Another guy finds his way home…

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

Hey everyone. I found home here,about 3 days ago. I have been reading almost all day and into the night here since. I have found myself going from being a mushroom in the dark being feed s~~~, the likes I still can’t fathom, to being a sponge that can’t absorb all the wisdom I have found here,fast enough. I think I may have  been considered KingMangina as I reflect on my life in regards to this “modern-day female”, and how I have been shredded by them time and again, every time. With that being said, I sit here listening to The Wall by Pink Floyd, as I try to grasp this awakening I am having….

I have retreated into my shell for almost 4 yrs now. I will get back to that….I am now 46, been married & divorced twice. have a 17 yr old daughter that I have been a stay at home father for. I have a very close relationship with her, and it is my greatest honor I cherish in my life. I am glad that her mom and I were able to work that out, for me to say that.

I do feel so sad & p~~~ed for all the dads that had this robbed from them….but I too have not come out unscathed in my dealings with “them”…..

So, back to the KingMangina & my 4 yrs in a shell. That was the last female I was with. Suffice to say, I would have just rather been shot to death. Seems more humane than what I got instead. I did the whole bloody white knight role that would have made Disney begging me for the rights to make it another f~~~ed up kids movie. In a story I could write untold books on, the madness  made me want to kill myself. Had it not been for my daughter, well…I shutter at that thought.

Needless to say, after I got her pregnant, which we (she) wanted (planned), all that hot, sweet, intimate, I love you and sex morphed into the most wicked, malice, and cold as ice s~~~ I had ever heard of or seen. (Even after 3 days here) with all the horror and devastation in the aftermath & wake of the perils of other men sharing here.

On one hand, I am blown away that this is an epidemic….and on the other hand, I am finding solace in the fact that there are other men that have been through the fires of hell as well. I always thought I was just some really unlucky bastard or something.

In short, I had to move out on Christmas eve, from her house. It was soul crushing to me as a man and as a dad. My daughter was around 13 at the time and had gotten very close with this woman. It was life changing to say the least for her as well as myself. I recall thinking to myself, nothing else thrown my way could be worse than this s~~~. Damn, was I wrong.

So, a few months later, she tells me she lost the baby & there was nothing the doctors could do. I was powerless to all these events after I moved in with her. The manipulation, shaming, her and her family against me….f~~~,  wasn’t even a shell of a man at that time. Her family lived across the street, like 2-3 houses down, and they were all in some kind of bloodlust after they knew she was pregnant. Police were called, dealings with her x, and yes, she was a mom. It was an absolute 3 ring circus.

So, I ghosted myself….not just to her, but to everything and everyone, except my daughter and her mom. Stopped using FB, because her family blew up my wall with making me look like satan himself with the shaming and all, as well as losing all desire to be in communication with anyone. Now for the finale killing blow…fast forward 3 yrs….and I get a court summons for establishing the dead fetus, that is now almost 3 yr old son, to see if I am the father. Surprise, surprise, surprise.

That’s right gents, I spent almost 3 yrs believing that I had lost my son. The real kicker to this “love story” is the woman knew I had lost my son about 4 weeks before his due date, before I had my daughter. So, it’s been a little over a yr since I went to court. She didn’t even bring him so I could see him, and never wants me to. Since I was a stay at home dad, my child support is only $50.00 per month, so I know that could have been by far way worse, and would have been if I would have got hit a yr later or so with the summons.

Needless to say, I have had to rethink my plans on how to survive the rest of my life now….I know my enslavement could have been far worse, but women can just BITE ME!!

I have no words on how thankful I am to have found home, and if anyone ever needs to get s~~~ off there chest, feel free to look my way. I have seen some bloody hell s~~~ & I know more than I wish I did on the freaking havoc it does to you.

Cheers,

TribalAge

[hydro137Participant 6]

Am happy to chat,  not sure how best to respond without doing the my story stuff, and I don’t want to be a man victim by throwing out my life s~~~ to add to shelf on shelf stuff.  I wrote something in another post about Dad’s and Son’s which may help tho,www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUgcygzQAwM

but I will share my own awakening music.  Its not Pink Floyd, but the Arena set is pretty Floydish,  theres some attitude in here that helped me.

Muse at the Rome Olympic Stadium

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUgcygzQAwM

and another song for a guy coming home, I kind of like the lyrics for this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVcgkzwWlSs

Not sure if its to your music taste,  but its like advice, take it or leave it for what its worth.

 

 

 

 

[BestoftherestParticipant 285]

Tribalage  if theirs  anything the family courts have show us is that you can stick it to your wife.  Contact  all the free services available to you as a spouse that is divorced to get custody of your kids.  Also get those same lawyers to get you a real alimony payment.  You have the full power of the state to ensure a favorable outcome, so make sure it happens. Do let your masculinity be used against you, no doubt people will try to talk you away from using the courts but its the system women put in place to screw men, you’ll be the rare exception that will benefit.  Contact lawyers, the price of an attorney is put onto the side that can afford it.  Essentially the court will charge the work women the attorney fee you will accumulate.  Post were you, not exact area of course, and I bet a few mgtow can school you on the marriage law their.  If your spouse made money your going to be put in a good situation.

I’m assuming a few things here. She makes more than you, you have majority of custody, and you never lined up the right attorneys to get s~~~ from her.

"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power."
Abraham Lincoln

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

hey Hydro 137, thanks for the cool words and the links. ( first link is blocked because of my country :/) By all means, feel free to say anything you care to share. I have worked through most of the emotional funk, I am just trying to absorb the wisdom here and better myself. Trying to make sense of it all as it were. The more I read everyone’s comments here though, the more I realize just how out to lunch I was regarding females and their agenda. As for music, I like all kinds of music, unless the song sucks ass lol.

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

Bestoftherest, hi, thank you for all the valuable info that you shared with me. I know I am really rusty on socializing, and my intro was all over the place. It looks like I gave my life story (unfortunately, was only a drop in the bucket) In the spirit of trying to be more clear…. We were never married, I don’t know if that changes things or not. This all happened in Colorado, and I now live in North Carolina. I have felt completely powerless with this for almost 4 yrs. I just figured I was stuck with never seeing my son and having to pay the CS for the next 15 yrs or so. I want to get excited about this prospect, but I am not sure I am in  a position to really take her to court here. Her and her family will be able to rip me to shreds in court. I have seen the lies and treachery she is capable of, including her family. In short, I see almost zero chance of me being able to tell the judge that I should be believed over her and her entire family. I really gave the most condensed and shortest intro regarding this stuff that I could . I do know what she was capable of doing to her xhusband in court, and needless to say it wasn’t pretty. I was at one of the court dates, for a restraining order she got on him, etc

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

Sigh, I reread my intro again, and I realize just how all over the place I was with it. My daughter’s mom is not the woman that screwed me over 4 yrs ago regarding the baby she claimed that she lost, and that I got a summons on. I wanted to edit my post, but I no longer see an edit button now, to try and make that clear. Sorry for any confusion. Really hard to think about this stuff and articulate it.

[hydro137Participant 6]

cheers for the shoutback,  as a guy whose also reading and learning as I go,  I’ve found some help in one the thoughts of a mans rights campaigner who is to me someone I see as a bro in the body of, yeah a woman.

Am not sure how guys feel about listening to the thoughts of a woman, but she helped me get my head round stuff without feeling anger, blame or in the slightest bit apologetic of being a man.  Type Karen Straughan into youtube and see if she passes the bro test.

Other Bro’s who keep me sane are the comedians Bill Hicks and George Carlin,  sometimes we need to cry,  but crying with laughter is how I like to get my man tears out.  try and keep a sense of humour if you can buddy.

 

[QcummerParticipant 652]

welcome.

you need to go..

..your own way. 🙂

[BestoftherestParticipant 285]

No worries brother, its a big step to come here and throw out your story. There’s bound to be a bit of miscommunication.   I would still recommend you line up an attorney to speak to.  Nearly all family court attorneys would spend a hour getting to see if you have a case.  Just make sure you package it in a palatable manner for consumption in one hour.  You may come across something that makes life easy, if nothing helps are least you tried.

"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power."
Abraham Lincoln

[LonerBonerParticipant 358]

Your story gave me the chills, the hair on my arms is standing up right now as im writing this!

You are most welcome! I am also a new member, looking forward to reading more from you in the forums.

Keep clam i'm dyslexic.

[Anonymous 42]

YEA! F~~~ YEA! Tribal age has come of age: THE MGTOW AGE! Great intro! Inspiring and enlightening, ya gotta love it when a guy comes in here wiping the narcissistic dog s~~~ of feminism all over our welcome mat (where it belongs). Welcome my abused and downtrodden brother! This is cause for celebration! Welcome to the party!

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

Thank you all for the warm welcome…

@Stealthy MGTOW You Sir, are absolutely f~~~in’ right on all points & thank you. I look forward to having my s~~~ together to the point that I am at your level of clarity not only in my thoughts, but with my life. Just damn straight spot on!!!

@Limpan Thanks man, and heartfelt welcome to you as well!! Means a great deal to me knowing that my intro had that impact on you. Looking forward to reading more of your posts as well. ( I know I need to do a shout out of my own to new members…just sooo much wisdom on this site, but I will get around to it)

@Tower Hell yeah & thanks man! THE MGTOW AGE! Damn, wish I had made that my “handle” …freakin’ love it! After spending sooo many years of my life being beat to a bloody pulp, it is really cool to be on the other side….of bringing something to the table that is Inspiring and enlightening. ( I have read many of your posts already these past few days)…I don’t have any words…other than I consider it a major compliment to get your reply to my intro.

@qcummer Short, sweet and to the bloody point. B~~~~ on accurate. Thanks!

Tips hat to you all and first round is on me. Bloody Cheers!!!

 

[Binary LogicParticipant 2351]

I apologize for being late to the welcome party. Nice to meet you MGTOW Age. Brother, as I’m pretty sure you are already aware, the aim is to show you we understand. Don’t mind the intro, it’s absolutely phenomenal. Glad to hear it sound like you’re keeping it together and having done anything stoic. Glad to have you man. Glad you found us. Welcome!

Funny, isn't it? How women thrive on a mans time, attention and resources, while simultaneously telling him he isn't enough...

[PhantomParticipant 3328]

@binary Logic, thanks bro for the warm welcome, I too apologize, I don’t know why I decided to go back through the topics I started, but so glad I did. I guess I am my own worst critic at times…

Binary Logic wrote:

Don’t mind the intro, it’s absolutely phenomenal.

Even after rereading my intro, I still think I am all over the place with it.

Thank you for that huge compliment and for everything else you said, seriously. I am having another speechless moment.

I really needed it, after a “misunderstanding”(??) I went through with another brother here earlier today.

Looking forward to reading your posts in other threads as time goes by.

Tips Hat & Cheers,

I need to get on the ball with intros

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