I came across MGTOW from /r/TheRedPill. I’m going to relate three stories about accidental alpha behavior from years past that made no sense to me at the time but are now perfectly clear and vindicate Red Pill philosophy. Then I’ll go on to discuss my current situation, mostly to get it off my chest.
1. I was playing pool at a local bar/jazz club and asked a girl to join me; she accepted. She’s attractive, about two points more attractive than I, taller and had a BA from Harvard. This is rare in Montana. I’m usually pretty good at pool but was having an off night. She was doing worse. I felt like she wasn’t really trying and I blurted out, “Would you at least try?” in a scolding voice. Very out of character for me. Nothing interesting happened that night; fast forward to a few weeks later. She happens to live in the same apartment building as a friend of mine so I run into her. She invites me in. I don’t say or do anything out of the ordinary. She’s looking at me with a look of attraction I seldom see; her eyes are screaming “f~~~ me”. I take a chance and kiss her out of the blue. It works; we hook up. Lesson: One strong alpha behavior in a sea of normal can seal the deal. I arrange to see her later during the week for lunch. I was dressed in work clothes; not very exciting and not very flattering. Huge mistake. She loses interest due to clear beta behavior. Lesson 2: Don’t lose frame. I clearly should have bossed her around and took charge.
2. I went to a bar with a friend. We happen to run into a couple of other friends that are natural alphas. One is very drunk and we’re trying to have a conversation over the loud music. So I’m being seen with cool friends and I’m doing a lot of the talking in an animate way. I turn around to talk to the other alpha and a hot girl walks past him. Totally out of character, I flick her on the shoulder, kind hard, as she walks past. Totally rude. I don’t know what came over me. She turns around and looks at us. I say, “He did it”. He says, “No I didn’t.” She looks at me and smiles and proceeds to ask me to dance, which mostly consists of this hot girl grinding her crotch into mine. I’m too busy babysitting my drunk friend to pay much attention to her and the moment passes. Now I would pursue and escalate with kino.
3. If you haven’t figured it out, I’m not much of a natural alpha. Average looking and a little short at 5’8″. But every dog has his day. I’m at a party with an old friend and some new friends of friends. There are a few more girls that guys at this party, but there are two really hot girls there that I’m trying to do my best to ignore. I was just having a great time, was on my game, in a comfortable, safe environment. In this situation, I arguably was the alpha. I tell a couple of stories and say a couple of funny things and accidentally “maintain frame”. Toward the end of the evening, the hotter of the two hot girls was leaving and she does the elbow grab. You know – that delicious encounter when a female overly shows interest by touching your elbow? Yea, well I f~~~ it up by not getting her number of leaving with her. That’s how totally oblivious I was.
Now on to the boring part; my current situation.
My father died over the summer and it was like a weight was lifted from my shoulders. I feel like there’s no one left on the earth that can judge me. I was starting to eat better and work outa little, but my father’s death really kicked me into high gear. I have been working out more, doing yoga and eating healthier the last few months, lost 20 lbs and am now in good shape. I’m much happier and healthier. My attitude has improved and I’m more sociable. People are more attracted to me. I almost feel like I’m on some kind of spirit quest.
I’m 49 but look mid-30’s, married, no kids (vasectomy, maybe the best decision I’ve ever made). Situations 1 & 2 above, happened since I’ve been married. My wife is 29 and attractive, about a point or two more than me and about two inches taller. She’s put on a few pounds over the years but is making an effort to eat better and work out. I met her when she was a senior in college and I worked in the IT department. The problem is that our sex life isn’t very good. We have sex once every week or two, but it’s totally uninspired, going through the motions. I wouldn’t say we have an open relationship, but we’ve had a couple of threesomes in the last few years. I know she’s f~~~ed a couple of other guys that I know about. I realize that letting her get away with anything was a mistake, but what’s done is done. I’m free to do the same, but I don’t like to go out as much, but I’m trying to change that. I got a couple of girls numbers over the last two weeks and went on a date last weekend. Just holding a strange girls hand was more erotic than f~~~ing my wife. I felt tingles for the first time in years. My wife was apprehensive about my date, while at the same time encouraging me. I’ve noticed a positive change in her. She’s been doing more housework and has generally had a better attitude. I’m honestly not sure if this seeing other girls is a springboard to divorce or if it will turn my marriage around. I do know that I feel happy and alive for the first time in years.
jambear 5 years, 3 months ago.
