Hi guys,
First of all, let me explain from what place i come from.
As i posted in my introduction, i had a bad breakup months ago. I wanted to fill that “hole” with other women as fast as possible. Since for us men it isnt that easy as it is for women, ofc i couldnt find an replacement for 2 reasons: I was emotionaly not ready. I was literaly talking with a women that was interested in me about my Ex girlfriend how i still love her (haha) and u could call me a pussy for that, but it was kinda good. I needed it to get out of my heart sometimes. So why hide it? Anyway, i was into the whole pickup community thing long time ago. I quit it because i then found my now ex girlfriend. For me then it was logic to get into the “PUA” thing to finaly get more women. Cause im a normal, average guy and i cant get the attractive women without paying it, “PUA” was the only way for me. We had a speaker weeks ago in our town from the pickup industry that gave us free seminars. To be honest, it was quit nice and he understand women how he see them was mostly congruent to what MGTOW is “teaching”.
After his seminars, he did make promotion for his “summer cammp”. Its a 2 week bootcamp and u are basicaly there just to f~~~ women and learn how to. U are 4-5h a day out and approaching the girls, u realy want (well, from the looks perspective). But the camp is extremely expenise. I was so close to apply for this camp and decided, i wont going.
So what has changed? Do i have more pussys now in my life? Nope. MGTOW happened. And it realy did.
For the past 2 weeks i was focusing my life on MYSELF and for the first time in a long time i feel f~~~ing great. I wasted so many hours on getting vaginas, its beyond stupid. Yes, they also preach u have to focus on yourself in the PUA community which i think is crucial, but i cant do these 2 things together. Thats an honest realisation. Maybe some people can find themself and improve AND get lots of sex, but i cant.
So the question is, what is more important for me, improve myself every week and get the strongest version of MYSELF or back to the “pua” community (maybe summercamp) and get here and then some vaginas?
The answer and the reason i write here, flew into me last night. I went to a party with my best friend. We had as always a funny night. We had awesome conversation with other men as always. Funny how always we meet nice men going out. I still have the urge to talk to attractive women. I was in a very good moode since my last 2 weeks were realy good, so i had no problem to approach a girl next to me. Talked with her a bit and i realised: “jesus u are f~~~ing boring”. I talked minutes ago with a random man and had a blast lol. So my friend wispered in my ear: “So, do you want to get her?” and i told him: “I could but then i needed to follow her from A to B through the club and spend at least 30 to 1 hour of trash talking”. I asked myself, does a real man to that? Nope. Ofc after i didnt follow her to the bar, she was gone. I decided that night stopping to force myself talking with women, just to have sex. To be honest, i would like to have a nice conversation with a women but that happens to rarely and im not gonna force it. At the other side, i saw my friend talking with an older women (well shes 30 but we are both 25) and my friend told me how lucky he is to find a “older” women cause they arent that complicated like the young ones. He spend 3 f~~~ing hours following her and talking with her. I saw myself in him. I would have doing that with the girl i approached in the begginig some hours ago. But for what? You know the ending of the story, i told him he should go straight and ask for her number before she leaves and she just gave him her facebook. We all know what that means. So now its sunday, i had an relaxed saturday night and feel good today, ready for monday to have another good week focusing at myself and then i have my friend, who is now depressed cause he doesnt know why she just gave him facebook and dont even add him back. I was there many times before. I still love sex. I still love good conversations with women BUT im not gonna force both and/or pay a price, that is way too high.
Thanks MGTOW for showing me, what my father couldnt.
Hitman 3 years, 9 months ago.
