Dealing with rage today

[Symmetric MGTOWParticipant 570]

Need to write this to release some steam.

Went to see my lawyer as I had to sign the divorce agreement. He wasn’t there but her assistant had all the documents prepared. I brought the check wit her payment (so she stops all the legal BS) and reviewed all the documents. Everything was in order but there was an additional document that I hadn’t seen before filled with gibberish and legalese… didn’t even know what it was about. I asked the assistant if she knew what it meant, said no, so I didn’t sign and said that I would come back some other day.

After reading that agreement and coming back home I have had many flashes of past conversations, things that we went through, her behavior and mine in contrast, what she said, what she did… and it’s something that has been happening recently, but today, as the feminists say I got ‘triggered’ by it and a stream of memories just came out of nowhere and overwhelmed the system with rage. I have been deconstructing over six years of our relationship during the last couple of weeks and the more I, consciously or subconsciously, dig into it, the more I realize that I was living a f~~~ing dream. I was literally living in la la la land without even knowing.

For so many years, maybe because of love, or who knows, she just suppressed her true nature gave me the best version of herself. Her bigger sister is a gigantic c~~~ with tons of money and a bad attitude. The one in the middle was f~~~ing with a married man in her early twenties cause ‘she was in love’, and my wife, the youngest of them all was thrown out of her mother’s house when she went f~~~ing nuts (the mother) after divorcing her father.

It’s too much to put together here, but things are making more and more sense as I my mind keeps working after hours to rationally make sense of the entire situation and put all the pieces together to finish the puzzle. Needless to say, whenever I hit a major milestone in the process or face situations like today I just f~~~ing lose it and get so angry.

Went out and exercised and now I’m having a cigarette with tea while I write this. As I told a friend, I just hope that after everything is signed and completed I will not have to hear or know from her ever again. That’s all I wish for, if you could believe me. And I hope that she does not call me or tries to get in touch with me ever again.

I wasn’t a saint by any means but f~~~, the more I read into this, the more the NAWALT, Unicorns, biological impulses, etc… become clearer and clearer. Like a textbook case.

It’s just too much to process at once sometimes.

Can’t wait for this to be over.

[Blue SkiesParticipant 15665]

stay positive pal……we’re here to help.

thanks for sharing your story. Stories like this reinforce my determination to NEVER get married.

MGTOW is not a movement, it is a way of life.

[Symmetric MGTOWParticipant 570]

Blue Skies wrote:

stay positive pal……we’re here to help.

thanks for sharing your story. Stories like this reinforce my determination to NEVER get married.

Thanks bro, I appreciate it.

I’m positive… it’s just a rough patch.

It will end and it will not affect me anymore at some point It’s just because it’s still ongoing and I have not capitulated that it still affects me. Not to mention that my mind is restless and won’t give up trying to put all the pieces together.

Yeah man, remember my foolishness and do not ever get married, even if she looks like the most amazing person on earth. It’s just an illusion and it will come back and bite you in the ass down the road. You will spare yourself plenty of bitterness in the future…

Thanks!

[RoyDalParticipant]

This too shall pass.

What you are going through is your body & brain’s natural reaction to stress. It happens to us all.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[HitmanParticipant]

I really know where your at.and your closer to divorcing than I am brother. .I also look back and want to bite an extension cord to relieve the stress, pain and the realization of years spent in a blue haze..I get less and less bad days. .but when I have to deal with lawyers it kicks in again. .exercise is a great choice! Good luck friend!

[Symmetric MGTOWParticipant 570]

Roydal: thanks man! I know, it will pass, eventually.

Hitman: went and read your intro. Sorry about your divorce, seems like a very s~~~ty experience compared to mine. Mine, I gotta give it to her, hasn’t been as bad as it could have.

Keep it up bro and I’m glad you and I are on the same forum sharing these experiences.

[Spank The MisandristsParticipant 2308]

Sorry to see you suffer bro, but we will be there for you!

[Anonymous 0]

Sorry to hear that, Brother. I can’t really say anything that hasn’t already been said. You are doing the right thing, though. We are here to help and listen.

[MattNYCParticipant 2329]

Symmetric MGTOW wrote:

f~~~ing lose it and get so angry.

It’s alright man – totally natural reaction to a s~~~show of a situation. It passes; it gets better. It just takes longer than we f~~~ing want it to.

You’re doing the right things – and i can’t stress the importance of exercise enough.

You’re paying the price, and learned the lesson. The good thing is you don’t ever have to learn it again. The cherry on top is that other guys – younger & younger – are learning from our mistakes.

[AttonParticipant]

All suffering comes to an end at some point, be strong and the light will come.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[MGTOWmonkey aka No More Fucks To GiveParticipant 6635]

Continue to vent here as more pieces to that divorce puzzle forms,your venting is helping you as well as others who are going through the same thing. Keep your head up, women will get theirs on the backend.

Never lose sight of what brought you here.

[Anonymous 24]

Keep your chin up man. I have enjoyed your posts. Now thanks for reminding me that it was a good idea to never get married. Get a punching bag and throw on Survivor- Eye of the Tiger, or get a bicycle and go for long rides. Two best therapeutic cure alls of all time, no joke. lol

[BDParticipant 1146]

Jeffersonian,

You’ve found the right path to a peaceful life. Sorry to hear that you are having some rage, it is entirely normal. This poem helped me a lot whenever I red pill raged, and i am sure it has helped many others, best of luck, stay strong and fight through it, the reward is a peaceful existence and is well worth it.

Because in order to be able to think, you have to risk being offensive.

[ILiveAgainParticipant]

No no no … this is a good thing.

That pressure cooker needs venting.

I say rage away. Get it all out ….. BEFORE … your new life without her.

Smash, break and shout all you want.

We’re listening …. but get it done before legal freedom.

So …. what you waiting for? …. lets go …. I’ve got my sparing gloves on ?

[Truthseeker82Participant 6406]

Sorry for your pain but glad you are beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Amazing how much clarity is gained as we get closer to escaping the blue pill fantasy land we all seek to escape from. Best wishes going forward!

[Symmetric MGTOWParticipant 570]

Thank you all for your thoughtful messages.

I’m at work ATM but will come back later and reply to all of you.

Appreciate it!

[Jan SobieskiParticipant 28791]

Everything is temporary.

Love is just alimony waiting to happen. Visit mgtow.com.

[TiredofbsParticipant 485]

Thanks for sharing your story man. And it’s encouraging to see all of the support on this forum from fellow MGTOW’s. I completely understand the rage. When I was in the valley of divorce, my rage within myself was on steroids. I never showed it to the bitch liar or my adult kids, but it was there. No matter what you occupy your time with, work, hobbies, entertainment, personal projects, when you’re being extorted by some psychotic female, life can be hell. And we’re only human. Those narcissistic bitches love to hurt you. It’s their revenge for you refusing to bow down and worship the vagina deity. And I appreciate your honesty. Like you, I didn’t ride in to this world on a white horse. Yes, I can be an asshole but at the same time, I was always honest with my ex-wife, and if she p~~~ed me off, I’d let her know it. But I never carried grudges, Nevertheless, the rage you feel will take time to overcome, When this is behind you, you will be able to breathe again. The stress of being under attack from a c~~~ is not supposed to be fun and it can make your life a living hell. I found staying busy and looking for things to do productively, even if that means watching an old movie or reading a book every day,, anything to pass time, helped keep my mind off the anger I felt at her. And don’t beat yourself up for feeling despondent at getting so angry. No one likes to be s~~~ted on. God himself understands that we are not wired that way. Stay strong!

[Anonymous 29]

Well you got yourself into this mess and I’m sure you will come out wiser and stronger.
Maybe a bit poorer as well but us men are used to tough times and can do it

btw: how long before this s~~~ is all over ?

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