I thought you would be amused.
The problem is, she makes all the right noises, but she will never really understand how toxic society is for men.
She can’t understand the anguish and betrayal I felt when my wife of 10 years told me she wanted a divorce. Until you feel the earth open up and you fall into a pit of despair so horrible that you think the best solution to the problem is to pour gasoline on yourself and light it, like I was going to do, you won’t understand.
No woman can understand how bad the divorce process feels, to have everything you work for just torn apart, home, savings, children, all taken away. For what? So the woman can go f~~~ someone she found on facebook that she went to high school with? How is that permitted to blow up a 15 year relationship, for gina tingles for someone in the past? For that, it is ok to make me homeless, and keep me from my children for 8 weeks?
No woman will understand what it is like to be made homeless for a second time because the child support payments are set too high. On that same day as this court decision, my youngest child told me she and her sister did not want me in their lives any more. Then I had a 10 hour drive to go home. I was teaching in a middle school, and then I would go “home” to my tent on the edge of town. Absolutely demoralizing, working with special needs kids all day, who did not want to be there, accusing me of horrible bulls~~~, and I would go home to my tent.
My ex would never experience any of this, she makes $150,000 a year in a career I helped her get. I paid for some of her school, her books, I helped her earn her MBA, I helped her cheat on software certification tests, I paid down her school loans and helped her finance a house and 3 cars. When I lived in the tent, she owned 2 houses, 4 cars, and went on European vacations for the kids’ spring break, and Caribbean cruises for Christmas. I rode my bike through neighborhoods looking for twigs and newspapers to burn to cook my supper, and walked through drive thrus and carwashes looking for dropped coins.
No woman will ever experience any of that. Society will not permit that. There are shelters, and public assistance, and government programs that keep women from falling so hard. I asked for assistance and was denied. There are no shelters for men, I made too much money for public assistance, there were no second jobs in my area. Men have to just work through their problems, women can go to the government.
There are maybe 2 dozen women on you tube who say they are anti-feminists who seem to understand how toxic marriage is, or how one sided the divorce court may be, and how false accusations of sexual harassment in the workplace is ruining men. Until they become men, and experience it all for themselves, not just for an hour or a day, but for a lifetime, women can not feel what we feel.
I am able to go back to court to ask for a modification to the child support order in 801 days. Every time I went to court in the past to complain about the ex, or report her antics, her breaches of the divorce decree and orders, or defend myself against her claims, every time I went to court there was a strong possibility that I would end up in jail. I dread the day I have to go back and argue for discontinuing child support payments. I have to stick my head in the lion’s mouth one more time and somehow trust the judge won’t f~~~ me over like the last 20 times. No woman will ever experience this dread. A woman’s experience in court is “What more can I take away from the man this time?”
Well, I thought you would be amused by this woman. To me, she is a performing circus animal, trained to perform a trick in an arena. She did her little trick, now lets all applaud.
Maddlad 1 year, 11 months ago.
