Females Have Done More Damage to Me than Anything

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

So, for those of you MGTOW who don’t yet know of me, I am 25 year old graduate student finishing up my MBA in Supply Chain Management. I work 40-50 a week, and also tutor children on the side. I always eat healthy, and exercise daily. I make it my daily mission to learn something new every day. I strive for continuous improvements in all aspects of life. This started at around the age of 13. If I hadn’t made this change, I would be dead. I’m not just bloviating, this the truth. I’ll get into more details shortly. To put it simply, I believe real men are forged in the fires of adversity. Complacency breeds weakness.

Fellas, I’ve been doing a little bit of introspection lately, and came to the conclusion that I don’t take rejection well, and I think I deduced why. My disdain of rejection comes from the rejection I faced from my mother as child. This realization came without the assistance of a shrink as I have always despised going to see shrinks. They have always exacerbated my issues without providing any real solutions.

As a child I had an extremely psychotic biological mother with a severe case of bi-polar depression. I also want to make the distinction, for all intents and purposes, that she isn’t my true mother. My adoptive mother, earned that title. Well, she abused my sisters and I to the point that none of us came out unscathed. At this point, my two sisters are essentially beyond repair. The possibility of them living a truly productive life are now gone. My youngest sister doesn’t even talk to me anymore, and this cuts deeper than a knife. This lack of communication is akin to a monkey on my back. The little bastard won’t ever leave me be, and I can only appease him temporarily. At times I don’t have bananas, and then he goes bananas. Cute, I know… I personally, have a scar above my left eyebrow from when my mother beat me with her high heel. Yeah, we all experienced some of that “motherly love”…

After all the bedlam, I got adopted. From the age of 12, I set out to prove my mother wrong. I wanted to prove to her that I wasn’t a “mistake”, that I indeed had a purpose. I busted my ass in high school and was within the top 15% of my class. Not to mention I broke my school’s 100m and 200m records in track. I even qualified as a regional finalist setting my personal record of 10.63 in the 100m. I’m a white guy mind you, and Houston has some serious competition for athletics. Anyways, I got offers to many schools, to run track. I ended up going to Texas A&M University based on my academic criteria alone. My freshman year of college, I walked onto the track team and ran as a non-qualifier. I did this because I wanted to prove to myself that I could. Prove my self-worth is what I strove for.

I am damaged goods, but hell I tried… That had to be worth something, right?…

Well to my biological mother, nothing I ever did was good enough in her eyes. When I was 18 years old, she had the audacity to call my cell phone, which I unfortunately answered. I have no idea how she got my number, but I was praying for chance to speak to her. I wanted to prove my merit to her. I wanted validation, I wanted an apology… I guess I was hoping that her and my father changed. I was idealistically naive I suppose… I made all these changes in my life just to reach this point. God, there were many times I wanted to just end it all, and occasionally the pain seemed insurmountable. At times I came real close…

Well I told both my biological parents about my accolades. I sounded like a child trying to seek approval. Sad, I know…

My biological mother was unmoved.

I recall the conversation going something like this:

Tina (biological mother): “That’s it?”

Me (tears in my eyes): “That’s it?”, “That’s all you have to say?”, “I’ve done so much, to change”. (I was crying at this point). “I made it my goal to prove to YOU that I would amount to something”. “What have you done with your life?”, “Do you even realize what you’ve have done to all of us?”

Tina: Silence

Me: “You destroyed everything!”.

Tina: “Quit crying like a baby!”.

I just hung up after that.

Reality hit me like a freight train going 100mph. Most people don’t change. It takes a willpower and volition to make things different. Needless to say, that is last I ever spoke to her again. Her rejection has had deleterious effects on my mental health, and it still affect me at times. I just hate stomaching it. Women have damaged me…

In conclusion, most women have done nothing but bring me heartache, and suffering. The more I journey with the red pill knowledge, the more these narcissistic women sicken me. I thought that my mother was just an outlier within the female sex. However, I have come to realization that most women share the same unfavorable traits of my biological mother. I have only met one women in my life who isn’t narcissistic, and that is my adoptive mother. She is the only women who has earned my respect. Women have done nothing but crush me. I give them all, and they take it all. For now on, I will give them nothing. They deserve nothing.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[Anonymous 42]

Women are not held accountable for their actions, men are, what can you expect from that kind of society?

It breeds mental illness unless you swallow the red pill and see it for what it is, men have lost all ways of controlling a women and keeping her in line. Now women use the state to control men like puppets on a string, MGTOW burns those strings and regains sovereignty over everything else!

Anything else is a miserable form of slavery…

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

Anonymous wrote:

Anything else is a miserable form of slavery…

Agreed. I was a slave to proving my self worth. I don’t have to prove anything to anyone.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[Anonymous 42]

MGTOW Knight wrote:

I don’t have to prove anything to anyone.

That sounds like the fruits of sovereignty, you’re your own country and don’t allow other countries to occupy and rule over you…

[MGTOW_MikeParticipant 6253]

MGTOW Knight wrote:

To put it simply, I believe real men are forged in the fires of adversity

Just like how an ancient samurai sword was crafted. It is folded, over and over and over and beaten over and over and over…to result in an ultra sharp and hardened blade…

A tranquil mind is neither happy nor sad, it is uninfluenced by external conditions.

[Faust For ScienceParticipant 22521]

MGTOW Knight wrote:

To put it simply, I believe real men are forged in the fires of adversity. Complacency breeds weakness.

That is not true for one simple fact.

The bigots keep moving the goal posts further and further away. No matter how much you fight you never win. The goal posts are just moved back again and again.

Complacency is at the heart of MGTOW in walking away and doing your own thing. MGTOW is not trying to live up to the standards of other people whom only create hardship and adversity for you.

You will never win. They will never allow you to win. So there is no point in playing the game.

MGTOW_Mike wrote:

Just like how an ancient samurai sword was crafted. It is folded, over and over and over and beaten over and over and over…to result in an ultra sharp and hardened blade…

That is not adversity. That is repetitive order in a peaceful setting.

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

Anonymous wrote:

That sounds like the fruits of sovereignty, you’re your own country and don’t allow other countries to occupy and rule over you…

Metaphorically speaking, I have a past strewn with dead bodies everywhere. It took so much tragedy to reach this point. This is a solemn realization. I just wish the outcome was more favorable to my sisters.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

MGTOW_Mike wrote:

Just like how an ancient samurai sword was crafted. It is folded, over and over and over and beaten over and over and over…to result in an ultra sharp and hardened blade…

I think this is precisely why I have more insight that most millennials. I was never coddled. I had to always earn my own keep. My hardships have made me strong in some ways. I still falter though. I’m only human.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

Faust For Science wrote:

Complacency is at the heart of MGTOW in walking away and doing your own thing. MGTOW is not trying to live up to the standards of other whom also create hardship and adversity for you.

Yeah I too have reached this conclusion. For me, MGTOW is about abandoning the things that have sought to control me. To reject the norms, and expectations that women have placed on me. I owe women nothing. Women have only brought me pain.

I no longer look at things from an idealistic standpoint. I look at things objectively, as they truly are.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[Faust For ScienceParticipant 22521]

MGTOW Knight wrote:

Yeah I too have reached this conclusion. For me, MGTOW is about abandoning the things that have sought to control me. To reject the norms, and expectations that women have placed on me. I owe women nothing. Women have only brought me pain.

Strangely manginas have brought me more pain than women. But, women have made me suffer.

I would be tempted to right my life story, but besides being boring and depressing, I doubt anyone would believe my life story for being so dark.

MGTOW Knight wrote:

I no longer look at things from an idealistic standpoint. I look at things objectively, as they truly are.

I have a similar stance. Strangely, I find beauty in the truth.

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

Faust For Science wrote:

I would be tempted to right my life story, but besides being boring and depressing, I doubt anyone would believe my life story for being so dark.

You have credibility here. Besides, if your story can save a man, then it is worthy of being told.

Faust For Science wrote:

I have a similar stance. Strangely, I find beauty in the truth.

The truth sets you free. Once you embrace truth, everything else becomes clear. Truth is what pulled back the wool from my eyes.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[The man in the mountainParticipant 4102]

You know what bro? we all had a tough life, for me it wasn’t just women that broke me, it was also my narcissist father who abandoned me and my mother when i was a child. You have an education, good for you because men like me we weren’t so lucky, i dropped out of high school on my senior year when i was 17 because i had no money for grad bash, no money for my graduation ring and no money to rent a cheap tux even for prom night.

When i left High School i walked a mile and a half to my home because i had no one to give me a ride, i cried and cried, my face was red as i walked the walk of shame home. After all of that happened i started to work in retail, i worked in retail and slaved away for a meager wage for 6 years, got trained by a watchmaker friend of mines and been doing it for 3 so far, I am making so much money right now (most of it out of the U.S. saved up) that i can now safely retire in a nice apartment in D.R. and i am 25.

I could care less for women and the evil they perpetuate, i wont argue you on that one, but there are pockets of men out there that should be outright ashamed of themselves, because instead of doing the right thing, they have done bad not only in the eyes of society but their children as well.

Being strong it’s not about how much you hold onto things, it’s how gracefully you let go of what is not meant for you, Don’t let people destroy your dreams man, Don’t let your dreams destroy you either.

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

The man in the mountain wrote:

You know what bro? we all had a tough life, for me it wasn’t just women that broke me, it was also my narcissist father who abandoned me and my mother when i was a child. You have an education, good for you because men like me we weren’t so lucky, i dropped out of high school on my senior year when i was 17 because i had no money for grad bash, no money for my graduation ring and no money to rent a cheap tux even for prom night.

When i left High School i walked a mile and a half to my home because i had no one to give me a ride, i cried and cried, my face was red as i walked the walk of shame home. After all of that happened i started to work in retail, i worked in retail and slaved away for a meager wage for 6 years, got trained by a watchmaker friend of mines and been doing it for 3 so far, I am making so much money right now (most of it out of the U.S. saved up) that i can now safely retire in a nice apartment in D.R. and i am 25.

I could care less for women and the evil they perpetuate, i wont argue you on that one, but there are pockets of men out there that should be outright ashamed of themselves, because instead of doing the right thing they to have done bad not only in the eyes of society but their children as well.

Being strong it’s not about how much you hold onto things, it’s how gracefully you let go of what is not meant for you, Don’t let people destroy your dreams man, Don’t let your dreams destroy you either.<img

This is a great analysis man. I’m keeping that image in my flash drive!

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[Two Time WinnerParticipant 1090]

MGTOW Knight wrote:

Fellas, I’ve been doing a little bit of introspection lately, and came to the conclusion that I don’t take rejection well, and I think I deduced why. My disdain of rejection comes from the rejection I faced from my mother as child. This realization came without the assistance of a shrink as I have always despised going to see shrinks. They have always exacerbated my issues without providing any real solutions.

I faced the same rejection from my mother as you did. I’ve been seeing a therapist since last October. He helped me to come to this realization as well as how to deal with it and not let it affect my life now. Based on the conversation you describe with your mother that rejection is still affecting how to deal with life today. Perhaps your medical doctor can recommend someone that could really help you understand your reactions. That is how I found the therapist I see now. At first I thought it was too late in life at age 62 to try and heal. But the cumulative effect of rejection from my mother as a child and many years of day to day rejection from my soon to be ex-wife had me so confused and unhappy I had to do something to relive the pain. I still have to pause and think so as to not react emotionally to situations. Continue to search, life can be so much more when you understand yourself.

TTW

I ain't got a wife to spend my money, I have to do that all by myself.

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

Two Time Winner wrote:

I still have to pause and think so as to not react emotionally to situations. Continue to search, life can be so much more when you understand yourself.

Yeah I couldn’t have said this better myself. MGTOW is allowing me to better understand who I am, and what I want out of life.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[joetechParticipant]

My mother coddled me too much. My brother and I used to sound like the Smothers Brothers because ‘mom always liked me best’. It drove me nuts. My brother had already gone into the Army as an officer after graduating college, and done a tour in Nam when I graduated high school. I had three jobs after high school including a full time job at a food processing plant. I hung around for a year trying to figure out how to break it to my mom that I was going to join the military. Poor mommy dearest sent me to Washington so my brother could give me “the talk” under the guise of a ski vacation in Idaho. When I got back I realized that I just needed to ‘do it’. So, I joined the Navy. I later learned that my mom called my brother to ask, “What are we going to do about it?” My brother never had the b~~~~ or common sense to stand up to mom. He volunteered for a second tour in Nam based on his erroneous view of how he thought the Sullivan law worked. For the rest of my life he held me responsible for his second tour, which I rejected. He argued about everything I was doing in the Navy because he didn’t understand the Nuclear Power program. I made it all the way to Prototype training in Idaho Falls, but got out two weeks before graduation. Me and 4 other guys went drug exempt. By then, Nam had ended, my wife was having an affair with one of the instructors, and they weren’t letting me finish my qualifications because I refused to sign up for the STAR program, which was nothing more than signing a two year extension in exchange for a bonus and an extra chevron. Mom didn’t understand what had happened, and my brother actually thought he needed to intervene to “save” me. All that happened was I ended up going to the conventional fleet. Me, and two of the guys I went drug exempt with ended up on the same ship. I got recommended for E-5 and landed CCTV school at Great Lakes. It was there that I met up with my brother at a bar in Kinosha, Wi. He layed into me for joining the Navy. I told him to go to hell and stormed out of the place. I knew mommy dearest was behind it all. Fast forward to after my divorce…1979. Mom was dying of cancer and the last thing she said to me was, “I can get you out of the Navy.” I only had a few months left by then, so I let her get me a hardship discharge, but I wouldn’t attend her funeral. Over the years the bitterness of her overbearing imagination and her acceptance of my brother being in the Army, but not of me being in the Navy has lingered. Now that my brother is older he realizes how stupid it all was. That’s my closure. Women will always try to control and manipulate their children. No matter how well meaning they are, they never care about the damage done. And the men who allow themselves to be manipulated cause just as much damage. So, in my life I’d have to say the damage done to me emotionally has been about 50/50. Women and the manginas that serve them have created the world we live in, hence I chose MGTOW, NFG, and get the f~~~ out of my life attitude.

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

joetech wrote:

I chose MGTOW, NFG, and get the f~~~ out of my life attitude.

Yeah I feel you joe. I’m at that level as well. People only have the power to control you, if you give them the reigns to do so.

Fuck bitches... literally and metaphorically

[Anonymous 3]

Truth is beauty,beauty is truth.To see things as they are & not as I would want them to b is the result of taking the red pill. Waking up can b a rude awakening, but it’s far better than living someone else’s dream. It took me 40+ years to wake up, but I have been awake for awhile now even though I just learned about mgtow. I am convinced freedom begins with indifference, but that does not mean lack of appropriate response at the right time.
Really glad this site exists

[MGTOW KnightParticipant 7477]

Anonymous wrote:

Really glad this site exists

Me too friend! 🙂

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