Basically, I “fell in love” with the first girl I slept with when I was 17ish. She cheated on me, but claimed “date rape” or some s~~~ because she was drunk, so I forgave her… after all, I LOVED her!  I thought it sounded fishy, but I was new to this whole life thing. It hurt like hell, but I just kept telling myself it wasn’t her fault and she was the victim. I even went and gave the dude (and one of his friends) a couple black eyes.  A few months later, she ended up at a party with that same dude that “raped” her and when I showed up, she was locked in the bedroom with him for nearly 30 minutes. She tried to say she was too drunk or whatever again, but come on… She put herself in that situation knowing what had “happened” before.  

I couldn’t believe what was happening. I… still can’t. I am still having such a hard time believing that people can be so deceitful.  Most of all I can’t believe I cant just get over it. Bitches, man… bitches.

Oh and I found out when I was about 24 that my older sister actually is only my half sister. My mom cheated on my dad when they were dating, got pregnant, then didn’t tell my dad she had cheated until she convinced him not to use a condom one time and was sure he was going to stick around for the baby (which was my sister). Luckily my Dad is also very forgiving, as they then f~~~ed, and had me a couple years later. The way I found out was because my mom got drunk and let it slip, obviously on purpose. I guess she was bored and there wasn’t enough drama in the air at the time and she had to fix that.

I’m still very confused about everything.  All these things I’ve been learning the last few days have angered me and opened my eyes.  I feel like I just walked out of a movie theater in the middle of a bright summer day. It’s emotion and information overload, and my eyes haven’t quite readjusted.  I’m starting to realize that I didn’t just get the short end of the stick, I just shouldn’t have picked up the stick in the first place.  It’s not that there’s something I could have done differently to prevent it. It’s not because of some shortcoming or flaw in myself, it’s just the nature of women. What a liberating idea.

I’m very skeptical by nature, and no offense, but I’m not looking for a new religion in MGTOW. At this point I just want to continue learning and growing. I’m comforted to know that I’m not the only one who has been dicked over by a woman (or girl) and feel like it’s NOT OKAY, and that I don’t deserve that s~~~, and I dont have to take it.  For the first time I feel justified in my anger. I don’t want to live forever in anger and hatred and rage, but for the first time, my anger feels productive rather than restrictive. I feel like my b~~~~ are slowly growing back. I just want to feel free again. I know a lot of you guys have had your financial, material, and paternal freedom taken from you, but what I really need back is my emotional freedom.

Anyway, that’s my story. Thanks again for all the info and stories and support.

P.S. Just another f~~~ed up anecdote to share.  My best friend growing up, when we were about 7, was sodomized with a broom stick by his mother so that she could claim sexual assault on his father. His dad was arrested and spent about a year in jail before they actually reviewed the evidence and realized it was all bulls~~~. His dad was a good man. A pilot in the air force during the gulf war. Poor guy. They even stayed together after that…. ????

Thank you for sharing your experiences.

Being skeptical is what brings a lot of men here in the first place.  This is the place where logic, rooted in personal observation and experience is appreciated.  I have to empathize with you

truckercapjim wrote:

I am still having such a hard time believing that people can be so deceitful.

This was a hard thing to accept for me, even when it was going on right in front of me.

I will tell you from recent experience the Red Pill Rage can be overwhelming.  But you will come out the other side with clearer eyes.

But I do suggest that you unplug for a few days and get some perspective.

But I do suggest that you unplug for a few days and get some perspective.

Thank you, Soldier. Just to be clear, do you mean quit watching all the videos and reading all the mgtow stuff for a while?

Just to be clear, do you mean quit watching all the videos and reading all the mgtow stuff for a while?

The answer is yes.  Deluging you mind with new ideas, concepts, and facts and are intellectually and emotionally relevant, without rest doesn’t give you time to process.

I did what you have done for over a week and found myself alternating between rage and tears.  Yes tears.  I had to unplug from the computer, except for business only for a bout 2 to 3 weeks.  I used this time to focus on work and process what I have learned so far.

The amazing thing about my experience is that I am a lot less angrier that I was before.

This is what is true for me.  Perhaps not for you.

I’m very skeptical by nature, and no offense, but I’m not looking for a new religion in MGTOW. At this point I just want to continue learning and growing. I’m comforted to know that I’m not the only one who has been dicked over by a woman (or girl) and feel like it’s NOT OKAY, and that I don’t deserve that s~~~, and I dont have to take it. For the first time I feel justified in my anger. I don’t want to live forever in anger and hatred and rage, but for the first time, my anger feels productive rather than restrictive. I feel like my b~~~~ are slowly growing back. I just want to feel free again. I know a lot of you guys have had your financial, material, and paternal freedom taken from you, but what I really need back is my emotional freedom.

Welcome, truckercapjim. Great intro!

I agree with what you’re saying. When we’re isolated and alone, a women can take advantage of us, and we tend to assume that *we* were at fault. That is, we assume that we were a little slow on the uptake, we made some bad choices, we should have seen it coming, and we need to try again and get it right next time.

But then you come here and see that it’s actually quite common to get ripped off by women. In fact, the system gives women so many advantages that even for well-meaning women it’s tempting to play that game and cash in at the expense of guys.

It’s kind of liberating to see it in that light. You can move from being paranoid and on the defense around women to picking up some tricks to insulate yourself and even find real freedom.

Again, great intro!

Welcome to MGTOW. Soldier Medic gave an excellent recommendation to go easy and don’t overdose on too many red pills at once.

Make sure it’s GOOD for you and brings you only POSITIVE results.

Happy you found your way. Wishing you every success.

Today is a good day 😊