? Why were they so conniving and manipulative? Why the f~~~ am I the bad guy here? I began to realize that this recent stint of stupidity was familiar. I had done this before…WAY too many f~~~ing times.
Needless to say I did a lot of googling, which led to a lot of arguing on the gender studies forums at yahoo answers, which led to a lot of arguing on tumblr, which led to me being fed up and only reading AVFM articles. The weird thing was that the entire time I knew about MGTOW, but I never really gave it a second thought (even though I’ve watched damn near all of Sandman’s videos). Then a few days ago I realized I had been without a woman (but not without sex) for almost 5 years, and I was really…really grateful for that. It kind of shocked me, how elated I was at the thought. I began to contemplate possible future relationships, and felt nothing but contempt for the idea.
Then, tonight on tumblr, my conviction was solidified. I run a porn blog…don’t ask lol, but I saw some typical feminist “all men are bad here’s a fake rape story you can snope and see is false but ONE MILLION GODDAMN PEOPLE liked the s~~~” kinda post. Normally I’d just brush it off, but this one really got under my skin. It was someone who followed my blog, and she was posting some feminist rape hysteria NONSENSE. The thing that set me off? She is one of my top followers…on my porn blog…that features rape fantasy type stuff QUITE OFTEN.
I. F~~~ing. Lost it. The cognitive dissonance of the feminist mind astounds me, and now I am here, annoyed, confused and sharing this with you all because honestly, I think it is relevant to why many of us choose to be mgtow. It is impossible to keep up with the mental gymnastics of the westernized female mind, so we must seek solace here among others to sift through the crazy and try to make sense of it all. Or maybe just to feel accepted and understood. That is part of why I am here.
I try to slip little mgtow things in conversations here and there with my family and friends, but it is quickly shut down with typical shaming tactics. I am so tired of this; I’m tired of the intellectual bankruptcy of society. I’m tired of people denying toxic feminism exists. I’m tired of being told I am just bitter and blaming women for everything. I am tired of hearing about a rape culture that doesn’t exist. I am tired of feminists trying to ruin video games. I am tired of bunk statistics. I am tired of all of it.
It’s been about 4 years and I’ve seen so much pandering man bad/woman good bulls~~~, and people just eat it up like fools. So I am here. I know there are like minded people who see through the wool. I chose mgtow forums over AVFM, because frankly I think I’m on the verge of level 4 at this point. I feel I can better express myself here as opposed to AVFM where I can’t exactly relate because I’ve never been married, nor do I give a flying f~~~ about the politics of it all anymore. I just want to live my life and be happy. I don’t really expect to change anything. I just wanted to share my story.
MgtowWave 4 years, 9 months ago.
Fascism is feminism.
