As of July 31th this profile will be updated in the days to come for now I'll leave old content up!!!! Psychiatry raped my life in every possable sense of the word i am 29 now but from the age of five i was abused and used by them as well as child destructive services and foster abuse homes..... for lack of the desire to rehash my whole life i wont give all the detials... suffice to say them and juse about every other grouping of people i know have harmed me for the last 26 years of my life....... i have so much hurt and pain and anger in side i am not even sure what to say..... the more i review the whole of my life i can say that its only been the last three years of my life that i can say any let me repeat that any good has be present in my life..... its hard to come to terms with having been abused for 26 out of 29 years of ones life..... i am not even sure what to think or how to feel..... most of my child hood i was locked up in placements that told me how to think what to feel and how to act..... and i mean 24/7..... what most people take for granted i never had...... no father no mother no siblings i was moved every 6 months for over 9 years.... i was druged and told i was crazy...... and this is after having been beat with 2x4 wood at the age of three along with haveing been raped in the ass by my older brothers at or around the same age...... i was then placed into foster abuse homes where threw beatings i was restimulated to live in fear of the 2x4 wood.... i grew up being told sex was of the devil...... beaten for playing doctor.... told "we ant going to have a faggot in this home" then at the age of 9 i was placed in a attempted adoption home where the woman who wanted to adopt me.... beat and tourtured me in fashions i wlll not re state.... terms such as starvation!!!! feeding him his own shit!!!! force drugging!!!! and much much more happend befor i was then placed into the care of the state mential wards druged labeld crazy and told i was a bad child..................................................I NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG TO DESERVE THE TREATMENT I HAVE HAD TO ENDURE!!!!!!! like said from 9 to 18 moved every 6 months then i was ejected to the streets homeless without famly.... mind you i never was huged never selabrated birth days..... every time a holaday came all the other kids went home i was the only one there..... homeless at 18 romed the streets asking who am i and where do i fit into this thing called life i then joined the cult i have mentioned on my time line got brain washed into thinking these people loved me that they cared for me that they might be the famly i never had........ after two years of slave labor my last week i told my self if they use fear shame and guilt one more time i am leaveing i did... homeless no one to go to no where but under the bridge.... long story short i am now on my own path to healing with out any one elses input.... i have had enough of people telling me what i should think or feel or belive in any detial of my life.... fuck all people who try to define your life for you.... in doing so they only seek to control you for their gain. ps i have complex ptsd and live on disablity i am willing to relocate to any location thats going to best serve my lifes intrest ideally i have in mind the idea to help make a MGTOW intentional community am slowly teaching my self how to grow food as a basic start any others who would like to talk more about this idea of a mgtow community i feel free to contact me i think there is power in numbers lets join forces and make this world more male friendly.