KeyMaster has stated to be “Proud Of What You Post” and I have given that MUCH thought in my absence here, he is right of course and although I may not be proud of what has transpired in my life I am proud to be MGTOW and have the opportunity to even read these forums. I wonder if my post will make any sense at all after having digested a handful of Blue Pills about a year ago in yet another unhinged attempt at vaginaside and destroying my own peace, happiness, and world by thinking that marriage will solve my problems and make my life better. I didn’t do it brothers, I am still safe for now. After reading more of your VERY sobering posts I have come to the conclusion that what I have thought for most of my life is in fact reality and I have many of YOU to thank for it, so thank you.
I can clearly see now that my deep seated, unrealistic, almost neurotic need and desire to be married (to a “beautiful woman”) and “accepted” by this crumbling American “society” we are living in is directly related to the severe trauma I experienced as a child and that I have chased “love” from a female in an attempt to help compensate for my never ending feelings of depression, helplessness, loneliness and a host of other emotions caused by early childhood trauma. I seem to be on a continuous search for someone to help “fix” me which is wrong not only for myself but for the females I have been involved with as well…a few of them have tried very hard to help and I thank them as people for that but I invariably find that it just doesn’t work out for whatever reasons. I can tell you I wish I was stronger, I have never married and American born woman so perhaps that speaks something of my strength I don’t know but I have just never met one I thought it would work out with…it just always seems to be about them, THEIR careers, THEIR families, THEIR friends, THEIR dogs, THEIR lives and then there I am waiting for the bread crumbs as they are swept off the table. I never feel like a real priority to ANY of them, and often I question is it me, am I being a mangina or white knight or beta male OR is this in fact reality and most ALL men are now being treated this way.
MGTOW has helped me in so many ways mostly by opening my eyes to the fact that it’s NOT healthy to blame myself for being alone and unmarried, that being alone is not all of my fault and that I need not feel so lonely even though I spend a lot of time alone. I am now starting to accept the fact that I may grow old and die alone. It’s not fun at all, I love people and want to be around them and I really enjoy sex and want that to be in the context of a marriage because it’s “right in the eyes of God” but I believe that getting wrapped up with the wrong person and going through a divorce which would injure me further would be a worse sin in God’s eyes. I lived through this hell myself as a child with step fathers. This will sound strange but last night as I was going to sleep by myself I said out loud to an imaginary wife who was not there beside me “I love you honey, your a terrific wife, goodnight…then I responded with “I love you too sweetheart, your a great husband, goodnight”. I then gave it to God and asked him to take it from me, to lift the burden and help me think about something else besides trying to be the man that I think other people and society say I should be in order to be “successful”. I know He will take that and shelter me in His love and help me to concentrate on MY goals, my dreams, my future…I just wish they didn’t revolve so much around the idea of having a wife with me and that I HAVE to be married. What a nightmare our culture has created, Satan must be behind it for sure, some day it will ALL burn!!!
I hope I never get wrapped up in a bad marriage and become an ATM machine for a woman and kids I only see half the time while another man is banging her ass. It’s painfully obvious that every single woman I meet now and get into a relationship with wants a long term commitment of MONEY from me or just sex and dinner (and they all want long term financial support too), there is not much in between although I have met some that do work hard and will pay their way but there is still this idea that my basic function is to provide money, and I resent that. So, for another day I am FREE, I can do what ever in the hell I want to, I have to answer to no one, no boss, no wife, no snotty kids, no mean in laws, not a single damn person…in my eyes that spells a great deal of success and freedom despite having to go to bed alone. Yes sex is easy to get from women but there is always a price to pay, we know this.
Thank you so much MGTOW, if you only knew how much you have helped me, all of your hard work is not in vain, your voices can be heard, shout it from the mountain tops to the valleys below, that Men Should Go Their Own Way and be a force for good, peace, understanding, and logic!!! P.S. I share as a release to help overcome depression, it matters not how many respond but I thank those who do…and for those females out there who may know me and they may wonder onto this site and discover that it is in fact me who wrote this and we are in a relations~~~, well welcome to reality sweet cheeks, at least I have the b~~~~ to post it up and KeyMaster has the b~~~~ to keep me in check!!!
You think Chernobyl was bad? Wait until the ink drys on that marriage contract you just signed...we know, you just wanted sex and fun...you could have gotten that for $100.00 a couple times a month instead of DESTROYING your life!!!
Sky-O 4 years, 1 month ago.
