So here is the situation.

A few years ago I had been unfriended by some girl I knew whom I thought was a friend, actually she gave me the cold shoulder well before this. Yes I know big deal! Move on because girls aren’t worth crying over.  However it bugged me because I could not think of anything that I did to warrant such mistreatment. In fact during my blue pill days I had helped this girl at the cost of my masculinity.  I was upset by this and felt that I had least been old some explanation.  I was left wondering had I wronged a friend, am I not allowed to rectify any ill feelings that one may have of me? I finally got a response that I apparently was getting on her nerves with my hellos.  I  simply messaged twice every three years with a 5 month bridge between months and all it would have required of her was a response telling me she didn’t want to chat.

Anyways this isn’t what is bugging me but rather when I shared it with friends.

I had one male friend show his loyalty by saying some offhanded mean things, and I liked that support and because I did so some of my other female “friends”. Chimed in to admonish my behavior telling me to take a higher ground.  I spend so much time being the nice guy am I not allowed to be nasty once in awhile? Why in the hell are they defending someone they didn’t even know, instead of supporting me?

In retrospect I know exactly why I was ignored and unfriended and it had nothing to do with my hellos but rather my SML I had been the nice guy and in turn was nothing but the typical chump that gets walked over by broads like her and the irony is that she had just escaped from an abusive relationship with a guy that beat her. Someone like myself isn’t worth speaking to and someone like that was worth dating?

I f~~~ing hate bitches and I am trying so hard not to weigh my own value through them and yet it makes me feel so worthless inside.

“I am trying so hard not to weigh my own value through them“

You will need to get this down and kill this f~~~ing urge man. Seriously. This is stuff you are socially conditioned to feel since you were very young. Getting acceptance from Mother, being good and popular in school, get a cute gf… etc etc bulls~~~. A woman will never give you self value. Only you can.

Also, don’t workout to look good for women. Do it for yourself, your health and wellbeing. The workout endorphins are great. Women WILL check you out more if you have a great body, but who cares? It’s not a reason to workout. Make sure you warm up before hitting those weights! 🙂

Cheers!

Gonna take it easy though because i think i tweaked my knee on the leg extension bore to much weight down on my knee and now it feels weird and sore.

That is smart. Never work out on top of an unhealed injury. I did in my misspent youth, and now I have to live with permanent damage. If it were not for chiropractors, I would be walking with a cane. In fact, I was for a long while. Do not repeat my mistake.

dav wrote:

You will need to get this down and kill this f~~~ing urge man. Seriously. This is stuff you are socially conditioned to feel since you were very young.

I agree. Urges come and go. Live without letting them run your life for you. Get in charge and stay in charge.

By the sound of your rant you must be a younger dude. Your hormones are raging, son. You chemically need to be with a woman in some form or another. Relax. This too shall pass. Get a porno and jerk it a few times…a day. The only person you need to validate your worth is you.

Yes go wack as many times as you need to to slay the beast, just don’t hurt yourself.

Modern women are irresponsible and senseless – you know that from your personal experience. You can only answer the fire with fire – become emotion-free, dude! I thought it’s hard – but it’s not.

What I mean – now your emotionality plays bad tricks on you. You feel pain and guilt, hope… you search for approval – but it’s all in your mind, no one gives a f~~~. Just get angry and when you feel that anger has consumed you entirely – just turn it down. Say to yourself that you don’t give a f~~~… repeat it constantly. You’ll find how much better you’ll feel… and know that you’re not alone, there are people who understand you, focus on your friends, work and goals. Don’t care about women the way they do about you.

Be pragmatic – it’s much way smarter.

I am nothing but flaws to be picked on and scrutinized.

I read it in one of @brainpilot‘s posts. So I will reiterate and paraphrase because it applies to me. You grow up wanting female attention in high school and in college. If you don’t get that, you wonder something must be wrong with me. You need to work on something, to improve on something. You get that higher education, start business, get jacked after years of gym, among other things only to seek that attention or approval. And finally you get that approval. But the catch is … it has nothing to do with you. She will give you that illusion though. And once you trust her, she will take what she can and leave. Now you are left feeling not good enough once more.

Never improve for others approval. You are the highest level judge of your character, accomplishments, etc. Keep what you have. Approve of yourself.