As the title suggests I am an NCAA D1 Baseball player, im 19 years old and just finished my first year as a science student with a Math/Physics double major at a large west cost university/college, which I will not mention so I don’t get kicked out due to the Orwellian social media laws from the department of athletics; I like my scholarship and registration status the way it is.

since I was 12 years old I was determined to never get married EVER, so in a way i’ve always been a “purple pill” kind of guy, this was largely due to the fact that every marriage in my family and extended family had failed spectacularly. My mother has been divorced twice, my father twice, every one of my uncles have been divorced at least once, each with a worse situation than the last.  Both my grandfathers are men I greatly admired and had amazing relationships with, they are both war vets and corporate executives before they retired, but I watched these once Alpha males act like beaten dogs around their wives, they were miserable and constantly verbally abused. Anyways this fostered a healthy sense of misogyny and cynicism and hatred of the institution of marriage.

Yet despite all this I was still a f~~~ing slave to women. I ate up the “women love gentlemen” aka ” be a white knight” aka “simp” aka “invert your penis, cut off your b~~~~ and become a Pussy”. through elementry school, and the first 2 years of highschool I was this pathetic being known by the above terms. By grade 11 I fully committed myself to excelling as a student athlete I played Football and baseball through the rest of highschool, I trained strength and conditioning daily and had 30 hours a week of practice between my two sports and raised my average from 2.7 in grade 10 to maintaining a 4.0 through the rest of my highschool career.

I finally started to get female attention, mostly due to my status as an athlete with multiple Scholarship offers and a great physique. On top of that I discovered Tom Leykis and became a Leykis 101 student, who helped my hone the badboy-alpha-male persona which I was inadvertently forming, I hung out with other Alphas, I restored and drove both a 78 mustang cobra and a 76 Harley-Davidson, I was a blatant stereotypical Alpha on the surface however underneath I was still a “nice guy”,  and absolute science nerd with a passion for everything in geekdom, I was a treckie, and a hardcore Lucas and Spielberg fan.

In College I lost the last bit of respect I had for the women of my generation, the “strong, independent, spiritually evolved goddesses” I met during my day classes acted in a disgusting, child like, vulgar matter, the understatement of the f~~~ing year would be that they were un-lady like. But because of my social status as a NCAA athlete, and my alpha male and chauvinistic persona. I was angry and disgusted by women, I came to treat woman as nothing more than a cum-receptacle, and the f~~~ed up thing is that I was getting laid more than ever. I was f~~~ing the two hottest chicks in my residency building on a regular basis and was still banging other chicks I met at parties, I acted like an asshole, treated them like s~~~, cheated on them, lied to them, and they kept coming back for MORE!!! WHAT THE F~~~?!

Anyways I faked being an alpha, I faked who I was so I could get laid, I thought I was a bit of a bad ass but I was still a f~~~ing slave to women and their golden vagina, and fantasized about a NAWALT, a perfect relationship with a woman who would love me for who I was, and I could let my guard and bulls~~~ persona down and accepted all my faults and insecurities and loved me even more for it. I wanted this more than anything, at heart I was (and still am) a white knight, simp willing to sacrifice himself for others (women). My father was a vet, and I was raised to believe male sacrifice is noble and is our place in society, and in my gut I still feel it is my job to sacrifice for society, the state, and women, and I feel like I have to fight this impulse every day of my life.

Either way I discovered MGTOW and swallowed the redpill and everything started to make sense and I started seeing the world for how it is. I regret my actions in the first year of college, and recognize how unhealthy my attitudes were, I was holding onto resentment and disgust towards women, and I was no more free, I was no less a slave I was just an asshole. When I took the redpill I felt absolute freedom from the shackles of gynocentrism and society, I refused to allow myself to be used as a utility for corporations or women have become determined to excel and succeed purely for the virtue of doing so, and ultimately carve out a fulfilling life for myself.

Anyways I apologize for the long winded introduction and im not sure if this was too much information for this section,  but I had allot to get off my chest, (and still do so expect many more posts). This post became less of an introduction of myself to the MGTOW community and more of an exercise of self reflection, self examination and self discovery. Either way I hope it fits both purposes.

There was a ponit in it where I wanted to slap ya 😀 but luckily you took the pill just in time.

It is often said here … that all roads lead to mgtow ….. and your rather long twisty road did.

So again welcome and carry on carrying on 😆

I kinda wish there was someone around to slap me during that period, I was going down a path that could have ended my baseball career, left out the fact that during this period of partying in college I started drinking heavily and using drugs, it was seriously f~~~ing up my life, and I stopped just in time to pass the p~~~ test. The only reason I was partying was so I could get laid and up my “kill count” Im just happy that I did indeed take the red pill in time, or I would still be taking pills of other sorts.

BTW, I knew a guy who played minor league ball for many years. It was a pretty good gig. I lost touch before he had to retire, so I don’t know what his second career is.

TBird wrote:

I restored and drove both a 78 mustang cobra and a 76 Harley-Davidson, I was a blatant stereotypical Alpha on the surface however underneath I was still a “nice guy”,  and absolute science nerd with a passion for everything in geekdom, I was a treckie, and a hardcore Lucas and Spielberg fan.

I’ve done the same restore a cool car thing, actually more than once. I too am a science nerd, Star Trek fan, Star Wars fan, and science fiction and fantasy book fan.

You are a top athlete, which I never was because I have authority issues. Coaches rub me the wrong way. However, I always liked sports like swimming, weight lifting, and martial arts — sports where I am competing against myself.

So, I’ve turned my greeting to you into a brag about myself. I’m glad you are aboard the red pill train and I wish you a safe and happy ride.

a NAWALT, a perfect relationship with a woman who would love me for who I was

That’s a fools hitching post; I cut the reigns from my life’s horse and now, and forever, I’m free with no “strings” attached!

For only 19 years old you seem to possess more wisdom than most people have when they die! You’re going places, I can tell, and here’s one of the best places to go…. Welcome to MGTOW, we’re sure to enjoy your whacking the s~~~ out of gynocentric base b~~~~! Knock those feminist c~~~s out of the pussy park!

Welcome