After lurking on several MGTOW forums for nearly a year, I have realized that in order to progress, I will need to take a more active role (both in life and in the forums). I’ll start with a short bio about myself, I’m 29, married to a European, no kids, no common investments (i.e. house, car, etc.). Yes, I know, I have already committed a cardinal sin by getting married. One that was only compounded when she immigrated here. But I am still relatively free since we don’t have children (…relatively).

Upon discovering the red pill earlier this year and subsequently devouring as much information on the web as possible. I decided I wanted to wake up from the dream (read:nightmare) and start living my life for me. I gathered up the courage to ask her for a divorce. After many arguments and several tear-filled discussions over the course of two weeks, we reached the agreement that she would move back home. We even packed the boxes and found a shipping company…

But then, my deeply conditioned beta male came out in the nick of time. In a matter of hours… nay, minutes, I undid everything that I had worked for over the previous two weeks. I told her I was sorry and that I wanted her to stay and that we would make it work. So here I am, four months later, she’s still here and I am trying very hard to make it work. You could say that had I regurgitated the red pill before it could be fully digested.

Last week, after several code silver (selfishness) and code green (puerility) shaming attacks, I stumbled across my half-eaten red pill and remembered that these shaming attacks weren’t happening for the first time ever, but for the first time since before the “divorce” talk. She had been on her best behavior, lulling me into a false sense of comfort before re-revealing her true nature.

As I try to gobble down the red pill again, I’m faced with even more internal resistance. And I’m not surprised. The first time around, I read and absorbed the red pill mentality and it was enough to make me take action. I went 50% of the way through with a divorce and the whole world shamed me, ultimately breaking my red-pill will. To compound the problem, I was praised when I decided to “make it work.” I want to complete my red-pill transformation and it seems that I am having difficulty doing this on my own and in the face of so much disapproval.

So I am here in search of support, brotherhood and a little Red Pill Positive Reinforcement to help me wake up.

Divorce is war and be prepared to play chess against her checkers. If you have to appear blue pill for 6 months while you relocate into a decent divorce jurisdiction (and do some serious homework on it) then do so.

Take this as an extremely dire warning regarding what you are about to go through.

All i can tell you is sometimes you have to take it one breath at a time.

I want to complete my red-pill transformation and it seems that I am having difficulty doing this on my own and in the face of so much disapproval.

Make their Disapproval meaningless to you.
You don’t need a woman’s approval (or anyone’s) – for anything.

As I already mentioned, I am going through a divorce. As you, I am also 29. Only difference is that I have a daughter of almost 2years.

Now, there is no point of me describing my situation in detail in this forum(need to do that in the intro section), but will give you a piece of advise my grandfather gave me when I was a teen.

About 15 years ago, when I started going out with my first girlfriend. My grandfather set me down(sorry if my english is bad, but its my third language) and told me that I needed to analyse my girlfriend. I needed to look all the negative things. I needed to look at if she was selfish, shamed me, lied to me, was condescending, or anything else that I could make out. Then he said, multiply all of her negative behaviors and attitudes by 100, and you will come close to understanding how she will act towards you once you are married. But, he said. If you have a child, then you should multiply her negative behavior by a 1000 times.

So, brother, please think about this and learn from my and the rest of your brothers mistakes.

(i apologize for the grammar and some other mistakes. English is my third language, plus I am a little drunk(going through a effing divorce))

@keymaster I couldn’t have asked for a better response. I know that one of my weaknesses is my need for approval. But at the end of the day, the only opinion that counts is my own.

@jangles your response made me think. I did keep a sort of “pro/con” tally, leading up to the first time I asked for a divorce, but in the wake of making up, I destroyed all of the notes I had kept. I have started a fresh tally again and at the moment, the scales are tipped in favor of divorce.

To all – joining this forum was the best decision I have made in months. I can see that the support and brotherhood I was seeking is here in spades. I look forward to keeping you guys posted.