23 June 2015

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  • 2017-12-13 at 1:10 PM#690316
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    Disquieted
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    23 June 2015 is the day that defined my life. Here is my story.

    I am married. 48 years old. I have one child, a son who is 10. On 23 June 2015, my son contracted a cold, or some random bug (we never found out). This bug managed to work its way to his brain and basically ate it. My little boy has irreparable brain damage. He will never walk again, never enjoy a steak, never have a career, never get married, never fulfill the life that he should have.

    I have probably not explained this very well, but this is absolute trauma. All my hopes for him, all his hopes for himself are just gone. Shot.

    Now the experts say that you go through a defined grieving process (grieving because my son, as I knew him, is dead. The ‘pathway’ that he was meant to have is gone. I now have a new son with a new ‘pathway’ and need to grieve for the old son).
    The grieving process is as follows:
    1. Denial – “It can’t happen to my little boy”
    2. Beseeching – “if there is a God out there then….”
    3. Anger – I’ll come back to this
    4. Depression: All I can say is that there are some dark places where your mind can take you. And there are Demons waiting there. Don’t go there.
    5. Acceptance – I’m meant to be here now. LOL

    The experts don’t know s~~~. This is not a process you go through; you bounce back and forwards between the stages.

    Phase 3 – anger.
    Many people have been angry. Few have felt the RAGE that I have. Confession time, I even started to go to church just so I could tell God how much I hate him. I f~~~ing HATE him. How the hell could he do that to my little boy?

    Accelerate to today.
    I am still married. My wife and I have a brother/sister relationship. We are both devoted to our son and have nothing else in our lives. Genuinely if she wanted to leave I would support it 100%, she is a saint (and the AWALT guys can just f~~~ off.). But she won’t and neither will I.

    I dream of a life of simplicity. Living on my own terms. Brewing my own beer. Reading books. I want to tell the world to go to hell. Burt I never will – my son comes first.

    I believe in some ridiculed male traits – duty, honor, valor, responsibility. This is the stuff that brought me to MGTOW in the first place. These values are important.

    OK, this is muddled. But it’s my story.

    Michael.

    2017-12-13 at 1:17 PM#690324
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    Aposematic
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    Powerful stuff. Why are you here? How likely is it that the causative agent was not identified? Tuna

    Afinogyny.. from the Greek Afino {to abandon/ to set down/ to leave /to allow/ to let } + Gyny {Women} MGHOW’s philosophy to not engage women without “hating them”. Narcorca =Narcissistic Orca typically spouting to a bathroom mirror taking an arms length selfie ; Wallinate describes post wall females whose SMV is terminally negligible New Years resolution "To not make women happy" . Instadestitue: yet another Neologism for Men that cohabit with women that decide to pull the handle of intervention orders.

    2017-12-13 at 1:47 PM#690346
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    Disquieted
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    Why am I here?
    Duty, honor….these male traits I mention.
    plus I want to tell the world to go hell.
    plus – why are you asking? I’m not being judged by anyone.

    2017-12-13 at 1:49 PM#690351
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    Secret Agent MGTOW
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    Yeah, this is classic tuna trying to appear as p~~~ed off man.

    The key point here is the AWALT line thrown in. It was just too much sweetie. If you understood AWALT you’d know it has nothing to do with the rest of your story. But you don’t understand AWALT because as a chick you can’t figure it out and how to NOT come across as a woman.

    I expect the predictable vey hostile genital-insulting, man-bashing retorts in reply, if the account is still active.

    Women want everything, but want responsibility and accountability for nothing.

    2017-12-13 at 1:52 PM#690354
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    Anonymous
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    A very sad tale indeed.
    For now I am going to assume that you are not tuna and not a troll.
    Still, why are you here?
    Surly there are other/better forums to discuss the loss of a child?

    2017-12-13 at 1:53 PM#690355
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    It'sallbs
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    Disquieted wrote:

    she is a saint (and the AWALT guys can just f~~~ off.). But she won’t and neither will I.

    I’m curious what has she done that makes you say that she is a saint?

    http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

    2017-12-13 at 1:55 PM#690358
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    Hermit
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    Disquieted wrote:

    Why am I here?
    Duty, honor….these male traits I mention.
    plus I want to tell the world to go hell.
    plus – why are you asking? I’m not being judged by anyone.

    Duty and honor to what, to who? That is no answer as to why you’re here.

    …….and if you’re here to tell the world to go to hell, you’re in the wrong place.

    The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

    2017-12-13 at 1:56 PM#690361
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    Disquieted
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    I posted this s~~~ because I’ve read just about the entire forum and felt some kind of brotherhood.
    Do you really think I’m posting tuna about my son’s brain damage?

    F~~~ you. i don’t need to explain myself to you.

    2017-12-13 at 1:58 PM#690367
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    Greg Honda
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    Contact C-Pig and get on Zoom this weekend.
    I’m not calling you Tuna and with respect guys, I think sometimes we call to quickly.
    If genuine your story is devestating and I have no idea how I would handle a life changing situation like that.
    As regards AWALT, I prefer EWALT.

    Just my two cents

    It's Time to get Wise

    2017-12-13 at 2:03 PM#690374
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    Hermit
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    Disquieted wrote:

    I posted this s~~~ because I’ve read just about the entire forum and felt some kind of brotherhood.
    Do you really think I’m posting tuna about my son’s brain damage?

    F~~~ you. i don’t need to explain myself to you.

    Come now, there’s no need to become angry and vulgar, is there? If you’ve read “the entire forum”, you would know that we like to find out as much as we can about new members.

    You say you felt some kind of brotherhood. May I ask in what way? How are you, or any of your life experiences similar to what you’ve read on here? How do you believe being here will benefit you and how can you be a benefit to others here? The more we know about you, the better we can help you, if you should ever need any help.

    The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

    2017-12-13 at 2:05 PM#690375
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    Disquieted wrote:

    plus I want to tell the world to go hell.

    P.S. Welcome to the forums, sorry for tragedy.

    2017-12-13 at 2:10 PM#690384
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    It'sallbs
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    Disquieted wrote:

    F~~~ you. I don’t need to explain myself to you.

    Most people tell us their story when they join.

    Trust me experience tells me there is no low TUNA won’t stoop to in lies.

    I’m not saying you are TUNA but saying F~~~ you to people…

    Anyway lets all start afresh.

    If you don’t mind my asking what brought you to MGTOW you say your wife is a saint so tell us why are you here?

    http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

    2017-12-13 at 2:11 PM#690385
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    Romulus
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    I’m not buying it.

    Anyway, doesn’t matter. This isn’t the appropriate forum for folks that have had any sort of life tragedy befall them. It’s a forum about men going it alone.

    How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being.

    2017-12-13 at 2:13 PM#690388
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    It'sallbs
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    Let him answer my question.

    http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

    2017-12-13 at 2:17 PM#690399
    Disquieted
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    Hermit,

    Thank you for your response.

    After lurking for two years and feeling some kind of kindred spirits with others on here, I finally post a precis of my history and get called a liar.

    Yes, it annoyed me and I apologise for my language. I shouldn’t have done it. But to those who think I am lying about my son – I couldn’t be bothered.

    2017-12-13 at 2:18 PM#690401
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    Freeman_K
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    Welcome, that story is horrible and must be devastating.

    The choices we make, not the chances we take, determine our destiny

    2017-12-13 at 2:19 PM#690402
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    Solo MAN'S Wisdom
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    Welcome, Michael. Very sorry about your situation visa vi your son.

    Why can’t you still pursue some of your hobbies and pleasures [brewing your own beer, etc.] and still be able to care for your boy??

    Please forgive those here who are suspicious as we have had a recent influx of trolls / women / lesbians posting s~~~ here in order to project their own filth on to us.

    I’m honored to make your acquaintance. S M W.

    When women lead, destruction is the destination. -- Me.

    2017-12-13 at 2:24 PM#690412
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    Hermit
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    Disquieted wrote:

    Hermit,

    Thank you for your response.

    After lurking for two years and feeling some kind of kindred spirits with others on here, I finally post a precis of my history and get called a liar.

    Yes, it annoyed me and I apologise for my language. I shouldn’t have done it. But to those who think I am lying about my son – I couldn’t be bothered.

    Well, I’m not calling you a liar as I do not know you and again, since we do not know you, we would like to find out more about you so we can get to know you. When I first joined, I thought it would be a good idea to give more of a back story as to why I wanted to be a part of this community and when others asked me about myself, such as why am I here, I felt it only respectful to answer their questions, as this site, like any other, belongs to its members.

    So please, if I may inquire again, and without insinuating that you are being dishonest, how exactly do you feel as though you are kindred spirits with others here? Where does the feeling of brotherhood come from? What experiences have you had in your life that relate to others here?

    The evil in women’s hearts leaves them no moral bounds as to inhibit them from descending to the lowest levels of darkness to acquire their self entitled desires.

    2017-12-13 at 2:27 PM#690419
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    It'sallbs
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    What makes you say your wife is a saint?

    http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

    2017-12-13 at 2:48 PM#690440
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    Disquieted
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    Thanks for the responses. I will reply in more detail tomorrow.

    I felt this was a safe haven of like-minded people, some of whom felt the same, the wish to tell the world to go to hell: I’m not playing by your rules any longer.

    I didn’t come here for sympathy. However I have been shocked by the nastiness.

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