My journey into the redpill and eventually MGTOW started in 2014 during my freshman year of college. Up until that point, I was a young man who had never kissed, had sex or held a girl in my private high school. My teenage years were characterized by studying and activities that would round out my college applications and resume. I was an unhappy teenager who would play video games and angrily workout in the garage because I hated my life. The teenage me wanted nothing but to be left alone to jerk off to deranged pornography and enjoy the safe hobbies that wouldn’t threaten my future of career success. I experienced extreme shame in my increasingly, taboo porn habits and believed that it would permanently damage me for a good relationship with a woman.

Once high school was over, the college experience began. I enrolled at another private school and experienced an extreme increase in my level of personal freedom. However, this freedom did nothing to change me. I did my schoolwork and worked out. I attempted friendships with the cute girls in my class and became an EXCELLENT friend. Thankfully, I never lost my virginity. That would have jeopardized the healthy relationships I had with my friends and threatened my carefully-planned life. The only thing stopping me was myself.

After failing in getting dates or moving any relationship beyond friendship, I wondered what was the problem. My looks were not the issue. I had done modeling in the past, and had a great physique from my years of angry workout sessions. Figuring that I could simply look up what women wanted, I came across the New York Times Article, “What Do Women Want?” This article revealed to me that women want to be absolutely dominated by wealthy, uncaring men without their consent. I judged that I needed to know what kind of pornography women enjoyed the most in order to understand what this meant. Smut fiction gave me my answers.

I looked up more and more articles and devoured redpill information for months. TheRationalMale, Heartiste, Dalrock, the Spearhead, Rooshv, Return of Kings–I must have read every single article on all of these sites.

I managed to employ some level of game in my relationships with girls and things noticeably improved. After years of zero contact with females, girls were more flirtatious and accepting of me instead of dismissive and cold. I attempted to push things forward, but my inexperience and remaining beta behavior ended up causing me a lot of pain.

At this point, I started finding more MGTOW content. I had begun to suspect that women cannot feel the same kind of love I felt for them as an essential fact of their nature. Women can be affectionate towards men, but they only do this because they see men as objects they love to control. They do not feel the altruistic feelings and admiration a male experiences towards his mate, and they never will.

My journey through the redpill lens of gamesmanship to MGTOW’s lens of truth has been hard and alienating. The more I learn, the more I cannot relate to or enjoy the company of the plugged-in. People who believe that women are sweet, kind and attracted to hardworking trustworthy men are thinking about their mothers. I look down on these people, and I almost can’t help it. Even when I try to inform them or hint at the primal and unchangeable mechanics of human reproduction, they won’t listen and flat out deny my information.

I am alone in my social groups and no one understands this. Even if people listen to me, they will inform me that what I assert is the norm is actually the exception to the rule. After all, their ugly moms stayed with dad all those years and didn’t cheat or leave. Am I telling them it was due to the baby weight and finances that these women stayed?

In spite of divorce statistics, in spite of the bias of divorce courts, in spite of men’s death statistics, in spite of the ruin single-motherhood has brought to cities, in spite of biological evidence, in spite of the phenomenon of Twilight and 50 Shades, in spite of the religious texts these people believe in, I live in a gynocentric world where women are given every freedom imaginable to destroy civilization and the men smile happily and work like the wind-up toys they are born to be.

I will not contribute to this system that is fine-tuned to use me and discard me as efficiently as possible. I will take as much as I can while giving as little back as necessary. Until all men realize that it is in their design to control, dominate and rule everything weaker and more stupid than they are, this civilization is doomed to die. The reigns of civilization have been given to the idiotic and petty children women are, and it is going to hell. Unless the feminists complete their grand project and women metamorphose into men, nothing will change. But one thing is for sure, I am a man going his own way as of my twentieth birthday, and nothing will ever change that.

Watch out there. I’ve been just like you at your age, even more hardcore red-pill… And then I fell in love… and forgot everything I knew.
And here I am now, 36, two marriages in and out, on the other side of the planet, starting everything from square one. Don’t do it!

Word of advice – please avoid posting anything that could be interpreted as hate. the MGTOW public image depends on this. Imagine that feminists are reading each of your posts looking for something to smear the MGTOW movement with. MGTOW is not a hate group!!!

Welcome

OP, welcome to the forums. You dodged a bullet and that’s great.

However, I think that the site’s P.C. image is already doomed after I listened to the “How To Treat Women” podcast under “listen”. I said what I felt like saying because I have friends whose parents are their living proof of bluepill truths. “NAWALT are like that,” they say. “My mom wasn’t, so I’m safe.”

Violence is all that’s unwelcome here.

KGB was pointing this out but …. well …. his Russian 😁  but hearts in right place.

I can guarantee that when you ‘settle’ … your life will be amazing.

You are like a missile that’s now had coordinates programed in. Your target? …. career + wealth + independence + freedom.

See women for what they truly are …. use that info as YOU see fit.

You are the future …. I will watch with pride as you launch ….. and smile … as I rub one out under my wheelchair blanket 😆