MGTOW"Why don't you go to sleep?" – MGTOW https://www.mgtow.com/forums/topic/why-dont-you-go-to-sleep/feed/ Tue, 09 Jun 2020 09:16:31 +0000 http://bbpress.org/?v=2.5.14-6684 en-US https://www.mgtow.com/forums/topic/why-dont-you-go-to-sleep/page/487/#post-9944 <![CDATA["Why don't you go to sleep?"]]> https://www.mgtow.com/forums/topic/why-dont-you-go-to-sleep/page/487/#post-9944 Wed, 10 Dec 2014 23:45:24 +0000 Mitchell I don’t sleep because I don’t want to dream.
Specifically I don’t want to wake up because I have to deal with the loss then. I hate reality, but not more than the bizarre dreams I have. But the dreams are horrible. Horrible.
Everyone visits. Past lives I thought I outgrew when I was 18. Long passed people. Asking me questions all night. “Why don’t you….” Children, marriage.
S~~~. Sometimes I even dream of her. Starts off great, laughing, f~~~ing. Ends with her answering the doorbell and leaving. Sometimes I see her back walking away.
When I lay down to sleep, I try to die. I literally try to will myself into nothing. Let me crash. Don’t let me dream. Oh, Jesus, please, I don’t believe, just send me to hell. No. No, I’m there. I want to die every night. Anything, just don’t let me dream anymore.

]]> https://www.mgtow.com/forums/topic/why-dont-you-go-to-sleep/#post-9945 <![CDATA[Reply To: "Why don't you go to sleep?"]]> https://www.mgtow.com/forums/topic/why-dont-you-go-to-sleep/#post-9945 Wed, 10 Dec 2014 23:50:54 +0000 TheNinjaUWannaH8 Wow.  There’s something lyrical about your pain, Man…like Paul McCarthy’s “Yesterday” or “Long and Winding Road.”

Welcome.

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